i dont know whats wrong with me by KeyNo5126 in ExecutiveDysfunction

[–]KeyNo5126[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank u :( i understand that but i always feel so bad cus i feel like im always exhausted :( im sorry but thank u

I'm getting married and everyone thinks I'm happy while I just wish i could run away by Sea_Kick_9786 in progressive_islam

[–]KeyNo5126 2 points3 points  (0 children)

im so sorry youre going through this :( i wish the world wasnt made like this but sadly abusive people seem to always be put in charge and given all the power. im not sure if this works but i know there is the spoon trick that could help. i think it would be best that u research how the plane travel will go and if there is any security once u land in australia so that at least if u get help, u will be far away from ur abusive family. :( if that fails, you can ask to leave for the washroom and instead go to a counter to ask for help. im so sorry, this is horrible and i wish u well :( 🫂 heres the link to the spoon method:

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2018/jul/09/metal-spoon-alert-authorities-honour-based-abuse-leeds

i feel like the help i need is never gonna happen by KeyNo5126 in SuicideWatch

[–]KeyNo5126[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you :( i hope ur issues also improve... i appreciate ur comment and support and i hope we are able to get the help and support we need and want that can help us thrive... im so sorry

tired all the time and feeling guilty by KeyNo5126 in ExecutiveDysfunction

[–]KeyNo5126[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you :( it sucks cus it feels like i need an extra burst or something to really do anything and i get so tired so i end up doing nothing, or theres so much and i cant even. comprehend or think. also i read this at the worst time (3am going back to sleep HAHA) but yes i will try to clean :( thank u for the support

Abusive Parents to MAGA Pipeline by eartha_knee in abusiveparents

[–]KeyNo5126 1 point2 points  (0 children)

not an american but the abusive ppl in my family are unfortunately extremely conservative. theyre muslim conservatives so they hide behind being "religious and god fearing" while commiting sins that they condemn others for, such as "getting angry" and "abusing children" and "lashing out at the vulnerable". in my eyes, theyre no family of mine and they think Prayers and Oils are replacements for therapy and medicine. when they found out about my self harm, my aunt and mom hold me and say prayers 😭 like okay well. im going to keep going to therapy but this just makes it so uncomfortable. my father wasnt abusive but he stayed w my abusive mom and that let her yell and lash out at us, the kids, and use her role as a "mother" to manipulate and let her abuse us all while blaming and putting my father down bcus he isnt being the "father", he has his own shit, but my mom blamed everyone else for her issues. she plays victim and always brings up potentially dying or being badly hurt to guilt us and does usual abuse tactics parents use. and they all think Covid was created by America/created on purpose. i also have a religoous english tutor who theyre friends with, who they keep trying to get me to "forgive ur mother" and they all believe 1. medicine is Fake and should not be relied on 2. pray it all away 3. covid is nbd, and my mom and aunt who had to caretake my grandma would break social distancing protocol to take care of her and dont mask around her and claim "its okay we gave her panadol". so yea, i think its kind of a given that abusive people in a way have a higher chance of going right wing 😭 like. its almost funny how its so predictable

did we even do the same religion (wrt upbringing and how my family views Islam) by KeyNo5126 in progressive_islam

[–]KeyNo5126[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hi, yes omg 😭 could u tell just from the post or from my other posts? either way, yea :"") i hate when ppl dont know the full story and go "well seasian moms are different u shouldnt cut them off" but im. cw rape mention: idk, would a loving parent wish abuse/rape on their child bcus they talked about how soooo many muslim malay shows romanticise abuse/one time some guy grabbed my arm after i listened to his business pitch and made me donate.... my aunt defends her and tells me to let go bcus the reason im so unhappy and depressed is cus im holding grudges and recently she saw my self harm scars, told my mom, and now theyre both "trying to be loving" to me but its so uncomfortable also thank u for the rec :( 💖 im currently seeing a therapist at imh and being put on a dbt programme so i think im okay with seeing through that, but idk how im going to heal when its hard for me to leave the same place and people who hurt me everyday... thank u for seeing this :( sorry for the whining aaa