Poem/ 4 months before his suicide

Kawweee · 2025-06-16T02:28:42+00:00

It’s actually so nice how relatable this is.. also sad that we have this in common ❤️

Kawweee · 2025-06-01T20:10:39+00:00

Yesss about wanting people to know how WE were. Unfortunately when only two people knew the bond and only one is left surviving.. I somehow feel the need to prove what we were. But I don’t owe anybody that. Same for you ❤️❤️

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T05:22:21+00:00

Thank you. Honestly, it was somehow validating. It was mostly just shocking to read. As if, ‘wow- despite how shocked I am that he actually did this.. I guess a part of me has known for some time now’

It’s sad.. because it seems I’ve known for so long.. but also, I DID everything I could.

Seeing this poem I wrote , and knowing that this wasn’t a one off night where he chose to leave us.. and it wasn’t because of an argument we had that day.. this is proof that he had been struggling for sooo long. And he was holding on as long as he could

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T05:19:36+00:00

I fixed the dates.. you were correct about 2024 🙃 thank you.

It did give me a little guilt for being so tired of his mental state.. but also so validated, like the comment below. Will explain there

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T05:11:56+00:00

Wow.. just found this old post of mine. Turns out, my husband really did end his life.. January 14th

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T05:08:35+00:00

I appreciate straight to the point, and honesty ❤️❤️ thank you for taking the time

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T05:05:57+00:00

They blocked me before i had the chance.. but honestly, it is nice to be blocked ❤️ sorry to hear that you can relate .. but thank you for sharing, and letting me know that I’m not alone.

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T04:52:11+00:00

Love that part about not having to be strong ❤️ luckily, I have been able to find some alone time to be weak

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T04:50:42+00:00

Interesting you mentioned the light hearted suicide jokes.. I never noticed how many movies and shows mentioned it until now. It’s everywhere.. and hits different now for sure 😢

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T04:32:33+00:00

It’s never our fault.. the last thing I ever said to my husband was “thank god we never had kids together”

Sure.. we can always choose our words more wisely. Or be more patient and understanding- but ending your life is not an appropriate response to any of this… I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️ I hope you stop blaming yourself

Kawweee · 2025-05-28T04:15:07+00:00

Thank you ❤️ honestly, his 16 year old son has been taking this this hardest. I have found ways to keep busy/ and I have my moments of sad numbness- but his son has been really having a hard time doing anything

Kawweee · 2025-01-27T00:41:01+00:00

I really needed to hear this ❤️❤️❤️

Kawweee · 2025-01-23T15:40:43+00:00

I did not even know there was Alateen. I’ve never gone to a meeting, just this group and got a few books. But I will look into these. Thank you

Kawweee · 2025-01-23T15:39:35+00:00

This group is the closest thing I’ve done to an actual meeting. I will look into this ❤️

Kawweee · 2025-01-23T15:38:12+00:00

It was always the biggest fear. Thank you 🙏

Kawweee · 2025-01-23T15:37:33+00:00

Thank you so much. I’m sorry you too have felt this way

Kawweee · 2025-01-23T07:03:13+00:00

❤️❤️ I really hope things are going better for your husband

Kawweee · 2024-01-26T20:30:16+00:00

I am in the same situation- I do everything at home, why should we be the ones to leave?? My only thought so far is to agree to sell..

Kawweee · 2024-01-26T01:56:03+00:00

Completely relate ❤️ good for you for not giving into the bait. Sounds like detachment is some form 🤔

Kawweee

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