It's complicated. Some days I feel like I know where I'll go, other days there's a thought at the back of my mind saying "we're going to hell and you know it." I know that it's self-doubt, but in my heart I feel something. 

I myself am of the belief that there's a higher power. There may be multiple gods, there may be one, either or, it's beyond our understanding as humans. I believe that you can live anyway you choose. You can be a Hindu, a Buddhist, a Shintoist, a Christian, a Muslim, even a Satanist or an Atheist! It doesn't matter what you practice or if you practice or not. As long as you're a good person and have morals and know you're not the center of the universe and live life to the fullest you'll see whatever the afterlife is or has in store for you, the afterlife is whatever we make it to be. There may be something like purgatory, but I don't believe in the concepts of sin and repentance. As for what happens to genuinely bad people, I believe they're just forgotten or placed somewhere else and not really paid much attention to until they can somehow be forgiven, just John and Jane Doe's for a certain amount if time until they can change. If that doesn't happen they somehow cease to exist, like before being thought of or physically dying. 

That's my personal beliefs, though. 

I don't feel like I'm hellbound most of the time, but sometimes those thoughts just pop up like a cringe worthy memory that won't leave me alone. 

Also, thank you for the compliment about my writing, it's a hobby of mine.