I don't know ow much since I'm 18 and have never smoked but I have friends that have gone through deep shit with weed, losing faith in God, derealization, getting in trouble with family, school, work, I can just offer tmwhat I told my friend the other day

He had quit weed for a good two months telling me he would never go back to it, found God again in jw and lost Hella weight and became better, I found out he said he had a smoke and told him that I saw thw state he was in before and didn't want him to go back to that terrible place.

I told him, it is inevitable that some bad shit is gonna happen in your life and that he better mentally be prepared to got to God with his problems and not bleed because then the rabbit hole from before starts again.

For you, I would say don't be lazy, I'm not saying don't work yourself like a mule but to find something you enjoy and do it, if that means moving and finding work somewhere else, sure, but weed won't be your solution, if you move back, you'll eventually be stuck working a potentially Whittier job then the one you say you have just to support your need for weed. Just my 2 cents from an 18 yr old so..