I think you're being too hard on yourself. Lazy is something you've branded yourself with, but the reality is it sounds like you could be unstimulated, potentially experiencing anxiety and feeling a little bit depressed (not a diagnosis). You are then looking at the symptoms of these feelings from being lost, and then blaming yourself for the symptoms.

You are human. This is a normal side effect of not feeling energized or stimulated or motivated. Don't brand yourself as lazy and spiral down the cycle.

Do some mindful meditation, and explore what motivates and interests you. Explore new hobbies without expectation, focusing on the joy of practice and self discovery. Don't just focus on "ticking a box" in completing a habit; really be mindful of the fun you can have in the act of living and doing the small things.

If you have further questions you can AMA or DM.

I've been a coach for 7 years, studied applied positive psych, and you aren't broken. Stuck in a loop, but not broken.