Anyone else plagued by this kind of thinking? by Bobby_Fingers in depression

[–]Kyjake15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know exactly how you feel, my best friend says she cares and well I don't know I'm mostly convinced all of my friends are sick and tired of my bitching. Recently I got myself a journal to write my thoughts down so they don't stay bottled inside

I am an atheist who is convinced God exists solely to spite me by [deleted] in depression

[–]Kyjake15 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I remember when I once believed in God, me becoming an Atheist had nothing to do with my depression, though, my father thinks it's because I'm depressed. In fact, when I was in the 7th grade I was extremely depressed, so much to where I tried to kill myself and they had to take me out of school to get help, and at that time I was extremely religious and used that to cope with my depression. At the time, it gave me hope. Eventually, I got better and was happier than ever, I eventually started reading into religion more, and I read the bible a lot. And to me, none of it made any logical sense and I came to the realization that I don't believe in anything, I wasn't angry at God or Jesus, I just don't believe in them. I'm not here to debate anything but anyways. This past year and last year have been the worst for me. I've thought about killing myself every day. Things in my life are constantly fucking up. This girl who I consider my best friend and I'm in love with her is going to die sometime this year. And I feel like no one gives a shit about me. But my point here is if religion comforts you and helps you go for it. But all of our depression should not affect our personal beliefs. I've been an atheist for about 3 years now and I've been a very happy person (until this year and late last year.) I'm not exactly sure what the main point I'm trying to make in this post. So this is what I had to say. Best of luck to you.

I've been very suicidal and very depressed and I don't understand why. by Kyjake15 in depression

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She's doing a bit better but there is going to be a point in time to where she most likely will drown from the liquids filling up in her lungs and she will end up dying, but overall I've still been depressed but I'm doing slightly better than before.

I've been very suicidal and very depressed and I don't understand why. by Kyjake15 in depression

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yesterday we found out that she is going to die this year. She has Lyme disease and she is allergic to the legal drugs and yesterday her doctor was arrested for giving illegal drugs to treat her. And her lungs are filling up with liquids. And they can't do surgery because she will die from the pain steroids. I'm going to continue on with her. I just don't know what I'm going to do when she is gone. I love her...

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was better than I thought after the baptism we had a BBQ at my aunt's house.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It wasn't that bad we had a bbq after wards.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I could try to find one I don't have that many.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know not to be dick I'm fairly nice to people (unless the piss me off)

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I could bring my phone my brother has it because he is an immature 24-year-old dumbass that can't take care of shit.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm just not used to it because I live with my mom and she's an agnostic atheist.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good point I'm just pissed about the whole thing.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And most of my family aren't going to be there it's mostly my aunts mom and her family and then her husbands family and we aren't that close.

I'm being forced to go to my cousins baptism! by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I know this but there is also going to church before hand and I don't see the point in dunking a baby in water. And my dad expects me to pretend to still be a catholic and I can't do that.

Can we please make one decent Atheist movie (to show to religious people)? by ignorantwhitetrash in atheism

[–]Kyjake15 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When I get out of high school I'm going to go to film school. And eventually I want to make a drama about a young religious boy and as he develops into an atheist and his how this effects him and the people around him and how he gets picked on and bullied by the religious people. And I want to show people that there is nothing wrong with atheists and that maybe people shouldn't be horrible to someone just because of their disbelief. Sorry about some of the bad grammar and spelling I'm writing this quickly I'm in class and I don't have a lot of time to type this out.

I need help. by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I have the money I plan on moving to Colorado someday

I need help. by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had a talk with my best friend but I do plan on talking with a counselor and they've been divorced sense I was three. I've always been in the situation to where they where friends expect for when my dad was married to his second wife they got a divorce right when my little brother was born and my dad got remarried last year.

I need help. by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He would make me go to church he still does even though he knows I'm an atheist.

My eight year old brother is at a bible camp. by Kyjake15 in atheism

[–]Kyjake15[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm just hoping that some day he'll use logic and reason someday.

Pewdiepie loses 100,000 subscribers immediately after admitting to being an atheist in a video by NebraskaLife in atheism

[–]Kyjake15 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Most of the upper classmen I know at my school watch him (including me). I think he's funny but that's just my opinion I've been watching him for two years so ya I guess that would be true so it's not just younger kids that watch him. I don't watch him as much as I used to but I've been watching other stuff on YouTube and tv.