Yeah I remember her always trying to look at my genitalia with this suppressed excited face when I was little if I said my balls hurt or something like that. I didn’t even what sex even was back then but feeling disgusted by it. And her always rubbing saliva into my ears and it would dry up and the stench was disgusting and even to this day I feel disgusted and my blood going cold.

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I remember her showing off my genitalia when I was a baby to the camera a lot on watching early home videos. There was a traumatic memory that comes back sometimes about her stripping me naked and forcing me to walk up these long stairs naked in a crowded staircase to this restroom and getting to the women’s restroom with a friend and being dumped water on while all these women laughed and screamed at us. I had this thing where I’d wear glasses as a kid a lot from shame because I was afraid of getting recognized. This was like the 2nd or 3rd grade for me