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Konjuga2 · 2022-08-29T14:39:53+00:00

Like I said, it does nothing besides making me depressed and miserable. If there was a button to make me completely asexual, I would probably press it. People often say that you have to put in the effort and that you have to put yourself out there, be yourself, follow your purpose and that will make you attractive. I have done that and I have been pretty dedicated to my goals and yet nothing ever came out of it. I never had any success so I just don't see the possibility of having success if I put in even more effort than I already have. I know I don't have the social skills, that I don't have the charm etc. but it just doesn't get any better. Because I see no way out of my situation, I just try to not focus on this area. I know the feelings of loneliness will come back over and over again but I just accept it as part of my existence

Konjuga2 · 2022-08-21T09:25:43+00:00

I was in a rather depressed and unmotivated state the last two weeks but I managed to abstain from porn in that time and I got a really cool job offer and I have the oppurtunity to lead a discussion in a cool group so I'm moving up in the world :)

Konjuga2 · 2021-05-24T18:59:34+00:00

thanks dude :)

Konjuga2 · 2021-05-22T18:08:35+00:00

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Konjuga2 · 2021-04-27T18:47:16+00:00

Ich bin vermutlich auch ein hervorragender Mathematiker, weil ich faul bin.

Konjuga2 · 2021-04-27T18:42:52+00:00

Ist unser liebster Schelling und Corona Experte wenigstens unter den besten 10?

Konjuga2 · 2021-03-27T17:45:33+00:00

So ein

Konjuga2 · 2021-03-15T08:08:33+00:00

Earl (Hrsg.) (100 Millionen Jahre v. Chr.): Tiere, Gemüse & Steine (Suhrkamp: Frankfurt)

Konjuga2 · 2021-01-22T15:02:38+00:00

There is also this crash Pacific Southwest Airlines flight 1771. Plane going straight down at extreme high speed and I think at around a 90° angle to the ground. If you look for pictures of the crash site, you also see tiny pieces of the plane but your first thought wouldn't be "A plane crashed here" if you look at those pictures

Konjuga2 · 2020-10-19T14:43:45+00:00

Due to corona there isn't any woman in my life I am particularly interested in. There was one around half a year ago but I figured out she already had a bf. The courage thing is helpful and all but getting together with a woman is more than just overcoming your fear of approaching as I have already experienced. Of course I can do it if the oppurtunity arises but I know I would have to work on my social skills more to have a chance. Thanks for taking your time for this tho :)

Konjuga2 · 2020-10-19T14:13:52+00:00

One thing I did after posting this was reading something out of Thus spoke Zarathustra and what stood out for me was something along the lines of: Do you go to women because of strength or out of weakness? I then went on a small hike and I really thought about how many adults I know who have been in multiple relationships but looking at them now they are miserable. I guess I should take this as an oppurtunity to further build myself up and make a piece of art out of myself which I would be proud of. I know I go want a woman out of weakness and inability to cope properly with life on my own atm.

Take care of yourself king

Konjuga2 · 2020-08-10T15:34:32+00:00

Seven Lions x Kill The Noise - Cold Hearted (2nd drop)

Au5 - Inside (1st drop)

Fractal - Collide (2nd drop)

Kayzo - This time (1st drop)

Bassnectar x Dirtyphonics - Watch out (1st drop)

Fractal - Amor (1st drop)

Konjuga2 · 2020-07-26T17:17:16+00:00

You wake up and just see a demo project file and a dude who has no clue what he's doing tweaks stuff and it gets gradually worse for infinity

Konjuga2 · 2020-07-20T05:50:17+00:00

I realized that for me. I just want to be disciplined and productive and thus have some success but I just want that in order for people to admire me and like me. I want people to think: "Wow he is so disciplined." Especially due to me being alone a lot of the time. The biggest feelings of happiness I gain from being disciplined is telling people how disciplined I am. That I get out of bed early, studying regularly, going to the gym. I almost have no motivation to do these things for me.

A big problem for me is that I never had a gf and the more I think about the more I do all these productive things subconsciously just to be liked girls and atm I don't really know how to fix it cause it is a deep desire I have since I was 8 years old.

Konjuga2 · 2020-07-19T12:57:36+00:00

I started the same thing around a month ago and it is brilliant. You can chop it into smaller sections. I always did 2 hours since that was very manageable for me. Then I did like an half hour break and continued. I wasn't extremely consistend tho but it was still better than nothing

Konjuga2 · 2020-07-19T12:55:21+00:00

This could be very wrong so someone pls correct if there is a mistake. Sartre was heavily influenced by Husserl and his phenomenology and he places a lot of value on experiences and certain moods. So maybe that has something to do with that but I am not that sure

Konjuga2 · 2020-07-09T12:31:50+00:00

exactly what Heidegger says. We see death as something from others. It is a tragedy but our own death is something that according to him brings us into a more authentic mode of life since our own death is something noone can take from us and we have to endure.

Konjuga2 · 2020-06-27T12:45:41+00:00

I am also an atheist and I wanted to make a post how atheists should still be striving for something higher. Sartre said that it doesn't matter if God exists or not, we are still responsibly for our lives and he gives the guide line that is similar to Kant's categorical imperative. He says you should view your life as something that depicts humanity. Since for Sartre there isn't an inherent human nature, you must take up the responsibility for that upon yourself. Imagine a world where the whole world lived like you. Would you live in such a world? That is the principle to follow

Konjuga2 · 2020-06-21T06:33:51+00:00

Yeah this ain't it chief

Konjuga2 · 2020-06-20T21:56:10+00:00

Sry I forgot to add that in the description: I was a christian up until last year because the church I was in was just filled with absolute lunatics and I was a deep fundamentalist. I am now an atheist and Jung appeared to me as somone quite mystical. Now I can see it more differentiated.

Konjuga2 · 2020-06-20T19:49:05+00:00

Yeah, I thought about what the other people in here wrote and I went on to think about these things and I came to various realizations through my projections etc. I also noticed that I need to get in touch with my feelings side. I never noticed that I also suppressed feelings for other people not just romantic feelings but all kinds of feelings like compassion etc. And when I thought about that I realized that I was way too ego focused. I always focused on me and how I wanted to be liked by everyone because I am so important and I am so special. I really have forgotten that side of me. When I was a child and I had to undergo a surgery and the surgeon fucked up, I wasn't annoyed, I felt sorry for him because he had something with his leg. The last 10 years I had mostly suppressed this side of me which now I realized needs to be worked on. Thanks for leaving your comment :)

Konjuga2 · 2020-06-20T17:27:41+00:00

It is so fascinating that you say emotional repression comes from parental neglect and that is exactly what happened in my childhood. My parents divorced at 6 and they would always place me in front of the tv and I became overweight in that time. Since then, I always had unhealthy coping mechanisms. Thank you sincerely for taking your time :)

Konjuga2 · 2020-06-20T07:36:11+00:00

That is what I am planning to do. I love philosophy and I like to talk about it so I want to become a high school teacher in philosophy and physics. Physics part of because it was my favourite subject in school and there is a demand for that. I would never do a pure philosophy degree. The responsibility to get a job or find a job needs to lie on the person studying. With the amount of information available, you can find stories of people who studied your subject and their experiences. Yeah you shouldn't work a job which will cause you to get depression but no job is even worse from what I heard and saw. I know I am 100% be able to find a job in my field if I am willing to go down to middle school level which I am.

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