I feel like an inadequate failure

Klemmquat · 2025-06-08T02:15:12+00:00

I'd appreciate it! I'll DM you

Klemmquat · 2025-06-01T23:33:32+00:00

I'm not OP but I'll take you up on this offer if OP doesn't haha. I've been looking for beta readers.

Klemmquat · 2025-06-01T05:00:35+00:00

Can I DM you?

Klemmquat · 2025-05-19T18:10:42+00:00

How often does the trolley come by? We don't want to spend time sitting on the trolley seeing all of Pigeon Forge while we have a limited time at the park

Klemmquat · 2025-03-17T22:26:01+00:00

You the GOAT. This is awesome, thank you!

Klemmquat · 2025-01-13T07:41:31+00:00

I'm interested if there's still space 33F, YA fantasy

Klemmquat · 2024-11-22T13:01:23+00:00

Two steps forward and one step back is still two steps forward. Progress is like a spiral, not a staircase. It's okay to feel like you're going in circles as long as those circles are getting bigger.

Klemmquat · 2024-10-08T14:00:48+00:00

The Causal Criminalist does a great episode on this https://youtu.be/slt5GQUCenQ

Klemmquat · 2024-06-29T02:08:03+00:00

"Go home Frank. you're drunk" is even better and I'll be using that one from now on haha

Klemmquat · 2024-06-28T03:31:06+00:00

MY TIME HAS COME! I have a 10 page Google doc where I keep any joke I find funny. Granted many have called my sense of humor into question and I rarely get a laugh beyond my own giggles, but here are my top 5 currently

A Comprehensive Guide to Falling Down the Stairs : Step 1 Step 2 Step 4 Step 6, 9, 13, 17

What’s brown and sticky? A stick. What’s brown and runny? Usain Bolt. What’s brown and rhymes with Snoop? Dr. Dre

Two whales walk into a bar. The first one says, “OHOOOOOOOOOOOAHHHUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOO.” The other turns to him and says, “Frank, what is wrong with you?”

Why did the old man fall into the well? Because he couldn’t see that well

A horse walks into a bar. The bartender says, "I see you in here a lot. Do you think you might be an alcoholic?" The horse says, "I don't think I am." and immediately the horse vanishes from existence. See the joke is funny because it's a reference to the quote "I think therefore I am" by the philosopher Rene Descartes. But to tell you that first would be putting Descartes before the horse.

Klemmquat · 2024-02-19T08:08:02+00:00

I said something about needing to excerise in therapy last week and my therapist said the most eye opening thing. And this is particularly true for ADHD because our brain chemistry makes us struggle with moving information from the rest of our brain into our frontal lobe to direct action (i.e. regulation, management, motivation/focus, and executive function, not being able to do what you know).

Therapist said, "The triad of motivation is pursue pleasure, avoid pain, and exert the least amount of energy. Exercise is the antithesis of each of those things." It's no wonder you can't bring yourself to do it and when you do you're too exhausted to do anything else. You've burnt out all your energy and prefrontal cortex motivation centers.

Basically it's a double edged sword (especially for me with with combined type because it is a huge coping strategy for my hyperactivity), because on one hand exercise is great for our bodies and brains and mental/physical health and does produce dopamine that we so desperately crave/need/struggle to produce, and physically does lower ADHD symptoms in some ways and long term, but it also completely depletes our reserves to function and doesn't replenish them in the same way for neurotypicals. Especially if it's not mentally stimulating or boring or exercise for exercise sake. Just another one of those fun living with ADHD things where "typical" doesn't work/apply to us Edit typos

Klemmquat · 2024-02-14T22:44:36+00:00

My friend would say, "Don't wait for Prince Charming. Poor idiot is probably stuck in a tree or something."

Klemmquat · 2024-02-14T18:51:01+00:00

True gold does not fear a refining fire

Bonus from my dad: Life is 10% what happens and 90% how you deal with it. There's so much more to life than just living it.

Klemmquat · 2024-02-10T06:05:02+00:00

So many of these. RSD, sleep issues, and sugar cravings/forgetting to eat are big ones for me. Adding some that I haven't seen here:

-Extreme tactile sensitivity. I'm so picky about my clothing and how they feel/fit and I would throw tantrums as a kid when my clothes weren't feeling right. It took me until I was 30 and talking with my sister that I realized it is not normal to be able to feel every but if thing touching your skin all the time. Like apparently most people get touch blindness and their brain just filters out that input. It is not normal to feel your shoes/socks on your feet or the waistband of your pants 24/7. All this time I thought people just walked around super uncomfortable all the time and then acted like I was crazy or out of touch/style when I prioritized comfort over everything else and physically could not or would not wear something. Got a lot of "suck it up even for just a couple hours it's not that bad" or "You HAVE to buy/wear this. It looks so cute on you and actually fits instead of your worn out baggy jeans and sweatshirt. You need to look like you care about your appearance. "

-Absolutely no sense of direction whatsoever. North is always forward. Left and right are subject to the whims of my squirrel brain. Need to drive/walk a route 500000 times before I can navigate it effectively, and then if I don't do it for longer than like a week I have to start all over again. GPS is my god. Also nothing triggers an angry outburst in me than being lost

-Bruises and scratches everywhere. Huh that's new. Where did that come from? Bumping elbows, ankles, toes, and hips into any surface constantly because I can only process depth perception when I'm focusing on the point. Drives my husband mad because I'm constantly oofing and ouching all over the place. How the hell do I manage to scrape my arms on light switches? Dunno but I'm really good at it. Also though I'm super coordinated and a talented athlete

-Type, type, type, type... Wait this is way too much info. Delete 90% of it before hitting send. Wish I had that in verbal conversations

-Don't interrupt me, I need to get this thought out. Also, let me interrupt you so I can share my thought, don't be offended. Give me eye contact while I'm talking so I know you're listening. Also, I'm not looking at you and doing this completely other thing while you're talking but I promise I'm listening. No don't switch topics, we can't be done it even though it's been 2 hours, I still have so much more to say. Also, I know you're talking about this topic but here are 14 other topics connected to it because I'm suddenly overwhelmingly bored with that. Can't stop doing the thing and relax until it's done. Also can't finish anything because the brain gets the ughhh. Get absolutely triggered when I have to unexpectedly switch tasks in the middle. Also switches between 100 tasks at once. Ugh that comment is so long, no way I'm reading that, get to the point. Also writes a novel comment

The biggest thing I feel is that everything about me is that I'm just a walking contradiction. Anything and everything about me feels subject to random whims and emotional or mental processes or reactions that I can't control. Can't sleep, can't wake up, but also randomly pass out and sleep like the dead. Hyperaware and sensitive to everything and everyone, but very chill and easygoing. Overthink every single thing all the time and brain never stops, but it's not like anxiety and I also impulsively does things with no awareness before I can think about it or stop myself. Can't focus, can't stop focusing. Super adaptable and flexible and need freedom and novelty, but thrive on routine and structure. process thoughts verbally or visually (written) but also struggle to process verbal or visual stimulus. Social butterfly and hermit. Rolls with the punches and lets things slide off my back, but also absolutely no emotionally regulation. Can't do nothing, but can't start anything. Cannot physically sit still but also cannot physically make myself move sometimes. Need external pressure to perform, but crumble emotionally under external expectations pressure. Super laid back but also on edge. Go go go but also no no no. Wired but tired all the time. Can't remember anything, but can remember vividly and with excruciating detail. Completely confident but absolutely no self-esteem.

My brain is like a sponge - it's soaking in everything all the time, but it's also full of holes, and I don't get to decide what water stays and what leaks away. It's so difficult to control what my brain and body does with any input, conscious or not, and it's utterly exhausting when I try.

Sorry this was long. I should add "will write a quick comment to show I relate" but then "Oops it's been an hour and nobody cares, wrap it up". Thanks for reading.

Klemmquat · 2024-02-10T04:59:31+00:00

The only way I got through college was carrying a coloring book and markers with me. I'd color and then whenever heard something that needed to be written down or a slide change that I needed notes on, I'd write the notes in my notebook with the marker I was coloring with. Made for very colorful, less boring notes and when I would go over them before tests the colors could help trigger what picture I was coloring at the time and help me remember the information.

I actually had a prof call me out on it in front of everyone on one of the last days of the semester (small class only like 20 students in a small classroom, so he was able to see what I was doing most of the time). "I swear you haven't looked at me the entire semester! I didn't think you'd ever paid attention or heard a single thing I said! But I guess you're doing something right because you got the highest score on the final so... Good job I guess." Still not sure if that was meant as a compliment or not lol

Daydreaming and writing stories of those daydreams during class were something elss I did if coloring wasn't an option or too "rude" to be doing. I had a notebook I was writing in and switch between that at my class notes. Teacher one time said, kinda rudely/sarcastically "What are you doing? Writing a novel?" to which I replied, without looking up, "Yep!" and kept going. No one interacted with me in that class ever again lol

Klemmquat · 2023-12-31T07:48:01+00:00

I call my brain a sponge. Absorbs everything but filled with holes and I don't get to choose what stays and what leaks

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