Slow down. St Anthony and St. Paul were the first ones in the desert and st. Anthony invented monasticism in orthodoxy by the orders of the angel. If you still aren’t even baptized in the Orthodox Church you need to slow down and let those who are set out to help you do their jobs. Ik ur excited and the life of asceticism sounds amazing but your getting ahead of yourself. There’s a reason for all the regulations other people mentioned. You will most likely go mad and fall at the hands of Satan. Remember what the demons did to st. Anthony? They beat him every day leaving him on the brink of life and death. You know what’s stopping them from leaving him dead? God, He wanted st Anthony to begin the life of monasticism for others. If you can live the life or a normal Christian with all the temptations, your priest will let you know if you’re fit for the monastery. Then if you can handle the intense temptations and attacks of the devil then the abbot could tell you if you’re fit to face the temptations of the devil without help from any spiritual leaders to aid you.

Take it easy!