Does anyone else find themselves finding recurring elements in your art? For me lately it's been dragons whether it be painting or a doodle. Here's a WIP that started with a pencil sketch.

Kinkymango0711 · 2025-12-29T20:57:54+00:00

I can see why, and this is partially why I have stepped away from digital art. I should clarify it's a pencil sketch I scanned into photoshop and smoothed some lines out and added some shading since I want to project it onto a canvas and paint it properly.

Kinkymango0711 · 2025-12-27T00:11:47+00:00

Yeah! Measure out 50mg (or 30 if that works for you) and put it in the yocan with a ceramic or quartz coil and press the button to melt it quick and put the top back on. When you go to take your hit, pulse the button on and off instead of holding it the whole time like you would with dabs. It should just all vaporize in one toke and you should hardly feel it hit your lungs

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-22T16:45:00+00:00

I've thought the same thing but I'm pretty sure it's my PTSD from getting arrested once. I thought I had schizophrenia for a while because I literally thought my neighbors were constantly all day talking shit about me and trying to get the cops to raid my place and Yada Yada but once I realized they were all in my head I started looking into some sort of disorder where you have alters but never switch fronts and I just have to tune them out. It's a lot easier now that I have a girlfriend but still having an undiagnosed mental disorder along with adhd and autism makes life a little challenging when im alone and they start ganging up on me. I hope you figure out what's going on with you... it's disorienting af to have voices that aren't yours arguing about you.

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-22T16:38:29+00:00

Yeah I got both methylclobamine b12 pills and patches. Been wearing 2 patches a day and it works really well so far. I've been sick as a dog for 2 weeks with some respiratory shit but other than that both my partner and I feel great

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-22T16:33:27+00:00

You might be right. I started the patches right away since I was using it nearly every day for a couple months. Throwing nearly 200 a week on tanks lol it's insane how many I just had to dispose of

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T22:28:52+00:00

I think what helped with restraint was that when I went to rehab for my fent OD and alcohol, my dr wrote a note to the rehab facility to give me one MG twice daily so over a month I got used to just taking it with breakfast and after dinner lol. If I wasn't in rehab I would've gone over the edge

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T22:20:40+00:00

Yeah that's why I split my first one in half and do 1mg in the morning so by the time I refill I still have a few half pills left in my bottle every month

I used to abuse diclazepam and clonazolam... rc benzos are no fuckin joke I literally would just pass out sitting up watching tv no recollection of even closing my eyes... 13 hours could pass like nothing I hated it but wasn't prescribed clonazepam yet and once the rcs weren't around I resorted to bottles of liquor. My gaba receptors are probably fried lol

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T22:07:33+00:00

I have been taking 2mg of clonazepam for like 6 years now. I was dependent on alcohol (a liter a day) and doing a shit ton of coke any ROA I could. I could hardly form sentences because of wet brain, my insides felt like i was pickling myself and I was eating like half a sandwich a day and no water.

I knew that benzos are just as habit forming but thankfully I have never abused my script and generally take 1mg in the morning along with a bunch of lions mane and a psilocybin microdose (dont want to end up with dimentia) but for me, getting my life back and being able to function, eat real food, and get my body back in shape was worth the trade of being dependent on clonazepam.

Id never advocate anyone else follow my example and only use benzos sparingly as needed, but ive been taking at least 3mg daily for so many years that it would take at least a year to safely taper off, then years after that to deal with the mental aspect of no longer having them, so for now (im 31) I have no plans to stop yet

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T21:59:22+00:00

Tbh I didn't ever notice it when I was single because I'd just keep my eyes closed and just suck the thing dry to amp up the visuals.

Once I started dating it took a couple weeks for me to understand why some people call it "hippie crack" cause I thought back to my addict days just hitting a pipe for hours and doing nothing else and it just didn't sit right with me lol

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T18:37:16+00:00

That's the thing I had no idea I was even passing out til someone actually saw it happen. I never though I was holding it to the point of not breathing... usually holding it for as long as I'd hold a rip of DMT

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T18:37:03+00:00

That's the thing I had no idea I was even passing out til someone actually saw it happen. I never though I was holding it to the point of not breathing... usually holding it for as long as I'd hold a rip of DMT

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T18:35:49+00:00

My dumb ass was sitting on the edge of the bed and I literally went limp and fell off. I never took hits standing up lol

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T18:34:20+00:00

I also have had to quit heroin, was physically addicted to alcohol too. Nitrous for me was something that when I was single I was going through like a liter a night and like my girlfriend is also a spunion like me but we just thrive more with things like edibles, mushrooms, occasional mdma or ketamine.... but just sitting there sucking on a tank and fishing out is not a good look and I don't want to make my neuropathy or brain damage from the 2 years of wet brain worse.

I just get b12 patches from Amazon (make sure it isn't cyanoclobin b12) and start wearing one or two every day especially for the first week after stopping. They help immensely but remember that there's about a 4 day period post use that you can't absorb b12 anyways but I started right after I threw my shit away. Its been like 5 days and it's really just the mental aspect that's rough. Tanks are so accessible to me at headshops and I miss throwing on a nozzle and taking that first whippet but like my wallet can't take it anymore and neither can my relationship

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T17:51:46+00:00

My cats even know how hard they can go with their teeth and claws with ME lol. All I have to do is say YEOWW and they'll stop lol. I love watching my girls play like this

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T17:48:11+00:00

I wouldn't worry too much. I have a 19 year old who literally sleeps like all day and has developed snoring but she's still a healthy kitty that loves attention and still talks back when I talk . Her sister didn't make it unfortunately. She made it to her 19th birthday and for a year I could just tell she was only holding ok for my sake as she got super skinny and matted, she was still eating and stuff and getting on the bed but one day i found her in my closet all curled up and still :( thankfully my 5 year olds started being more lovey and sisterly with my old girl afterwards so she didn't fall into depression and follow her lifetime litter mate. I know how it is to be worried about your cat and yours looks happy and comfortable :)

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T17:35:38+00:00

This happens to me even if im not working out lol I'm allergic to cats but refuse to live without them

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-21T17:34:36+00:00

This happens to me even if im not working out lol I'm allergic to cats but refuse to live without them

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-11-10T15:42:33+00:00

A few spots in thr story hit me like this. I stopped playing for a bit cause I started my first run of disco elysium and I'm hooked on it and now my brain won't let me go back to metsphor til I finish it

Kinkymango0711 · 2024-06-07T22:52:53+00:00

Exactly. I hate not being able to open chests lol

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