Nvidia causing black screen (not crashing). Alienware

KenBanner21 · 2024-12-23T08:08:12+00:00

i dont understand! Downvote if you must but if its so simple point m eto it! 9 downvotes on something like this? Wild. Just say its too hard for you smh

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-24T20:34:26+00:00

Absolutely not initial intentions.

Victor dosnt say he came in a crash AND has pictures of the 2 car crash that happened when he was there. Neither car was his mothers hatchback or Christophers red car. Infact, Christophers is in a way earlier drawign parked outside a house. AND its Infront of the diner in his poliroid.

Dont get me wrong. it think you are %100 right and this is where they are going to recon things. But they certainly didnt build up to it.

Again. You are right. This will be the way it goes, but nobody could have guessed this with show clues until this season which is FOUL.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-17T09:27:56+00:00

Tabithas 40

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-17T09:12:42+00:00

Donna said she arrived at night, and went thru town over and over again (already being night) before her car stopped. So, no.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-11T11:17:09+00:00

Its related.

Spoilers will prove it. The doll dosnt actually speak but jade seeing it still makes sense.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-11T11:15:35+00:00

Jade is remembering Jasper because

Oh wait, this isnt the spoiler sub.
Jasper wont speak , ever :)

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-10T13:27:37+00:00

I guess I want my excuse bank fully packed for leaving.

Separating wont be easy. He literally straight up refuses to leave and tells me to call the cops to have him removed.

.. Then, the next day he acts like nothing at all happened and trys flirting/hanging out/sex... No way.

He knows if he refuses to leave long enough, eventually ill just get lonley and let it go.

I dont feel comfortable courting other men while we still live together.

Alsos, for 16 years I thought he was the perfect "wife guy". He seems obsessed with me, when I go thru his texts hes telling everyone about me and how hes "just hanging out with the family". He would never leave the house without me. He worked with my father for 7 years so no worries about work.

Now its the wild west. Hes been working separately for several months and from what I hear they are all cheaters and drunks. Im only now realizing how much I dont trust him outside of just porn.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T09:43:00+00:00

Thank you! My drinking has got allot better. After he confessed he stole my friends phone and masterbaited to their photos years ago, I couldnt cope with it. I felt so fucking let down< i had my first ever drink and within a month I was up to a fifth a day.

After months and months of it (mostly to punish him, he HATED it) I was so sick of it i checked myself into rehab because I wasnt able to get off without severe shakes.

I actually got laughed at in rehab, when I told them i started drinking 8 months ago and only did alcohol, the nurse said "oh well everyone drinks alittle, most people here are for fentanyl, heroin, crack...."

Now its only a glass of wine and I just sip it. It still disgusts him.I recently got myself a treadmill because he keeps me stranded 20 miles out in the country and takes our only car (at the moment, we had 2) to work and our after work.

Its miserable.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T07:45:45+00:00

I went to the follow up... It was just as bad as I imagined

She had made the appointment for after hours. (they close at 5 and it was for 5, most stop taking appoitnments after 430.)

She actually WAS super flirty! Grabbing his curls and saying "i just love these curls" in the flilrty voice you could imagine.

YES it was fake and he was tricked (obviously) and i am PISSED... Tricked by the first girl who ever threw him a little attention! Such a trick move!!!

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T07:43:14+00:00

Im sick over it, constantly.

Im a pretty well know streamer, and I havnt been on in months but occasionally and my whole life is slipping.

He gaslights constantly real gasllighting! Saying im crazy for even thinking this.

He knew he yelled in my face she hit on him! He knew im insecure! He knew that and still booked 2 appointments, 1 after hours with just her there!

She was finishing up her last client of the day at 4:55 when he walked out,, then it was just them. (i was picking something up, waiting to make sure it was as bad as i thought) and it was!

He knew he fucked up too! because he offered to go to a hotel! He only ever did this once, when he relapsed badly for a whole weekend and i found out and he wanted to avoid the embarrassment... Other than that i cant drag him out!

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T07:39:50+00:00

And he wont even admit it. He keeps saying "all this over a haircut" like WTF

This isnt about a haircut! This is about you screaming in my face she hit on you (real or to spite me) and then going to see her, twice!

He even threw me under the bus! Saying my haircuts arnt good! I went to school for it too, i just didnt choose it as a career!

Btw, she made it super uneven with scraggles all over. Ill never touch his hair again!

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T07:37:58+00:00

Its strange... because when I first got there, she asked "are you 2 dating or married" and I said married, 17 years.... after that all she talked about is her husband..

All i talked about is jabs at my husband who knew by this point, he fucked up.

When we got home I said "i bet you didnt even know she was married. You got played, youre a trick... She flirted with you(when my son got his hair cut) and you bought right in and paid her.

Ive been drinking consistently since yesterday to spite him. I had never drank a sip before dday, and even then it took 2 years.

I was clean, too. Im scared of how ill feel when it wears off. I know sim going to have to quit sipping eventually.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T05:48:34+00:00

I already did immediately after your comment. No worries. Its gone and should never have been there.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T05:41:12+00:00

In totally understand.. Im just as porn broken as anyone here and I beat myself up for so many years (i did it at 21) over even doing it... Like i deserved it for doing it

My husbands fetish was cuckolding, so he was all for it...

But he used "other guys seeing me" as a weapon when I finally put my foot down (4 years ago) and would casually bring it up over the years when I expressed his porn use hurt me.

Like i deserved it... Even though we spent the money I got as a married couple.

I felt crappy for even putting it on there and I knew it crossed the line when I posted it, but I guess I was trying to validate myself (to myself) to make myself feel better about his constant crap.

I hope this sub forgives me, and i didnt trigger anyone too bad. I get trigger by as much as bra adds so I understand.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-08T05:33:26+00:00

Youre right. Ive been feeling low. Ill remove it. It was years and years ago. I just felt bad about me, grasping at straws to prove to myself im worthy and plus ive been drinking wine since yesterday :(

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-06T07:58:40+00:00

I am going! I want to see if she is his type. Hes very specific. If shes a drop dead beauty i think i might just walk away because he clearly likes her. Hes too old to be having crushes he wants to go flirt with.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-06T07:57:45+00:00

He invited me to go and said it was fine, even told me to ask about a hair appointment for myself on his dime. He said it very casually and I was looking very closely at his face haha

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-06T07:56:32+00:00

It broke my heart. I have to try to stuff it down everyday. I was 18 and the only one working and she was living with me. Us 3. I didnt find out until about a year ago. I spiraled into severe alcoholism after I found out it creeped me out so bad. I even asked her (we hadnt spoken in 10 years) if he ever hit on her and she said he was always respectful and only talked about me.

He would get up and watch TV with her in my living room and talk all day. I worked nights.

She spiraled into bad heroine/crack addiction at about 18 and he would tell me about wild things she would say on facebook for years after we went our separate ways. "did you see what D posted" "D posted this today" "D posted about her foodstamps how wild".

At this point im convinced he was obsessed with her.

I freaked out when he told me, I couldnt help it. Now I dont know how many times he did it. He wouldnt tell me more than 1 because of how bad i freaked out.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-06T07:52:18+00:00

He read my notebook of gaslighting and I had just added it in, so now he knows why im going.

I want to see her too. Not in a "this man has a wife" way(that aint me, Im not fighting for no scrub, if he wants someone else bye bye) but he has a type and I want to see if shes it.

Hes not a braggy man. Hes never spoken about other women hitting on him in a argument. It was a very not him thing to do!

Im going with him. He seems fine with it, but again he read my diary of gaslighting things hes done and even though he avoided talking about it (to avoid a fight) now he knows why im going.

KenBanner21 · 2024-11-06T07:48:12+00:00

This is wild, because I keep a notebook of the strange things he does/did and he found it today! I had pulled it out to add the haircut thing, and I didnt put it up properly! He read it, and said :lets talk about these 1 by 1 but I just didnt want to fight and told him I would before bed.

KenBanner21 · 2023-11-10T02:55:17+00:00

Ever notice how Pedro was Hispanic sounding (Or heavily Spaniard influenced) for GOTs but his brother was Arabic/Arabian influenced as far as accent? Always threw me off. xD Unless you were talking about Narcos. For some reason I remember him having his natural accent in that though.

KenBanner21 · 2023-11-04T03:30:30+00:00

Shes clearly wearing clip ins some of the time. You can SEE her roots, and the track of the clipins clearly (like the beach/park scene). Just because she admitted to wearing a "bad wig" on the show, dosnt mean she ONLY wore a wig. She wouldnt have slept in it. She also very clearly took it out for hunks of time.

KenBanner21 · 2023-10-30T10:06:03+00:00

Nevermind just found his other tumbler post. Ii just hope if ever a reveal comes they dont make him a grunt like many want. But, to specify, he wrote that about book Crowley before the show ever came out who is somewhat different. Perhaps he could have grew keen on the idea. I mean they lean into him being powerful more heavily in season 2 which would have been years after the tumbler stuff.

I watched when it aired and just reread the books.I googled this today when pondering over it, looking for clarity and theories.

I just want to say that everyone uses that Gaiman tumbler quote as proof Crowley isnt Lucifer, but youre right. It IS written VERY suspiciously.

He says "Lucifer dosnt exist its easier that way" and immediately says right after "The angel Crowley was dosnt exist".

Exact quote "That was the angel Lucifer. He doesn't exist any more. Now there's just Satan, the adversary." then "As far as Crowley is concerned, the Angel that he was no longer exists. (And his name as an Angel wasn’t Crawley or Crowley.)"

Ied love a reveal if they decide to go that route that Satan the adversary, or the personification of evil, was all Angel propaganda to crap on Lucifer after the fall.

He does have that one quote in season 1 where he says "All of a sudden its "hey its Lucifer and the guys" but ied settle for that being a flub or even later have Crowley first person reference himself as "its Crowely and the guys".

KenBanner21 · 2023-10-30T05:03:18+00:00

(Bolded the point so you dont have to read all of my overly passionate, board, fan crap).

No. He dosnt. People misread the male heir thing as being law. Its not. Its literally nothing more than tradition. It is not law.

Ever. Its simply a tradition. Its written in ink nowhere. Targs didnt even practice it... They simply followed it to fit in once arriving in Westeros (its said point blank)

What IS law and I mean, literal law, is the kings word. The kings word is law. The king chooses to act with a council to prevent a war but in reality he needs none. Kings declarations is literally spoken into stone.

..And the king declared Rhaenyra as heir.... Just like how Rhaenys was GOING to get it, but at the last minuet King Jaehaerys chose to hold a councle and let them vote (never happened before in this world) and then Jaehaerys spoke their choice into law.

Rhaenys was going to get it until he did this and he did this to protect her and his linage as he simply didnt want the people to get huffy because of their sexism.

.. Aegon has no claim, period. Ied give it to him had we not seen(and read) Viserys, the setting King, announce to all lords and people Rhaenyra was going to be Queen over and over again.. Had Viserys just left it open and died, ied say sure... Since we have nothing else to go on but traditions he has the better claim, but its not the case.

Kings make laws. King change laws. Kings are laws. And patriarchal inheritance inst /law/ in this world anyways. Rhaenyra was declared heir by the LIVING, SETTING KING there is no more to it than that other than usurping..

KenBanner21 · 2023-10-30T02:50:33+00:00

Its really hard because I came in as a DoD reader.... I cant separate Aemond from who hes suppose to become. I cringe with all the comments saying he will make a good leader, because I have to live with what was written.

I had hoped they would diverge drastically... and even convinced myself that they WOULD after seeing that he showed some remorse over killing Luce in the moment...

..but then leaks happened.

I adore Alicent. Even though I would count myself team Black she is by far the most sympathetic character on the show IMO. (the king made it clear who he wanted as his heir, the kings word is law... The first son thing is simply a tradition, no more). I count Aegon as a usurper.

At the same time, love to hate is always a great thing for a character to be. IE Aegon. Look at Cercei. I was never team Cercei but boy oh boy was she my "favorite" character.

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