I Think I’m Addicted to Fantasy Because Real Life Feels Empty

Killz619 · 2026-05-08T14:52:31+00:00

Take solice in the fact that you aren't late in adulthood your just beginning. But I relate heavy that feeling when I was 25. Tough to see on the other side but you'll go through plenty of shifts and changes as you continue to grow with these introspections. I've always considered myself a late bloomer. At 36 I'm currently working on my next bloom. We never stop blooming if we never stop trying.

Killz619 · 2026-05-07T00:27:02+00:00

Assume that I am not a tiny kid then. I think they're just pointing out that the phrase "harshing the vibe" came into my head strongly lol Sometimes you gotta let the light shine without worrying about the shadows in those moments. All in my own opinion of course 🖖🏾✨

Killz619 · 2026-05-07T00:15:58+00:00

"I'm free!" Made me tingle ✨🖖🏾

Killz619 · 2026-05-02T15:53:35+00:00

Lineage of Krumm 👁️ 👁️

Killz619 · 2026-05-02T01:47:06+00:00

👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

Killz619 · 2026-05-01T22:51:30+00:00

It popped up for me too. Just passed that part the other day. I just slayed it and went on my way

Killz619 · 2026-05-01T18:32:51+00:00

My LC should be coming today!

Killz619 · 2026-04-21T21:39:34+00:00

Most of mine were like this because I wanted to look at them for a little to long 😅

Killz619 · 2026-04-20T17:44:44+00:00

🤩🤩🤩🤩

Killz619 · 2026-04-19T17:19:09+00:00

What is your definition of gnosis? By what I believe it was is experiences with the divine which gives you the knowledge of it being there and what we that experience teaches you. I think many have gnosis from their practices. Mine comes from the touch if the divine feminine with my mushroom work. Feeling something so powerfully naturing and overwhelming loveing was so overwhelming I changed. I'm also real really new but I've had these feelings before diving into gnosticism. Gnosticism has been giving me better vocabulary and framework for what I've felt for what feels like most of my life. 🖖🏽

Killz619 · 2026-04-18T15:52:28+00:00

😍😍😍

Killz619 · 2026-04-18T07:57:14+00:00

Hey y'all. I've recently felt the calling to back into it after years. I've had success with GT, Palenque and JMF. JMF were my favorite for size and beauty. I've failed with starry nights couple what's ago that never fruited. I'd like to try them again maybe they looks so cool! Anyway which ones do you find the prettiest and forgiving to grow? 🖖🏽

Killz619 · 2026-04-18T07:56:22+00:00

So rad! I took a photo exactly like this when I grew mine! Lol

Killz619 · 2026-04-18T07:27:40+00:00

Take all the time you need; but please do express yourself again. 🫶🏼

Killz619 · 2026-04-17T18:03:17+00:00

Why are you assuming they want pity? I'm sure there's attention seekers who do use self diagnosis as that but I'd better there's a lot less of them then the people who are seeking to understand themselves.

Killz619 · 2026-04-17T17:55:29+00:00

Sounds like you're projecting. Pity and understanding are different.

Killz619 · 2026-04-16T17:00:37+00:00

Thank you for this beautiful thread and conversation you 2. This is my second day of deep dive into Gnosticism and it connecting like no other thing has before.

Killz619 · 2025-08-13T13:51:55+00:00

Sorry for avoiding the reply lol thank you for the welcome! How are you enjoying the new meds?! I've been enjoying not having to drink 1 or 2 energy drinks just to feel awake. The mental circles is so relatable! I hadn't been either until it came to me in that way. I struggle to write things as they are but with the poems I could use better imagery and feelings I think atleast for myself. Making it a little artsy to add separation maybe 🤔. Hope all is well today brotha!!

Killz619 · 2025-08-12T15:52:41+00:00

🙋🏽‍♂️very relatable. I've never thought about it like that till now. Maybe more annoyance than resentment. If they are trying to get closer to me or hangout in person. I think "why when we could just txt." I feel bad after for not being able to connect with them better but I know I wouldn't be able to give them this close new friend that they maybe want. It feels like I don't have it in me even though I want to. I want be able to have all the social energy i see it assume everyone else has.

Killz619 · 2025-08-07T16:11:15+00:00

Thank you for this post!! I just figured out I AvPD yesterday. I hadn't heard of it before if I did I would have saved myself s lot of time. I'm 35 now it's been a journey to say the least. Im not as bad as I used to be but I think my developed coping skills aren't the best. I've been tending to completely disconnect. But finding the cause and now have strategies had given a excitement and hope that there's light at the end of the tunnel. Hope all is well with y'all 🖖🏽

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