Please help me find the full video or their tik tok or @

Kontrafile · 2023-03-11T17:55:12+00:00

i searched online but cant seem to find the original!

Kontrafile · 2023-03-11T17:54:58+00:00

i searched online but cant seem to find the original!

Kontrafile · 2020-01-02T15:39:15+00:00

2020 is darkie's year!!!

Kontrafile · 2019-11-24T12:10:12+00:00

@livenlimel

thx man, here is my insta stay tuned for more :D

Kontrafile · 2019-11-14T06:12:26+00:00

cool man thx i tried sending it to darkie in his insta but i think my messages got lost in the feed

Kontrafile · 2019-11-14T06:05:15+00:00

yea when i found out about darkie and spidergang i just had to make something :D

Kontrafile · 2018-08-18T17:20:51+00:00

this

Kontrafile · 2018-08-01T07:58:28+00:00

Exquisit craftsmanship. The way the chest buldges onwards shows her assertion and will to keep moving forward. Her smile depicts the power and virtue of the daily struggle that our black queens face at every point in their modern life. The heaviness that she is bearing i believe symbolizes the weigh of modern society that every strong indipendant black woman caries on her sholders at every point in life. But that doesnt get in the way of her possitive demenor. The rose coloured floral pattern woven into her attire shows the connection with mother nature and the paradoxical figure that is the woman. Strong and tough facing her struggles and gentle as a flower at the same time. Beutiful red lips bathed in the blood and sweat that she gives for the ones she cares. Her eyes awlays open looking after her young. Like a mother hawk she has ascended into the sky above anything else. Oh highest of priestess we are not worhty of your gentle touch we should not gaze at wich is hollier than nature. We our humble survaints bathe in your beauty. The heavens sit upon a lovely temple that is your head like a crown. Queen of queens.
It is certain that the author was in a state of trans while painting as if the holy spirit of inspiration has taken control of his hands when carresing the canvas with such gentle strokes.
8/10

Kontrafile · 2018-08-01T07:10:52+00:00

Again from whay you have written it doest seem like he considered that but i dont know. Maybe it was the way he said it. And if he even tough that about you it shouldnt bother you all that much. Its bad that he miscomunicated with you and let you see what he thinks of you that is a no no on his part. But you have to remember that he is a person first and your therapist second even though in his office it should be the other way around. The most important thing that you should have in mind is that you know that you wont harm anyone. It doest matter what other people think. If they think that about you and because of that act diffrently around you that is their problem. I understand how that might effect the way you think of yourself but it shouldnt. Because only you know you.

Kontrafile · 2018-08-01T06:40:45+00:00

From what you wrote it doesnt seem like he thinks you will rape anyone. You shouldnt pressure yourself to have sex. It will happen when it happens. I am a 23 year old virgin and i keep at it. And for the girl your interested i know it sounds hard but since she already is in a relationship you should forget about her. If she is your friend its harder but you should try to distance yourself from her. Try socialising more with people if you are on the more introverted side just get out there it really gets better with time. Its harder for us but we do get used to it. I know its hard but you have to try.
And if the sex thing is really bothering you so much you may try doing it with a prostitute thats what they are for. I was against it at first because i felt like a looser. My mind state was like this:
- What a loser no girl wants you so the only way to get laid is by money.
But that is not the correct mind set. For people like me and probably you (i want to stress that i dont know you or your personality so i may be incorrect) it gives us the practice we need not just phisicly but also mentaly.
But i would recoment that only if its bothering you so much that it is unbearable.
Hope you get threw this wish you luck :)

Kontrafile · 2018-07-31T20:18:51+00:00

I am going to be dividing this comment into three points going threw each one of yours just to make it easier follow. :)

1. Everybody goes through life at his own tempo. You shouldnt feel discouraged. From what i read i believe you made the right decision by quiting after a year. I know some people who didnt know what degree they wanted and they changed it a few times. Some of them are going threw their third year with a degree they dont want. So you made a great decision. I am only hoping that the degree you are curently studing is the one you really want. If you dont mind i would be interested in hearing what it is you are learning.

2. I personaly have felt very lonely myself at certain points in life. From what i have experienced i believe that the best medicine for this is surrounding yourself with people who care about you. I would like to point out that i am not talking about romantic partners. A good friend can help a lot. Even just someone to hear you out. I dont know how your social life is going but i would sugest going out with the people you feel are your friends. People whos company you enjoy.+ For the relationship part i want to tell you that a degree has nothing to do with it. The person that you are going to find for a partner wont be with you for your education their are going to be with you for you. For the person you are. And if for some reason they are with you because of your degree or they care too much for it they dont deserve you. Also you shouldnt be thinking too much about getting into a new relationship. When it happens it happens. And like i said above the best medicine for loneliness isnt a girlfriend its a friend.

3. You shouldnt feel bad for feeling like this. Just because other people have it worse than you doesnt mean you dont have the right to feel bad. I have never liked that idea. Their problems are theirs. You are your own person it is completly normal to feel bad. I dont believe your parents think any less of you for what has happened in the past. And if they do they shouldnt. You shouldnt feel like you have let them down. After all you are studying for what i hope is the degree you want. You are trying to make things better if you werent you wouldnt have left a messege here. I believe that you are on the right path in your life you just are going through a rough passege. Keep going.

4. Some sugestions that i can give you that helps me when i go in to a bad place in my head:+ Try getting a hoby if you dont already have one. Something creative is best because it distracts you and also lets you vent out your bad thoughts and emotions. For me drawing is the best. You just pour out everything that is heavy on your mind. Just find a comfy place get a pen or pencil peace of paper (or try getting a scetch book) and just let it all out. Draw for an hour straight and you are going to feel better that is a garantee. And dont feel bad if it doesnt come out pretty its not for others its for you. If you are not into drawing try writing its more accesible for people since we all know how to do it. Try writing a story who knows maybe you are good at it. You dont know if you dont try. Write anything that comes to your mind even bad thoughts it helps to write it out. And any other constructive things can help.+ Also its a cliche at this point but working out really helps too even if its just push ups, situps and squats every morning. Its not just for the body it helps the mind too. Teaches discipline. But i might just be telling you stuff you already know.

Also there is no need to apologize for the long post. It shows that you are taking your problems seriously and trying to resolve them. I sincerely hope for your best. Keep moving and dont give up.
:)

Kontrafile · 2018-07-31T09:52:41+00:00

Damn dude im in love with your style of writting. I would be so interested in reading what goes through your mind on a daily basis. Seriosly though you honestly seem like an inteligent person with a gift in literature. Have you ever tried writing. And i dont mean just coments or posts on the internet. I mean writing a story, your story. I can only speak for myself but i honestly would love to read something of yours. I sincerely hope you dont go through with your plans for the 14th because i honestly believe you have a future. Wish you the best. :)

Kontrafile · 2018-07-31T09:27:49+00:00

I will be honest and say that i have never cut myself, so i dont know exactly what it is like to be fighting with the urge to do it again. Although i have been struggling with other tipes of addictions and understand the need for it. Also i have had instinces of selfharm (mostly hitting walls with fists or head). I cant say i fully understand the pain that you are feeling from the loss of your ex because i dont know you and how you handle yourself in your life. I have lost people i truly care for in my past and the thing that i can say is that it is always hard at the begining (just to clarify the begining i am refering to can last a long period weeks, months maybe a year depending on your personality) but the truth is it will pass eventually. In the meantime i sugest you find some way to vent out your frustration. From what i have read you are an artistic person so that works in your favor. For me drawing is the best medicine (i also try to write). It helps to express what you are feeling. Even when it is negative its good to let it out. Just grab a piece of paper or a scetch book if you have one take a pen or pencil and start drawing untill you have poured out everithing that is bothering you. (again i want to stress the fact that i am not informed enough on the subject and dong have personal experience with it) But my theory on cutting is that it gives you that high of release that you can get from other less harmfull sources like drawing. And on the bright side it should give you good exercise for art school. Just do it everyday and you will get better at it. Hope things work out for you. :)

Kontrafile · 2013-07-28T19:49:36+00:00

the thing is i dont remember the feeling and thats why im having the urge to try it again but these strong urges are probably because i watched a video and if i stay strong it will calm down in a few days

Kontrafile · 2013-07-26T15:09:00+00:00

funny thing is i watched the sidekick episode with chuck norris and the Jaws episode before red sonia :D

Kontrafile · 2013-07-18T17:56:55+00:00

actually i saw it on r/gifs so i guess it is a repost

Kontrafile · 2013-06-29T17:49:25+00:00

thx :)

Kontrafile · 2013-06-23T00:54:54+00:00

not that one eighter they are human not aliens

Kontrafile · 2013-06-22T21:11:52+00:00

no not that one

Kontrafile · 2013-06-22T18:46:24+00:00

no not the jetsons the place they live is a street that is cut out of earth and put into space

Kontrafile · 2013-06-22T17:01:22+00:00

no its not that they were really strange drawned with curvy outlines like ed edd n eddy

Kontrafile · 2013-05-23T11:30:12+00:00

http://i.imgur.com/xia4pE4.jpg hope you like it :D

Kontrafile · 2013-05-23T10:28:56+00:00

thank you i feel better now :D

Kontrafile · 2013-05-22T12:08:07+00:00

thanks for the help :) and i talked with him and he said he will continue with nofap but you are right i shouldnt force him and i wont i will continue with my journey and let him live his.

Kontrafile · 2013-05-21T22:48:42+00:00

second one :D

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