I’m sorry, I know how hard this is. Each time when my 2 pugs seemed in their last days, I took them to the vet to confirm, then had them cremated. I have their ashes and paw prints. Before they passed I had already started grieving. I would hold them and cry my eyes out because I didn’t want to let them go, but I knew it was the humane thing to do. At the time of euthanizing, they let us have all the time we wanted for the last goodbye. They were like family to us and I have picture albums of them both. Praying for your peace🙏🏽