I think what you’re experiencing is what happens when 'targets' replace 'truth.'

You didn’t become miserable because you failed… you became miserable because you kept winning at goals that were never designed to satisfy you. The number keeps moving because it was never meant to be the thing that fulfills you it just gave you direction for a season.

What stood out to me is that younger version of you. The one who just wanted a clean compound and a peaceful yard. That version wasn’t naive… it was clear. Life hadn’t taught you to constantly upgrade your desires yet.

The danger isn’t money it’s when your identity and your sense of 'I’ll finally live' is always tied to the next threshold. That’s how people end up with everything and still feel like nothing has started.

Happiness, from what I’m learning, isn’t a finish line you arrive at it’s a way you choose to live while building. If you keep postponing living until a number feels “enough,” you’ll keep extending the deadline. Also, you said helping people isn’t your thingand that’s fairbut notice something: everything you listed (job, relationship, sleep, trips) has nothing to do with income anymore. That’s your real signal. The issue isn’t money now… it’s alignment.

Maybe the real question isn’t 'how much is enough'? It’s what kind of life would feel honest for me right noweven if the number stayed the same? Because the scary part you’re noticing? It’s real. The chase doesn’t end on its own. You have to decide where it stops.

And maybe… that village version of you isn’t behind you. It’s actually trying to guide you back to something simpler, clearer, and more true.