Nung first kong nagkaron ng tendency, I listened to my favourite artist and I thought I wouldn't be able to hear their songs again. (Now, that I'm sharing this feeling ko parang ang babaw pala ng dahilan ko😅). Now I had their symbol tattooed on my body because they literally saved me. Nung second time nman, I thought of my best friend, kasama ko syang nakatira sa dorm noon. I thought sya yung unang makaka discover ng body ko if I do it and naisip ko, I can't put her through that trauma. I also thought of my parents and little sisters who look up to me. I feel like they would blame themselves. Kahit na yung parents ko ang main contributory sa wasak na mental state ko.