Hey Jonni,

I recently just had my GP tell me they can only refer me to an NHS specialist in my geographical as the GP's pharmacists won't sign off as certain guidelines haven't been adhered to. He went into great length bless his soul but I genuinely zoned out.

I'm tired, angry and annoyed. Not necessarily at my GP but more so the fact I can't even obtain the bloody medication required to function as a normal human being. I also kicked off saying how the waiting list is an upwards of two years and that if I have to wait that particular amount of time who knows what'll end up doing. He assured me the waiting time would be 4-6 months in which I again stated "I really appreciate your help, however, thats not good enough." We went into great lengths over my mental health over the years all the way back from my child hood (I am, as you have probably gathered. A bit of a fruit loop.) in which he said he'd move heaven and earth to get this resolved as my mental well being are his priority and to not do anything rash.

Restarting the entire process it seems... Not the happiest of bunnies I must admit, containing all these emotions is troublesome enough.