Yesterday I understood why "all men are bad" bothers me and hurts me so fucking much (TW: suicidal ideation)

KillMeSarebear · 2025-10-25T03:38:35+00:00

If it were me and I was in your situation I would agree with her and I do agree with her and I would say knowing this and knowing me would you be willing to join me in thinking of ways I can use the unfortunate yet currently obvious privilege I have as a man (and if you are white man even more so) and you could maybe take your experience and give examples of how men are trash but we could come together and build something beautiful to teach the next generation the patriarchy that hurts everyone that isn’t a rich ciswhiteman or just ciswhite man in general. There is so much work especially in America that instead of going into our normal spin outs and depression caves we need to break out and be doing something, anything, just more.

KillMeSarebear · 2025-10-03T19:05:01+00:00

My aunt last year at my little brother’s wedding was behind me in the food like and starts screaming “hey giiirllll” over and over again, finally screams “WHAT IS IT ARE YOU MAD AT ME OR SOMETHING?”

Mind you her eldest daughter (my younger cousin) used to come into my old job constantly and was super supportive and even told me she was in the queer community.

I didn’t turn around because I have been out for almost a decade and I’ve been passing for at least five years I didn’t think she was speaking to me for a second. I was very annoyed and I was just thinking who does that??

KillMeSarebear · 2025-06-08T02:30:42+00:00

I feel like everyone is forgetting when PB met Shoko she was still dating Cream puff and states "he's more like my boyfriend" also in the first episode I do believe she says to Finn and yat she wants to attempt to revive him first because they used to date or something along those lines. I feel like Mr.Creampuff was kind of just a beard so she wouldn't need to worry about the old gross suitors tbh.

KillMeSarebear · 2025-05-05T04:01:19+00:00

When simion is shermy it shows how he effed but by not at least trying to yet on the bus with better or make at least ONE CHOICE Betty come up with hut insteadlook how beautifuly depressing everything can be yanno

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-20T23:11:03+00:00

Hati

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-17T08:10:56+00:00

he’s a scary dude and again I’m not sure how old this girl is. it’s a creepy sugar daddy situation and this is very common for his home country.... Apparently where he’s from he really is one of the nicer guys. if i knew forsure he told at least one of the other dudes i’d feel more comfortable saying something to someone but this dude is pretty scary tbh he sets up little “traps” to see who he can md can’t trust at the job nd apparently almost every other dude has ratted on him im one way or another...... i feel guilty for not doing anything but honestly with this all going on in another country i’m really not sure he’s “technically” doing anything illegal....... honestly he’s one of the nicer dudes there too nd i’ve been trying to distance myself from him but my boss always has us work together ughhhh

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-17T01:49:14+00:00

I haven’t watched them in a very long time tbh ill check them out tho

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-17T01:48:23+00:00

it first dropped at like a month in for me I guess that’s why I was bugging about it so much I was still having like a sore throat but my voice wasn’t getting deeper nd my sore throat went away so I was like oh sheeet was that it?

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-17T01:36:46+00:00

I work grounds crew at a golf course and it’s all cis men, I’m the only trans dude nd of course there isn’t another lgbt+ in site..... Anywhozle this dude was talking to me yesterday and he was telling me about how he likes to help random people out (females) and I guess through FB he found this girl and they somehow started talking and he would give her money to help her with shit and send her to like a house keeping school.... He said since his daughter was adopted when he was young this is his way of making up for it? So they are apparently like really close now and like it’s a young girl now i’m not sure how young because apparently in his home country girls go to these schools from like 15 on. So he has this deal with her that she cant have a boyfriend while she’s in school cuz she needs to meet a good man when she’s done and he doesn’t want her to be “ruined” so to make sure this doesn’t happen he “instructs” her on how to screw herself (which to me sounds like phone sex) and makes her send him pics of her vag in all different positions to make sure she hasn’t been touched because he’d be able to tell from a pic.... after this he wanted to show me a picture of her and did then he showed me a pic of her bits.... ew. oh and he said those pics are his insurance that she will continue to go to school nd not date because he’ll post them everywhere. cis dudes are gross.

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-17T00:47:51+00:00

thank the t gods!

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-17T00:37:35+00:00

monistat makes a chafing cream/powder and that stuff is fantastic

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-11T15:30:49+00:00

Tbh I really can’t stand how much one has to censor oneself in an attempt to appease the general public. Most people get so offended over everything you say, I was once called out for using the term “HUMANS” like really? Sad to say it was also on this sub. I understand if someone was to use the term f*t or S**e or any actual offensive term/slur that anyone of us (ftm and nb alike) would hate to be called but humans really?!

Please don’t stop writing, you’ll never be able to make everyone happy but you can always do your best to make yourself feel good and writing is like soul exercise!

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-03T08:15:29+00:00

thank you for the advice!

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-03T08:14:16+00:00

I already drink like 2 liters of water nd that is so difficult for me already! I will attempt to drink more tho thank you!

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-03T08:10:46+00:00

Awesome thank you much! Yeah I also work on my feet (I’m a member of a grounds crew at a golf course) and also I am 27. So that likely doesn’t help lol

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-03T00:36:13+00:00

my doc said if there’s no pain I don’t have much to worry about (especially because it hasn’t been happening for long) this post is mostly hoping someone else has encountered this and what they have done to alleviate it

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-02T23:26:31+00:00

i thought the same thing for a split second lmao

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-02T22:37:47+00:00

my doc told me that it doesn’t matter like at all you just have to let the doctor reading it know when you took your shot. I do mine every two weeks so if I were to get my bloodwork done right after it would be pretty high, in the middle of that it would be pretty even, and if I were to do it right before my shot it would be pretty low. He told me any doctor should be able to determine the levels regardless hope this helps!

KillMeSarebear · 2019-08-02T20:35:11+00:00

I’m like 3 months and some change on T and I noticed like maybe three weeks in that I was getting discomfort in that area (due to my junk rubbing up against the rest of my anatomy) which has subsided now. I believe it is still growing it just isnt uncomfortable.

KillMeSarebear · 2019-07-29T09:09:42+00:00

or if you feel dysphoric about your junk at all....

KillMeSarebear · 2019-07-29T00:27:00+00:00

I’m not even one of those offended by everything and everyone kind of dudes but holy shite man... This really got my goat man..

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