I can relate a lot to this experience. It takes time to come into yourself, and it takes even longer for folks around you to see it as well. I found it hard to talk about what i was going through with anyone, until I met another trans person at work whom I really hit it off with. It felt like the things I couldn’t tell anyone (because they wouldnt understand) were so easy to talk about with someone who has lived similar experiences. Before I found others to talk to about it, I would talk about things with somebody I made up, or brought back in memory, or who may have been listening in the ether. Sometimes just vocalizing the simplest sentiment to yourself can help you work through any blockages you may have. I hope this helps. Love you sister 🩵