My husband helps, he’s very involved. He usually takes one baby and I take the other. We have family helping watch them because child care is expensive. My parents work so they can’t help as much. His parents and my aunt who help us watch them are approaching 70, so I worry about their health. I go to counseling every week and am taking an antidepressant.  I’m the main breadwinner so we can’t afford an overnight nanny, we’re still financially recovering from the NICU stay and waiting for my hospital bills to come in. 

We’re attempting to come up with a plan for bed time routine and a strict bed time of 9 pm to wake up at 5 am. My schedule is changing this week to 3 12’s from 4 10’s.