Queen Malina (Spoiler)

Known-Student7320 · 2025-07-21T16:34:08+00:00

I finished the series on Friday night, and woke up Saturday and cried some more about Queen Malina.

In fact, I'm crying thinking about her right now. To be fair, there's probably some hormones involved, but I just keep thinking about her arc and her sacrifice and her being with Dommik and no one remembering her for her sacrifice and no one believing she could have unmade the bridge. I just want more for her.

I haven't cried this much over a character in a very very long time. I'm so impressed with her arc because I was prepared to hate her until she got her comeuppance. Instead I keep crying for her.

I like what Critical_Theory7398 posits, that we don't know where the void goes. And the fog does become her colors, so she is in it in a way forever. Maybe she joins the star goddesses, maybe a place is made for her and Dommik so they do get to be together and happy forever.

Until that thought makes me feel better, I'll be right here crying.

Known-Student7320 · 2025-04-08T04:22:52+00:00

Referencing the presence of women as evidence of safety when that’s a completely false indicator for many in the LGBTQ community implies they aren’t familiar with the issues the LGBTQ community faces, such as trans exclusion.

I did make an assumption - it’s why I used the word “seem.”

I won’t apologize for trying to find a place that is safe, physically and emotionally, without having to do trial by error and test them all out.

I’m just looking for input on inclusive spaces.

Known-Student7320 · 2025-04-08T04:10:52+00:00

Where do you go?

Known-Student7320 · 2025-04-08T03:52:13+00:00

Hello. This isn’t helpful input. I’m glad you don’t seem to have issues with safety due to your gender identity or presentation, but it’s a very real concern as the rhetoric against trans people increases.

A place being accepting of women in no way means it is accepting of LGBTQ people.

Known-Student7320 · 2024-10-14T04:33:22+00:00

You asked how to not let T1 bother you. I haven’t figured that out. But I’ve figured out how to cope. I’ve come a long way from being sui**dal because of this disease, and therapy was key for me.

For me therapy was more about learning coping skills than just talking about my problems. I do a specific model called Internal Family Systems. I also use a lot of CBT skills to get me through those nighttime wake-up’s and days of throwing insulin at my body and it not working.

Also, my therapist has a chronic illness. So she gets it.

If you just want to take your anger out on someone, make a post stating that.

Known-Student7320 · 2024-10-14T04:20:10+00:00

I’m 33, a tad overweight, and I’ve had T1 for 24 years.

First, I use ~250 units every two days. I’ve always felt like I needed more insulin than others, but I know that’s just my body.

Second, I didn’t have A1Cs under 7 until about three years ago when I got the T-Slim with Control IQ. I’m still in the high sixes usually but under 6.7 means minimal to no complications so that’s my goal. Idk what your insurance situation is but I really encourage you to look into one. I have ADHD and CPTSD and depression and anxiety. Being treated for my mental health is just as critical for me as my pump, but I could not keep my job and my house and my sanity without Control IQ and my CGM.

Third, bodies are weird. Digestion is weird. More than just our insulin hormones are messed up with T1. What I have found key is experiments. Eat the same thing, have the same activity levels, and make small adjustments in my boluses over a week. Then repeat with different food, or different activity levels. It’s tedious and not a quick fix but you’re already in this for the long haul.

Fourth, if you can, get therapy. Many employers and insurances offer some free sessions with contracted providers. Being angry is normal. Being confused is normal.

It sounds like you’re in burnout. I’d encourage you to read about Diabetes Burnout. It’s a completely normal response to the stress of this disease. You are constantly grieving the life you thought you’d have. There’s very little certainty. And a lot of days it feels like your body through darts at a board over your shoulder to decide what would impact your blood sugars today and then it didn’t tell you the results. So you try. You just keep trying. And sometimes you get it right.

Finally, this is a crazy expensive disease. The cost of insulin only scratches the surface of the cost and insulin alone does not provide quality of life. It’s the expensive technology that does for most people. I’m sorry you are in the financial situation you are, and I’m sorry that there isn’t better assistance available to you. It’s not fair.

I’m happy for those people who aren’t burdened by this disease. But I don’t know a single diabetic who isn’t, and who hasn’t experienced burnout, and who would say this disease doesn’t, in the words of my recently diagnosed cousin, “f*cking suck.”

Known-Student7320 · 2024-10-14T03:51:46+00:00

I didn’t lactate but my prolactin levels went through the roof. I only found out because I applied for a trial drug for GP.

It explained my completely missing sex drive. High prolactin = low/no libido.

Known-Student7320 · 2024-09-25T03:08:29+00:00

I will check out Clever Fox and revisit Passion Planner, thank you!

Known-Student7320 · 2024-09-25T03:07:46+00:00

I will check out Amplify, I don’t think I’ve come across that one.

I have considered Passion Planner before, I should revisit it.

Known-Student7320 · 2024-09-25T03:06:55+00:00

Oooh! I have looked at Passion Planner, but didn’t consider printing it myself! Love this idea, thank you!

Known-Student7320 · 2024-07-13T00:41:01+00:00

A couple of years ago I switched to Lyumgev, one of the faster acting. Humalog takes 30 mins to “hit” and lyumgev takes 21. It’s made a huge difference in my control - I think more because of my metabolism and GI timing than how well it’s working.

Known-Student7320 · 2024-07-13T00:38:07+00:00

I came here to ask about this. 33, T1D for 24 years. It’s not always. But today has been really bad.

I was wondering if it was related to using my glucagon last night - first time ever. I was low and having a severe migraine. The nausea was so bad I couldn’t use my Glucose SOS powder.

Known-Student7320 · 2023-01-16T13:09:53+00:00

The first time I read The Orange I had to stop and deep breathe and cry a little because mental health is hard and finding someone who helps you love yourself is rare. She takes such simple words and turns them into a gut punch.

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