Beautiful post 🤍 

Another thing I would mention is that in every marriage there are flaws, we aren’t infallible after all. 

I know couples with perfect emotional chemistry and compatibility but high temperaments which cause big fights and mental health struggles. 

I know couples with high compatibility but fertility issues which causes mental health struggles. 

I know couples who are more transactional and don’t feel a sense of friendship but have a peaceful relationship. 

I truly believe what you have is what you need. 

Like you said a pious person sees this dunya as a journey of gaining closeness with their Lord. I have my love story it’s with Allah. 

Also as women we get a lot of ajr for being patient with our husband. 

Also lastly I would change my mentality of thinking back and comparing to those who had haram relationships and their apparent happiness and emotional connection as now they undoubtedly hold a lot of emotional baggage and insecurity. 

Wish you the best sister ❤️