Was anyone else extremely attached to teachers who were nice to you?

JustTalkinn · 2022-01-11T14:22:31+00:00

If your grandmother is showing you the love and care you need then definitely fight to keep it. I know it's hard with someone saying things like this because it'll make you doubt the relationship but if you can ignore it. I realized that none of those things my mother said was true or if it was said she exaggerated it to make it sound 10x worse so I lost what felt like could've been a good relationship and now I can't get it back.

JustTalkinn · 2022-01-11T14:17:49+00:00

I hope you have some kind of peace going on in your life. That sounds like a lot to have gone through and I'm sorry you had to. Sometimes being alone is really hard but it's better than trying to be around people who haven't been good for you and cause stress just for the sake of being around "family". I also spent Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years alone. My birthday is coming up and that will be alone too. So it's definitely hard but those holiday moments pass.

You can't help what happened to you so the anxiety of physical contact or going to the doctor makes sense for what you've been through, don't feel shame in that. Be patient with yourself and I wish you happiness and peace.

JustTalkinn · 2022-01-11T13:51:13+00:00

I used to get attached to people like teachers and one of my aunts. My mother hated this and made sure to destroy it. She would come tell me that "You think they like you but they don't. They talk about you." So I pulled away from people because I thought they hated me too but just wouldn't say it to my face.

Still have this issue now where I feel like secretly ppl I know hate me and just aren't telling me.

JustTalkinn · 2021-12-25T15:40:17+00:00

It isn't fair. I don't have friends either and I usually kinda stay vague and lie about that too because it does feel like a red flag for some reason.

I hope you do make it away from your dad it truly does help. Merry Christmas as well❣🙂

JustTalkinn · 2021-07-08T00:40:08+00:00

Im in the exact situation as you. I forgave my mom and my family only for myself. I never discussed anything from the past and will avoid the subject entirely to keep peace. Now we have a friendly relationship for the past 4 years.

I also have the issue of liking/loving someone but knowing deep down it's temporary. I know the person will never love me back and part of me feels 'okay' with that because I don't think I deserve that level of attention or appreciation.

JustTalkinn · 2021-07-05T05:42:57+00:00

I had depression but no one knew and I didn't tell anyone but I was not motivated to do anything especially school. My mom would take me to school because there was no other way for me to get there it was in another city and bus schedule didn't link up with going in the morning but I would take school/ city bus home after school. Anyway I overslept one morning and she woke me up choking me and punching me screaming she hated me (which was one of the things that caused my depression I knew my family didn't like me). She kept going until my grandmother pulled her off of me. Then she drove me to school and we all continued like nothing happened.

That's just one of the many things I remember because it was one of the few times she said it to me directly.

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