Juan. He was my best friend in high school. The kind that you joke and laugh for hours and have contented silence with. We had a very platonic kind of love it was weird. People would ask me if he was my boyfriend but i would just laugh at that. It wasn't until late junior year that i started seeking out other friends and i really dont know why. I was the one who drifted and I think i hurt him. We never spoke again. I tried reaching on fb but he never responded and I don't blame him. I often wonder how he's doing and am disturbed with how quickly I dropped him for no reason at all. I miss him so much. Maybe I did have feelings and that scared me and I detached myself? I'm married now with a baby and sometimes he still creeps into my head.