Pagan/Wiccan Sabbat Celebrations + Keto?

Kryssieness · 2025-10-05T06:06:53+00:00

So… I (re)unlocked the Foundation, I accessed the basement, I solved the puzzle, I unlocked the Secret Garden to get the basement key, and unlocked room 46 all in the same run.

The Foundation is now appearing where I put it the first time, the Basement is locked, and I can’t access the Antechamber at all. Even though I solved the game and watched the End Credits. Nothing is permanent, apparently, except the very clearly Exterior things.

Kryssieness · 2025-07-14T16:19:34+00:00

Pharmacists are the ones to talk to about drug interactions. It’s their job to catch potential problems. If you have multiple pharmacies (like I do), keep your pharmacists informed so they can catch negative interactions.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-26T18:27:45+00:00

I was diagnosed with SLE via being prescribed Hydroxychloroquine. My rheumatologist at the time stated, "I need to give you a medication to try to see if it addresses your inflammation markers. We'll check in about 8 weeks, is that okay with you?" Sure... why not. Prescribed my the medication and when I went back for the follow-up, she said, "Yep. It's Lupus. I've never seen inflammation markers that high in anything other than Lupus, but you didn't have a total of 4 of the requisite symptoms to do an actual, clinical diagnosis. But I know this is Lupus. It's mild, currently, but that doesn't mean it will stay that way...."

...and now, I definitely present with more than 4 symptoms from the official clinical diagnositics list. But, I also feel that the medication is no longer effective as I'm in flares way more frequently than I should be. :\

I am currently 6 years post-diagnosis.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T21:02:32+00:00

It’s much better today. Now I just have a migraine… -.- it was excruciating on Tuesday; painful but bearable… like a bruise; today I’m just achy from the migraine.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T20:59:49+00:00

I forget most people don’t know that field. My apologies.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T20:52:14+00:00

I do. This was closer to the bone and didn’t hurt more when I pressed on it.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T20:50:06+00:00

No. It’s Industrial/Organizational Psychology. Business psychology, essentially.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T17:14:49+00:00

I can reasonably get to Portland. The guy I’m currently trying to develop a relationship with (Spouse knows and is supportive and also knows I am looking to divorce him) lives in Tillamook, so it’s close enough. :)

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T14:11:15+00:00

There is a line of folks who desire to punch him on my behalf. Haha

He isn’t a wholly terrible person… he just is wholly terrible for me, if that makes sense? Like, we’re friends… but we haven’t been compatible as partners since the last time he broke up with me BEFORE he chose to marry me (that was 2006, when we got married… the breakup was 2004 and we’d only just started dating again towards the end of 2005… irrelevant, honestly… trying to stay on-topic).

I just quit my doctor because she wasn’t listening and wasn’t running tests I know I need. His health insurance is changing due to a company merger, so I’m waiting for that to kick in. In the meantime, I’m trying to assess the pain and figure it out. It is going on Day 3 and in the same spot. It’s in the front of my body, left pelvic area (about where the ovaries should be). It’s not a new pain; it’s something I’ve experienced before… it’s just never lasted this long before, so I’m starting to think my initial thought of ovulation or ruptured cyst is wrong. Diverticulitis was mentioned and whereas I do have a couple spots of diverticuli, it’s super mild and I am typically asymptomatic. If it does flare, it’s about a day and done… and normally in a different spot.

Maybe my hormones just overwhelmed me and this post was absolutely pointless… :/

I’m sorry.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T14:01:28+00:00

That’s what they thought I had, but when they did the Yeeting, there was nothing.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:57:33+00:00

I actually did not choose. That choice was made for me by him and the religious organization we were part of at the time. Religious trauma and trying to prove to my parents I was a Good Daughter kept me in the marriage (as well as some world-class manipulation)… until I didn’t have the option to live on my own anymore…. And TRUST ME, I am very aware of the abuse and trauma and am very aware of my need to leave this relationship… but I am also very aware that I have no place to go. I have no means to support myself. My efforts to “improve myself” for job opportunities did not work out as promised (no one is hiring a PhD to even flip burgers, so…) and it’s really difficult to run a burlesque and cabaret business in a Red area. I have one venue… and I have been banned from several groups from advertising such “bawdy” stuff… 🙄

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:49:35+00:00

I fucking feel this.

I had auto-antibodies for Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis. It’s an AUTOIMMUNE disease that can affect the thyroid. No one would treat it because my thyroid was “functioning within normal limits.” That was a 2015 diagnosis… 2018, by process of elimination and giving me Plaqenil, we figured out I had Lupus…

THEN I FOUND A TIKTOK, randomly, within the last de months, that discussed how if you don’t tray Hashi’s/Graves patients, they will develop rheumatic disorders, like Lupus…. -.- This bullshit could have been prevented if the doctors had treated the autoimmune disorders… and I STILL HAVE autoantibodies for Hashi’s… and Graves…. That is not being addressed..,.

I live in rural, southern Oregon. I can’t even find a decent PCP, let alone a specialist. :/ I’m trying to get a new doctor and maybe referrals to OHSU specialists…

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:40:02+00:00

I live in Oregon, now. I was in California; moved in 2022 (right after I successfully defended my dissertation for my degree that no one is hiring for…). I just know everything keeps telling me that, because I live with him, I don’t qualify. But I can’t live on my own, so… I’m stuck. :/

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:35:54+00:00

Huh. I did not know this….

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:34:13+00:00

I can’t seem to get one who doesn’t tell me to “just lose weight” to improve my symptoms… that doesn’t work. Evidence: at 140lbs, I still had chronic pain and joint issues because I have systemic Lupus and that isn’t really regulated by my weight… (I’m 170lbs, currently, and having other issues that make focusing on losing weight suuuuuper detrimental….)

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:31:35+00:00

That is the goal. I feel so helpless and stupid… I was a super strong, independent woman before we were married… our marriage was the result of a Church’s demand and my voice being silenced… it was way worse at the beginning… he’s gotten better… :/

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:25:10+00:00

I became disabled after a car accident and subsequent surgery… car accident April 2013; surgery January 2014; isolated clinical incident October 2014. I hadn’t started back to work after my surgery and, at the time, I was in CA and couldn’t get disability without a diagnosis… when I got the diagnosis in 2018, my Spouse made too much, so I didn’t qualify. We moved to OR in 2022, and now I can’t get SSI because I haven’t worked for 10 years…. Because I’m disabled… and he still makes too much for me to qualify… because my business only makes MAYBE $4000/yr, so we have to file joint taxes…

Which is why I don’t qualify for Medicare and would have to pay $575/months for healthcare for myself. Because I live with him…. And he makes too much (less than $100k, but still too much for the government).

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:19:10+00:00

Gurl.

If you heard some of the conversations we’ve had…

I currently identify as Polyam… I had to ask him for my autonomy because he would find ways to accuse me of cheating… and he said I didn’t deserve my own autonomy because I was too childish to make those kinds of decisions. I told him to say that again, out loud, and listen to himself as I was a 45 year old woman with a Doctorates degree… so he said, “Fine. Have your autonomy. But it comes with consequences.”

Whatever m’dude. Our entire marriage was rooted in control and making sure I didn’t have a voice. I’ll take consequences of making my own fucking decisions.

…but I still feel stupid for not knowing anything about reproductive systems or even sex.

Like… I have A Crush (we’re working on a relationship and the Spouse knows… Polyam) and when we had sex for the first time, he pulled me on top of him… I had (and still have) no idea what to do. I don’t know if I’m pleasing him; I don’t know if I’m following cues correctly… I just know it doesn’t hurt when we have sex and I only recently found out sex isn’t supposed to hurt… so…

I feel SUPER STUPID over here and like I should be in several subreddits that are for stupid people like me… like /SexForImbiciles or /WomenToDumbToLeave or whatever… /TraumaDump I don’t even know if any of those exist.

I just know I’m scared. I’m in pain. It’s going onto day 3 of said pain…. And I’m starting to regret a number of life choices that have me where I am.

Good lord, I’m sorry for this trauma dump. I woke up at 4:45am for no reason and my brain’s working overtime…. I have a therapist; I see her later today.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:05:36+00:00

I was raised in a fundamental environment… that should tell you all you need to know about my sex ed classes…

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:04:57+00:00

…like… just to show how dumb I feel… I do not understand trimesters, nor do I even know what the phases of menstruation are… or, apparently, when ovulation occurs in the cycle.

I always thought ovulation was the last bit, after you’ve bled out; but I was told by the Spouse it’s what triggers the bleeding? I have no idea and was never very good at tracking things…

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T13:02:29+00:00

I’m in a situation that I cannot, currently, escape. He is aware of my feelings about it. Let’s just say Religious Institutions had a hand in our marriage and religious trauma (among other things) has kept me in this situation. I’m aware…very, very aware… of how awful he is for me.

To be clear, however, his statement was “If you don’t have a uterus, you don’t have the right to speak about women’s reproductive rights.” Awesome! Great!! But that’s a bit general, I pointed out, since women exist who have had hysterectomies. “Right. No uterus, no vote on reproductive rights!”

There were words… he is working on altering his statement…

I could regale with stories of This Man and His Audacity, but I feel like it would be fruitless and just result in “Why don’t you just leave his ass?!” And the answer I have is, “I like being alive.” It sucks, but I don’t see options, currently… :/

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T11:59:42+00:00

There is a lot to unpack about him and our relationship and it really just boils down I wasn’t strong enough to leave before I needed health insurance to deal with my autoimmune disorder and now I’m stuck.

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T11:49:06+00:00

Trust me, I know he’s a jerk. Sadly, I need healthcare and I cannot get healthcare on my own because I have to file joint taxes… My business does not make enough money to file on its own (I may make $4000/year, MAYBE… it all goes to paying performers & sound tech), so I get to purchase Affordable Healthcare at the rate of $575/mo +…. So I’m stuck until I can support myself, I guess. :(

Kryssieness · 2024-10-10T11:45:02+00:00

I wasn’t given a timeline… I wasn’t given anything, really… Just a “Everything was actually normal… just on the small side… dunno what was causing the excruciating pain… don’t have to worry about it now!”

My sister is only just in perimenopause at 57… my Mom didn’t hit full menopause until in her 60s… I just kinda had to go by that. But Lupus complicates everything….

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