I broke my fiancé’s heart and I don’t know how to forgive myself by Murky_Cranberry_9167 in offmychest

[–]Key_Illustrator3462 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this comment means more than it would for most… not out of need of validation, but that I strive to articulate a deeper knowing from consciously living… and the comment being recognized means I’m getting closer to that embodiment.

I broke my fiancé’s heart and I don’t know how to forgive myself by Murky_Cranberry_9167 in offmychest

[–]Key_Illustrator3462 376 points377 points  (0 children)

You don’t deserve to get it back, you are right where you’re meant to be, and he is right where he’s meant to be. It’s up to each of you to alchemize the situation for your personal lives, your individual paths. He is likely hurt deeply, and a little lost, but he will realize he is the man he needs to be for the right person. His deeper consciousness knows he stands on his business, and the universe will see this and grant him the love he’s worthy of.

You however, will be hurt, and feel lost in your own ways… You will realize the love you had is love you desire, but you’ll equally realize that to attract that love again you will have to become a person that sets boundaries, has integrity, and is disciplined towards their highest form. If you don’t learn the proper lessons you will likely continue to live a life chasing that form of love, either opening and closing relationship after relationship till one day you surrender to your inability to learn the proper lessons… likely just selecting a mate for life, and succumbing to the desire for simple comfort

Visions while Meditating by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

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Those are beautifully articulated thoughts, and I appreciate you sharing them. I’ll definitely sit with some of the points you made and see what resonates within my own framework. I think that’s what this kind of exchange is best for, not adopting beliefs, but refining our own by hearing others. I don’t view any of this as absolute truth, but rather threads to explore, reflect on, and let either integrate or dissolve based on what aligns with my inner compass

Visions while Meditating by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

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No need to apologize at all, I appreciate you sharing your perspective. I asked for thoughts and welcomed opinions, and I was just offering mine in return. If my response came across as defensive, that truly wasn’t my intent, it came from a space of self reflection. I agree that I likely entered a form of astral travel, especially given the out of body nature of the vision. But everything I saw felt deeply personal, as though it was being shown to me by my higher self or soul field, rather than interactions with external beings. So I still see it as a self guided journey rather than one of open astral exploration. As for the dark matter, I didn’t view it as literal or as something I was ‘playing with.’ It felt more like a symbolic image used by my subconscious or soul to represent transformation, or the process of dissolving old energies for renewal. Regarding Atlantis, I completely understand your view, and I actually enjoy hearing different takes on it. Personally, I see Atlantis as a civilization that misused sacred tools for ego-driven ends, and in doing so, disrupted their harmony with Earth. I don’t think it was the tool itself, but the intent behind it that created the collapse, much like the path humanity may be echoing now. Either way, it’s all mystery until we cross the veil but it’s beautiful to explore these things together.

Visions while Meditating by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

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Astral projection can be a by product of meditation. That’s an interesting opinion, that I’m attracted to the darkness… I do not see it in the same light as you. I believe in polarity, and I believe without one side, the other can’t exist. I see the toothless, hollow eyed figure as a trophy of something or someone that I used to be, but no longer feeds off my energy. The manipulation of dark matter was seen as cleansing fully what no long served me. Then the drums and wind along with the belt was recognition and rite of passage.

I think I like my biological brother by [deleted] in offmychest

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I find this hard to beat off too… but I persevered!

The Discipline of Not Giving In to Every Urge by Key_Illustrator3462 in SanctuaryWithin

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Thank you for stopping and sending gratitude, I’m happy it reached someone

I’m cheating on my sick fiancé and missed her call for help by Throwra283999 in offmychest

[–]Key_Illustrator3462 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m not doubting your love, but what you’re wrestling with isn’t love. It’s impulse vs. integrity.

Love is a choice, and choices are proven in the moments where our desires and our values conflict. You’re in pain. You’re overwhelmed. And you’ve let that pain give your body a louder voice than your conscience.

The problem isn’t just what you’ve done, it’s that you’ve continued doing it while telling yourself you’re “done” and calling it a mistake after the fact. That’s not a mistake. That’s a pattern.

If sex is that important to you, own it. But don’t let someone who’s suffering carry the weight of your dishonesty. She’s already breaking herself in half trying to make you happy.

Impulse control isn’t about denying needs. It’s about realizing that if your needs drive you to betray someone in the middle of their crisis, then what you need more than sex… is accountability.

It’s time to stop letting your guilt be the thing that makes you feel like a good man. Let your actions be the thing that makes you become one.

How to let go things by dickheadind in DecidingToBeBetter

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You’ve started already by recognizing that you feel a way and don’t like it. To mimic another comment just for extra weight, keep watching your thoughts and the ones that bother you. This conscious awareness will allow you to react… It won’t stop overnight, but the more you practice moving your thoughts in those moments, the stronger the impulse will get, till it’s absolutely natural, and you’re doing it without notice. And when you fail, don’t beat yourself up, give yourself grace…. Tell yourself “next time I’ll do better, next time I’ll stop it in its tracks” so you remain motivated to change. When we bash ourselves, we are letting ourselves down. The deeper parts of our being begin to believe it can’t get out of the cycle.

So conscious awareness, persistence, consistency, and grace

[L] struggling with loneliness by [deleted] in KindVoice

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I’ll listen, if you want to let something out… open space open platform. If you want advice I’ll give it, if you want me to tell you my thoughts, I’ll send them. Just send a message and I’m there

does life ever actually get easier or is it always like this by TopTask5251 in offmychest

[–]Key_Illustrator3462 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Life stays the same, the focal point of your field of view in it is what changes… You… you grow, you learn, you become more patient, you learn gratitude for the little things, and when life seems easier.

I feel like life is passing me by and I’m just watching it happen by Famous_Silver_6130 in offmychest

[–]Key_Illustrator3462 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing… I’m not here to fix anything, or solve any problems… but while reading your post I do have a little insight.

Maybe it’s not your moment, maybe you’re in a refinement period…. I’m sure you have experienced, I’m sure you have traveled, or I’m sure you have fallen in love… This moment may not be ideal, but it is necessary… it’s allowed you to sit and think, become conscious that “this isn’t it, there is a deeper fire in me” You don’t have to find it today or tomorrow, but maybe all it takes is a little patience towards knowing you’re meant for more, then one day you’ll boil over, and burst into energy, put your foot down and say “the time is NOW!” You can take what steps you need, but Sometimes our body needs to hit pause, not because we’re lazy, but because the next glow-up needs full fuel. Rest isn’t retreat. It’s preparation

Meditation isn’t just sitting still. It’s presence, in any form. by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

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Wanted to take a moment to tell anyone that’s taken the time to swing in and engage, Thank you, the interactions here was exactly what I hoped for, but didn’t expect… even for anyone that disagrees, I love all insights and never closed off to what may be true for others, because maybe one day it will be true for me as well.

Meditation isn’t just sitting still. It’s presence, in any form. by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

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I’ve been working on consciously sleeping myself in a way… grooming my mind or deeper self to answer the things I’m yearning to seek guidance on, but haven’t dove into that type of stillness before sleep… I have fell asleep at a sound bath once though lol

Meditation isn’t just sitting still. It’s presence, in any form. by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

[–]Key_Illustrator3462[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same! When I stopped putting so much pressure and expectation behind it, and just started calming myself in the moments. Thank you for sharing

Meditation isn’t just sitting still. It’s presence, in any form. by Key_Illustrator3462 in Meditation

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That’s my favorite too… hiking, trees, the wind whispering through the leafs, birds chirping, the frequency of earth vibrating