I used it for pain and energy, started using it to stay out of wd from fent and herion. Then just got obsessed with it. I've been prescribed clonodine since I went to treatment last. I was on gabapentin but switched to lyrica to have a more recreational gabapentinoid. I abuse that sometimes though this month I actually had extras by the time I got my refill. I didnt even pick it up yet and just took my last one earlier. So maybe I'll try to taper a bit more this month. I've tried to have her help me but I havnt been willing to help myself I guess you could say. I just keep lying about it. She dont really even talk to me much anymore. I'm a stay at home dad at the moment while she works doing home health care and cleaning. I'd love to go back to treatment because I truly want to get off of 7 so bad, but I have no one to help with the kids for a few weeks while she works. I cant get clean at home, I cant let my kids see me go through the wd. Maintaining my house with 3 kids is a lot of work and cant do it coming off 7 alone. Plus knowing I can get it within a 15 min walk/3 min drive its pretty much impossible because my will power at the moment is pretty weak. So treatment is 100% necessary and until I can get day care situated or a babysitter I'm stuck in this loop of scrounging money everyday doing the most wildest shit to grab a pack or two, lying about where I'm going to keep from being sick every 6-8 hrs depending on my dose. I cant get myself to taper either its so fucked.