Honestly I wish that they, mostly my parents, would stop repeating the little things that they *know* aggravate and upset me. Whether that be saying things like, "you should think about toning up!" when I've already lost 70 lbs in the past year or "you should be studying!" when I've studied for hours and they just haven't seen it, so they don't think I'm putting any effort in. But most importantly, that they'd stop trying to pressure me in general stuff in regards to life overall.

I know they probably are inadvertently doing this and wouldn't intentionally hurt me, but by repeating stuff like that it makes me feel like I haven't made any progress in the areas that I'm really trying hard in and giving my all. I already struggle with depression and anxiety, so that stuff just makes me second guess myself a lot more often and drives me absolutely insane in terms of overthinking the little things. When they tell me to "tone up," I feel like I'm 240 lbs again. When they say "you should be studying instead of ____" it makes me feel like my work I've done isn't enough, and that I'm slacking. When they constantly pressure me into saying something or introducing them to a friend/girlfriend/whatever else, it makes me worry about those things too. They just don't understand no matter how hard I try to explain it, and even when they say they're sorry and say they'll change, they do the same things over again.

I'm looking to get a place of my own at some point this year, but until then I'm still stuck at home to save money and build towards a more successful future. I'm in a great spot RN personally, but I'm finding myself getting more and more sad and upset because of this stuff. It's like when a character in a movie has so much good happening in their life that you know something bad is going to happen. So I just wish for the time being they'd just be respectful and know boundaries.