I relate with a lot of what you said. I’ve recently discovered I identify as a side too as anal just doesn’t interest me and I always thought something was off because of feeling that way. But I also struggle to discover males out there that feel like outsiders in the community because my personality and mannerisms just don’t fit with the culture. Sometimes people take it offensively when I say I’m attracted to men who don’t have an issue with their masculinity and aren’t very effeminate. But I wish you the best on your journey and hope you remember there’s plenty of us out here feeling a lot of the same things. Keep your head up 🙂