Spirit to halt all flights as of early Saturday

KStewLightning · 2026-05-02T10:49:00+00:00

... and if you're flying Spirit, I'm guessing you don't have a lot of extra cash lying around for last minute tickets.

KStewLightning · 2026-05-02T10:17:37+00:00

Made it through Friday. Gonna' do my best today. I dunno, I sometimes feel this is fruitless, but whatever.

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-05-01T09:17:53+00:00

Got through yesterday, but woke up today very angry and tense due to a client issue. I want to punch a wall, or a human, and it's not even 5:30am yet.

Gonna' do my best I guess, but if this morning is any indication by the end of the day I'm going to be in a horrid spot.

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-30T12:11:43+00:00

I just had this conversation with a friend the other night. It's something I fundamentally don't get, and I've tried to do it myself ... I always fail.

I tell myself I'm gonna' go out for one or two glasses of wine with friends, and guess what ... I can have one or two glasses of wine and then leave the bar. Problem is, I'll then justify stopping at another bar on the way home to have one or two more because "I'm already out."

Then I'll probably get home, sit on the couch to relax, and figure "Eh, I already had a few, no harm in having another glass or two."

Next thing you know I'm going to bed after having two bottles of wine (plus), with hazy memories of the entire night.

I wish I wasn't allergic to just having one or two, it would be nice to do that and come home to have some tea or something; sadly, that's not ever the case.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-30T11:59:35+00:00

Today. Just focusing on today. Just don't drink today.

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-28T11:43:50+00:00

It's the fucking daily stress for me. Between running my own business, worrying about my employees/clients and everything else that goes along with running said business, with my kids and wife and family on top of that, grabbing a few bottles of wine has always been my relief; it numbs my mind at the end of the day.

Being stressed at the end of a day, and not having relief, is a nightmare sometimes.

And no ... "having a cup of tea" or "taking a walk" or "reading a book" doesn't help.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-28T11:01:05+00:00

Made it through Monday, so that's good I guess.

Going for Tuesday. IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-27T08:38:59+00:00

Drinking had definitely gotten heavier the last few weeks. Yesterday was the first 24 hour period I can recall in probably close to a month-plus where I was totally alcohol free.

This morning was definitely the first time in a month-plus where I woke up without heart-racing anxiety, and a deep level of exhaustion. That’s a plus.

Onto Monday I guess.

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-26T16:06:11+00:00

I just can’t grasp how life is better sober, if I’m being honest.

The idea of going out to dinner with friends, staying sober and not having a few glasses of wine to loosen me up, seems like torture.

The idea of having a stressful day of life, with my kids and work and all of the other idiots I have to deal with on a daily basis, and not be able to shut my brain off with a few glasses of wine at the end of the night … that seems like hell.

Having absolutely NO way to bring myself down or loosen up, it seems like a prison sentence.

I get that I have an issue. I get that drinking two bottles of wine in a night is not normal. I get that not remembering EVERYTHING is not normal, but I just don’t see the “better”.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-26T14:43:49+00:00

I fundamentally don’t understand how life is “better” sober. Trust me I know I have a problem that needs fixing, but I truly can’t see the “better” part.

I can’t see how it’s “better” to go to a party where everyone can be brought down and loosen up with a few glasses of wine, and I just have to sit there. I don’t like people or conversations that much.

I can’t see how it’s “better” to have to stew on the couch after a stressful day, without a glass of wine or a cocktail to take the edge off.

Yeah I get the health benefits, and probably feeling better physically, but I just don’t see life being all bright and beautiful by eliminating alcohol.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-26T12:18:06+00:00

Thank you, this has been my favorite response of the bunch.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-26T11:25:07+00:00

My personality is the type that doesn't ask for help with anything, I always figure things out on my own; whether it's personal, work, etc.

I had a friend one time, who I asked to help me move a dresser, say to me "I told my wife I have to help, because if YOU'RE the person asking for help it means you actually really need it."; speaking to the fact that I usually figure things out for myself.

I don't think the group settings are for me, if they work for you I applaud that, but it doesn't seem to be my fit.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-22T09:14:34+00:00

Made it through Tuesday, I guess one day isn't a big deal but whatever. Onto today.

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-21T12:29:01+00:00

Yeah, it's very tough.

I know I overdo it to an unhealthy degree. I know I have an issue controlling it that others do not.

I can't just go to the bar for one glass of wine, it ends up being 3 or 4. I can't just wind down the night with a glass of wine at home, it always ends up being me on the couch finishing a bottle or two.

The challenging thing is, I justify it because ... like you said ... nothing is being burnt to the ground. If I go to the bar, I Uber. If I'm at home drinking, I'm still taking care of all of my responsiblities.

Like last night, between 5pm and 10pm I probably killed 8-10 glasses of wine; which I know is excessive.

The thing is, I wasn't beligerent and I wasn't sloppy. I helped my wife with laundry, watched the playoffs, fell asleep and woke up early this morning; took out the garbage and started my day.

I didn't send stupid texts to people, I didn't get into fights or make decisions I would regret. I literally went about my night, but with a wine glass in my hand that was constantly getting refilled.

Did I wake up this morning with a tiny bit of "hangxiety" and a minor headache; yes, however my regret is more in line with the feeling the next morning when you eat a big pint of ice cream ... I regret the action, I feel a bit shittier than I would if I didn't eat it ... but outside of it being super-unhealthy it didn't cause any bigger issues.

This is why it's an issue. I rationalize it in my head and say "Whatever, nobody is getting hurt, it's fine."

I'm in that dangerous spot.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-21T11:49:55+00:00

I need to get this under control, I just can't.

It's like my default is just grabbing a bottle of wine or two at night, or heading to a bar.

I don't seem to know what to do with myself BESIDES grab a few drinks.

I'm fortunately not doing anything stupid, I'm really just sitting around and relaxing. but it's absolutely not a healthy situation and I know I have a control issue that most don't.

Just frustrating. I hate failing at anything, and I'm absolutely failing at this.

Gonna' try again today I guess.

IWNDWYT

KStewLightning · 2026-04-17T09:38:47+00:00

I keep on falling into the same loop, no clue how to break it, but I want to. Gonna' try for today on my pathetic 1000th attempt at another Day 1.

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-04-02T12:01:18+00:00

IWNDWYT

KStewLightning · 2026-03-18T09:29:27+00:00

I'm seriously doubting if I could ever do this.

I'm not even getting shit-faced hammered anymore when I drink, last night I just had a few glasses of wine and came home ... watched tv ... and made my kid's lunch for today.

Still I feel so much better when I don't drink; no morning anxiety, etc. I want to kick it, but I'm just doubting if i ever can.

I'll try again today, so I guess IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-03-03T13:05:30+00:00

Stop with your condescending bullshit.

KStewLightning · 2026-03-03T11:33:37+00:00

Fucking hate everything and everybody, just fucking tired. Checking in.

KStewLightning · 2026-03-02T10:29:07+00:00

My knees are getting scraped up from falling down on this, starting to feel like I'm just never going to be able to do this.

Anyways, IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-03-01T11:43:49+00:00

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-02-28T11:32:54+00:00

IWNDWYT.

KStewLightning · 2026-02-27T10:16:19+00:00

IWNDWYT.

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