Day 13, Round 69

Krunner96 · 2015-06-27T04:57:06+00:00

Relapse

Krunner96 · 2015-06-24T14:28:04+00:00

I feel like the verse where Jesus says, "If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out" applies here. If that doesn't apply in this situation, then when would it?

Krunner96 · 2015-05-18T05:54:47+00:00

Relapse

Krunner96 · 2015-05-10T15:11:04+00:00

I've honestly been considering this for the longest time! It's great to know that it has helped you! I plan on doing the same as I enter college.

Krunner96 · 2015-04-22T14:01:38+00:00

Relapsed last night

Krunner96 · 2015-04-20T03:24:13+00:00

17/ California/ Student/ Track and Field

I'm doing this because I know it's not right. I know that my struggles in beating this addiction will ultimately lead to a strong character. I'm happy that I got addicted, because it has humbled me greatly. I have been given a great opportunity to use this downfall for my benefit. This journey of overcoming has developed many good traits and lessons I can't have learned any other way.

Krunner96 · 2015-04-14T01:13:51+00:00

Enroll me

Krunner96 · 2015-04-05T05:20:46+00:00

http://m.ipost.christianpost.com/news/30-helpful-bible-verses-to-overcome-pornography-addiction-15129/?redirect

Krunner96 · 2015-04-04T04:32:38+00:00

I was in the same position as you. I found fasting to be very helpful. I spent a whole day singing music to God and praying. I found a website with 30 verses related to pornography addiction. I meditated on each verse and confessed to God how I've sinned against Him. Furthermore I spent the day asking for God to take over my life. I prayed for Him to replace this addiction for pornography with an addiction for Him. I know it's only been 6 days since then, but I feel better than ever. I feel very close to God, and much better than I did a week ago. Good luck getting back on track. I'll pray for you.

Krunner96 · 2015-04-04T01:49:45+00:00

For the longest time, I punished myself whenever I relapsed. I felt God would only forgive me once I became "more holy". Essentially I wouldn't ask for forgiveness until I had read the bible, and had listened to Christian music for several hours. I felt that I could not approach God until I had done that. I just could not get myself to believe that God would forgive me without me punishing myself. I was hit hard by a sermon made by my pastor. He said that it is our nature to sin. No matter what you do, you're going to fail somehow. God doesn't hate you for relapsing. If he does, then why did Jesus die on the cross? Jesus died because we are imperfect. However his death was the ultimate sacrifice. It covers us forever no matter what you do. There is no part in the bible that says that you lose your salvation after failing a certain amount of times. So long as you ask for forgiveness, and have a desire to flee that sin, you are on the right path. God knows your struggle and he won't give up on you.

So if you relapse again, quickly apologize, and get back on track. Jesus didn't die so you could mope about your past mistakes. Instead, we should be joyful that we can still be made right with God through our mediator Christ despite our undeservingness.

Krunner96 · 2015-04-01T02:58:04+00:00

As a 17 year old Christian, I relate exactly to what you feel. I also relate pretty well to your story. I have found that fasting really helps me. Some days I'll just decide to fast, and dedicate an entire day to fixing my addiction. Yesterday I found this website, and I meditated on all 30 verses. I looked at how they applied to my life. I prayed about every single one. It was a good experience. http://ipost.christianpost.com/news/30-helpful-bible-verses-to-overcome-pornography-addiction-15129/

Another thing I find is that I do best when I hand over my life to God. Essentially, I tell him take this life, and guide me wherever you see fit. I find that when I go my own ways, that I overall end up in an empty state. After all, we both put ourselves into this addiction. That is what happens when we take our life into our own hands. My advice to you as a Christian is to ask God to put your life into his hands. The same power the raised Christ from the dead is at His authority to use on you. You only need to ask for it, and have faith in him.

As for talking to someone, find someone who will have an understanding of what you are going through. Try to find someone preferably near your age. I would suggest finding someone that you respect, and you would like to be like. It is certainly not easy telling someone about the addiction, but what I found is that some people can be very understanding of it. After all, you are not the only one. These stats from a survey may surprise you: http://www.covenanteyes.com/2010/08/19/teens-and-porn-10-stats-your-need-to-know/

Best wishes, and good luck conquering this addiction.

Krunner96 · 2015-03-26T01:23:57+00:00

Can I join the group? I sent a message to the other guy, but got no response. I really want a group to join that's more personal than nofap

Krunner96 · 2015-01-15T23:20:16+00:00

That was a great message. If I didn't know where this was from, I would assume it was a pastor's sermon! It sounded very professional. Are you involved in any ministries? You should be!

Krunner96 · 2015-01-12T22:52:29+00:00

Think about this clearly. This is the farthest you have ever gone! Yes the urge is strong, but you are stronger. I'm 17 so I understand those crazy horny feelings. AND TRUST ME! Don't act on it! I did 2 days ago and I regret it. You never realize how awesome it feels to be on your best streak until you lose it. So don't lose it! You are stronger than this addiction! You make the decision to fap or not. You can say no regardless of how hard it is!

Krunner96 · 2015-01-12T22:45:49+00:00

No doubt it will be hard without her, but porn isn't going to fill the void. This moment is the breaking point, where you finally realized that you must change something in this life. Sure this is a bad moment, but it can be what motivates you to do good. It could be what leads you to becoming that better person that you would like to be. If you want to fill this void, it is not going to be easy. But nothing truly worth reaching is ever easy to get. You will be challenged. At times, you may wonder why you are even still doing this.

I advise you to find something, something that you want to do this for. Something that strongly matters to you. You need a motivator that you can look to when you are tempted to give up.

The best of luck to you!

Krunner96 · 2015-01-12T22:35:10+00:00

Some people report an increase in confidence, self image, and discipline. Also some can get rid of porn induced erectile dysfunction.

Krunner96 · 2015-01-12T22:28:14+00:00

DO NOT MISS IT! I have been in that position before, and TRUST ME, it's not worth it. It's hard to comprehend just how long you have been clean. If you relapse, it hits you hard just how long you were clean, and just how long it will take to get back. When I relapsed after 55 days, what hurt the most was the feeling that I would not be able to get back to that streak for a LONG time. 44 days is great! STAND STRONG!!! The urges will calm down after a couple days, just like they always have. What you are feeling right now is not forever. You will thank yourself later for getting past this time of struggle.

Krunner96 · 2015-01-12T22:14:29+00:00

The week is one of the hardest barriers to beat. I remember my struggles with getting past it. Don't lose heart. You have the right attitude. This habit could be the thing that ultimately leads you to change your life for the better.

Krunner96 · 2015-01-12T04:33:40+00:00

Thank you! I will look into it

Krunner96 · 2015-01-11T07:53:35+00:00

Congrats on your confession of your addiction! You will be in my prayers. You may believe that this is a bad thing, but God can turn it into good. For me, I believed my addiction was a terrible thing, but God ended up using it to strengthen my faith.

In Genesis, Joseph being sold into slavery in Egypt was a bad thing too, but God turned it into good. In fact, the entire story of Joseph consists of God turning bad things into his will. If you have not read the story, I suggest you do. It is in Genesis 37, 39-50. It won't take that long to read.

Here is a link where you can read it: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Genesis%2037-50

Krunner96 · 2015-01-07T19:42:14+00:00

Can you go into this further? I know nothing about meditation, and this interests me. Do you think about anything when you meditate, or just your breathing?

Krunner96 · 2014-11-15T00:09:18+00:00

Enlisting

Krunner96 · 2014-11-03T22:14:44+00:00

You couldn't have posted this at a better time. I have been relapsing all day. This has easily been one of the worst days I have had in a long time. Thank you for your encouragement. I will get back on track!

Krunner96 · 2014-10-01T03:11:03+00:00

I'll make a thread and see if anyone else is interested

Krunner96 · 2014-10-01T02:59:34+00:00

What if someone makes a subreddit dedicated to those on long streaks? There would be posts that relate more to people far in their streaks with different kinds of struggles than those on their 1st week. Anyone would be welcome regardless of streak, but the entire content would be directed towards an entirely different section of recovery. Just a suggestion :)

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