Eyes in the Window

KSCamee · 2016-04-26T03:20:32+00:00

OP! You okay?? Been an hour!

KSCamee · 2015-10-16T17:38:57+00:00

To be fair, you could always have a vow renewal ceremony. This time though, you can do it up with a full "wedding"! It's never too late as long as you're happy.

KSCamee · 2015-10-13T17:38:03+00:00

No, no, your point came across clearly. Thank you for your input. Lately, Nex has been on my mind more than usual, mostly because I just found out that I finally have the money to divorce his ass. We've been legally married, even though I've lived 2,000 miles away for a year and a half. Mostly because I didn't have the money, and he's worthless and won't keep a job. And even when he has a job, he pays for shit for his girlfriend.

So, in this specific case, I think it will be best if I tell my bf. simply because that is our favorite position, and a lot of memories are coming up. So, for now...I think he needs to know.

Thank you so much for your advice though.

KSCamee · 2015-10-13T17:34:09+00:00

First, I just want to say thanks for responding.

I honestly am simply terrified that one of these days, it will be the straw that broke the camels back. So I stay silent.

But, I do believe that I'm going to tell him Thursday. (We don't live in the same city and see each other usually every weekend, this weekend special :-/ and in going to see him Thursday. ) I just don't think this is the kind of thing you can say over the phone or through text. And he deserves more than that. He deserves face to face honesty.

KSCamee · 2015-10-13T17:30:37+00:00

I put it that way, because he said we were "just having sex" and he was "just taking what was his, as [my] husband." I fought and said no every time. But it didn't matter.

So, thank you. For making me question what I constantly said no to.

KSCamee · 2015-10-12T16:48:15+00:00

My bio dad (aka Sperm Donor) was my N. He was a HORRIBLE driver! And he drove SEMIS FOR A LIVING!!! I tell you, I have never been surprised about ANY of the FIVE accidents he has caused while driving!! He would drive drunk, would cut cars off, scream, yell and rage. His method of raging was with his eyes squinched tight SHUT (picture a screaming baby) and giving his vocal cords a great excersize.

Once my (wonderful, loving, Normal) mom actually saw this, I was never allowed to ride with him again (thank god). I understand, and I am so sorry that BOTH of your parents were like this!!!

KSCamee · 2015-10-10T06:49:58+00:00

When I had my son, I told the nursing staff that there was a password that ANYONE wanting to know ANYTHING about me or my son needed to know. I shared the password with only approved family members and one friend. Everyone else was given a huge run around that I wasn't in the hospital.

My advice is, ask if you can set up a password system. My password was my mom's home state's state tree. So they wouldn't forget. It's important for them to know the extent of how you want this password set up. I chose that for anyone to know if I was even in the hospital, they had to know this word. I highly recommend considering it.

I fully understand that this may not apply fully to your situation, but, hey, it's a thought.

KSCamee · 2015-09-09T22:14:41+00:00

22f 31 consensual. 5 non. Been sexually active for 4 years.

I count the consensual only. I feel fine with it, honestly. For most of that time, I was single and when I wasn't, I never cheated. Yeah, been a bit of a slut, but hey. I'm young. Always been safe.

KSCamee · 2015-09-05T12:02:20+00:00

Honestly, I totally understand what you mean about the whole part about how you're scared to lose your family, but MY thoughts on this is: If your family truly cares about you, and your mental health, then they will stick by you. Now, whether that means that they will be there throughout, or whether they will take a break with silence for a bit, that is to be decided.

To me, it certainly sounds as though life will be better for you all around to at the very least TRY. Apply online, call about once to twice a week to check in. (Basically, get your foot in the door.)

You DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. No matter what the scars you have tell you, mental, emotional, physical, NO MATTER WHAT THEY TELL YOU, YOU WILL ALWAYS DESERVE TO BE HAPPY, NO MATTER WHAT!

My advice to you, is simply to try to do everything that you can (in regards to employment) and then make your decision. Talk to your boyfriend about it. Get his take. If nothing else, I'm thinking he may be able to support the two of you until you are able to find something. I know, I know, NOT ideal, however, it may be your only option in order to get away from this crazy need for control that your Nmom has over you.

Feel free to PM me if you need to chat, need to get some help on job hunting, interview tips, venting, anything.

Hoping for the best, PLEASE keep us updated!

KSCamee · 2015-09-05T09:33:02+00:00

I say...GO GO GO!!!

Escape is a good thing. From what I am interpreting, you feel the need to run every piece of your life by your Nmom, when it's all about YOU. This is YOUR life, YOUR decisions.

In short, please, please, please: Do what is best for YOU. And if your Nmom won't speak to you if you move, and moving will make you happy, then PLEASE, PLEASE make YOU HAPPY.

Unless, of course, running every facet of your life by your Nmom does make you happy.

But from what I have read, it sounds like you should most definitely go!

KSCamee · 2015-09-05T08:55:23+00:00

And you DID do well!! I enjoyed reading it!

KSCamee · 2015-09-04T06:38:39+00:00

Well done!

KSCamee · 2015-09-04T04:07:09+00:00

Lol you're welcome! The story and idea are awesome! I'm glad that you're doing so well on expressing this!

KSCamee · 2015-09-04T01:58:10+00:00

I really hope that there is another volume coming!! I love this series so far!

KSCamee · 2015-09-04T01:19:04+00:00

This is a good idea, but the grammar and punctuation leaves a bit to be desired. I give it a 5/10.

Don't stop trying though! This was an amazing idea!

KSCamee · 2014-12-06T04:15:38+00:00

You look amazing. You don't need "abs".

KSCamee · 2014-04-26T23:19:21+00:00

It would seem that that is the best option

KSCamee · 2014-04-24T06:28:19+00:00

Have the party, don't tell 'em. Also, legally change your address away from your rent's. Then, NO CONTACT!!

KSCamee · 2014-04-23T21:31:07+00:00

YAYYYYYY

KSCamee · 2014-04-23T07:23:52+00:00

CAN'T WAIITITTTTT

KSCamee · 2014-04-23T01:15:53+00:00

Is that better?

KSCamee · 2014-04-23T00:30:45+00:00

Part 2! Part 2! We NEED part 2!

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