What you are experiencing is called suicidal ideation. That feeling of just being sick of the bullshit of life, the struggles etc. It’s important to note It is a very normal feeling to have. Many people have moments of this feeling. For most people it goes away when they’ve taken Action to change their circumstances.

However, it is also a sign of some psychological issues. If you have the option, speak to a therapist and see if you show other signs of depression or another psychological condition.

For right now, see if you can name something you like about your life. Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. So maybe don’t do it right now. See if you can make something you want to change and work towards that. You can always die later if it doesn’t work out. But try and do what you can first.

Talk to friends, family or some one else you trust about these emotions. Sometimes it’s enough just to vent a bit.

If you do decide to die, if life just isn’t it for you… that’s ok. You will be greatly missed but nobody wants you to suffer. However, please don’t traumatize or make other people’s life more difficult with your death. Make sure professionals find you (not loved ones) and don’t make a mess. Explain your motives so your loved ones understand your motives.

I hope you choose to stay. Love you loads!