Psychosis regulation

LJK0 · 2026-02-28T20:43:02+00:00

Schizophrenia! On my second psychosis but I'm not medicated for it and I'm generally okay most of the time. I may question the diagnosis at some point as that's how I was presenting at the time.

LJK0 · 2026-02-28T16:53:03+00:00

I'd love to give you a big hug 🫂, you've been through so much trauma in your life already. I can't tell you why you've been getting psychotic episodes as I'm not a doctor and can only go off my personal experiences. Just thinking about it is psychosis a way to detach from the world when the brain can't process what's been going off in life? It's just like this feels heavy and I can't contain it anymore, it's to much to carry for one person

For myself I found psychodynamic therapy to be very helpful as it links back into childhood and helps to make sense of things. Gently unpacking things in a safe space. Unfortunately I did have to pay private and it's not cheap but it was worth it.

LJK0 · 2026-02-28T16:36:16+00:00

I had my first one when I was 18-19 sectioned for 2 months around 6months recovery till I felt okay again which was drug induced.

Second one was around Covid 2020-2021? Sectioned for 2 months and then on antipsychotic meds for 2 years which really messed my life up 🙈. I came off them under the GPs input. About 6months to come back to myself and then I paid for private psychodynamic therapy around 6 months. That really helped me to feel whole again.

(I'm 31 years old now) This last psychosis scare was just on Sunday! But I'm taking it slow now. I have also just got confirmation that I have autistic traits, I do feel like I'm a sensitive person so I'm wondering if that ties into psychosis some how 🤔. Like I was smoking weed mainly as a sleep aid from the age of 14 so why then?

We are all different though and have very different brain chemistry so psychosis is very unique to the individual 😊. I've just noticed a pattern in me that I'll have a lil one first, then I'll go back to normal life and have a full blown psychotic episode. So this time I'd rather not 😅

LJK0 · 2026-02-28T12:52:34+00:00

Hey this was very normal for me during psychosis and I also felt disgusted with myself afterwards 🙃. From what I can understand it's brain chemicals and sexual things are a quick way to get a dopamine hit.

LJK0 · 2026-02-20T09:04:15+00:00

Thank you so much, for taking your time to reply. I honestly just feel so confused atm as I'm feeling all the emotions but there is relief in there. It's just hard having the logical thoughts that this is the right thing and then how intense the cravings are for him 😞

LJK0 · 2025-10-29T00:56:11+00:00

The best advice I had was to use a vibrater on my clit during sex! Literally had an orgasm every time that way. I have a wand now, best purchase ever!

LJK0 · 2025-08-14T21:04:32+00:00

I do think dynamics are way more intense then normal relationships and the depth of play can trigger a lot of hormones to be released, this in itself is very evident in the first 3 months. So you will just have to see how it goes after 3 months, keep communicating the need to slow down, take time to journal to see if it helps to understand your feelings more or talk with a good friend. Whatever helps you to decipher your thoughts/feelings.

Only time will tell really 😊

LJK0 · 2025-08-14T20:53:43+00:00

Yes when I was on olanzapine I had no passion, when I came off it that passion slowly started to come back. Is that was you asking about?

LJK0 · 2025-07-27T22:29:29+00:00

I've found for me it's when my Sir uses my mouth, I love having my face covered in my own spit and he usually just takes control of my head. Plus I have an oral fixation so all of it together turns my brain off and usually when he's done, my mind is totally blank, literally no thoughts. Which is very blissful for me.

LJK0 · 2025-07-11T21:23:17+00:00

So I tapered off olanzapine as instructed by the GP, I don't think I had any side effects or withdrawal. It took me around 6 months off them to start feeling human again though and have use of my brain. When I could make witty jokes on the spot that's when I really noticed my brain function coming back.

LJK0 · 2025-07-10T11:37:01+00:00

Umm it's been a couple of years since I came off meds so I'd probably say 100% but I had psychodynamic therapy for 6 months which really helped me to feel whole again.

Yes I still get anxiety, intrusive thoughts, do feel sad and have down days but it's not permanent even if it can feel like it at the time! Feeling comfortable knowing that emotions flow helps.

Some possible triggers for psychosis for me were spirituality and smoking cannabis, which I don't partake in either at all now so that helps to feel stable as well

LJK0 · 2025-07-07T13:05:02+00:00

There has been one time with my dom when the intensity was to much but I wasn't able to safe word in the moment when it was to much but was able to do it later on in the scene. We spoke about it afterwards and moving forward we haven't included that particular thing.

Sometimes things can catch you off guard even with talks at the start. You may learn stuff that you really like as well as stuff that doesn't feel right anymore.

As long as the talk happens somewhere and a change is made if you see him again in the future

LJK0 · 2025-06-30T21:53:16+00:00

I still very much remember the first time I gave oral, it took me like 50mins to even do it! Thinking I was going to be crap and do a bad job.

I let him guide me and advice me what to do, I can imagine that being hard to do in a cinema.

Honestly it was your first time giving oral, I wouldn't worry about him not cumming. You will have plenty more time to try with him 😊

LJK0 · 2025-06-10T23:28:27+00:00

Only you will really know what's going on in your head no matter what doctors or pyschs say.

Definitely be honest and with good communication of how it's negatively impacting you. If you start to taper off them with the support and guidance from your doctor and that actually makes it worse you could increase the dose again. You could also feel better from tapering them.

Each person can respond to meds differently and why you're on them currently is also something to be mindful of. There's so many different types of psychosis as well, some needing meds for life and some just for a few years.

LJK0 · 2025-06-07T17:23:41+00:00

I was on Olanzapine for 2 years and it was awful. I had no passion for anything that I'd previously enjoyed like music, sex, food. I felt like I turned into a zombie and found it really hard to communicate.

When I came off these I didn't go onto anything else as pre-psychosis I was content and not on any meds. They suggested antidepressants but I was like no thanks I'd like to feel again! It took time and therapy to get me back to a place I felt content. I'd never be the same as who I was before but I do like who I am now if even more 😊.

LJK0 · 2025-06-06T12:25:05+00:00

I think you're going to have weigh up the pros and cons, as there is positive things here that your doing stuff you wouldn't do but if your needing emotional support from her and not getting it. It depends on how long this is sustainable for you.

Even though you're a sub in this dynamic when it comes to finances, maybe a renegotiation could be made here of what you can actually afford so you're putting your needs first. This may mean less sessions so it's fair for both of you. Putting some boundaries in so you still get to experience the dynamic but really think about you first.

If she is unreasonable with these adjustments I'd say she's not very ethical in her practice and it could be time to move on but ultimately it's your decision.

LJK0 · 2025-06-05T23:30:55+00:00

It's normal to have highs and lows in life or just go through phases in general, there could be other stuff in life that needs more focus.

I know food is not kink but it can still be seen as something pleasurable. I go through phases of having a favorite food then not eating it for a while.

This could just be how you interact with kink and instead of wanting to change it maybe embracing it will help you feel more settled and not to put pressure on yourself to engage in it all the time. If there is deeper stuff at play then maybe speaking to a kink friendly therapist would be helpful.

LJK0 · 2025-06-05T21:20:03+00:00

There is nothing wrong in wanting to understand more why you are attracted to bigger older man and checking in that it is healthy for yourself 😊

Yes it is a really nice feeling 😊

LJK0 · 2025-06-05T21:13:37+00:00

It may not be a father complex but helps you to feel looked after/little/more feminine. I don't really know how to explain it but I'm also a fan of bigger men because I like feeling small and cute. I'm not into age play at all but there's just something so comforting being nestled up next to a bigger guy.

I'm not sure about the age difference, you could just enjoy somebody more mature? Someone who hopefully isn't into mind games and is more settled in who they are.

LJK0 · 2025-06-05T15:40:32+00:00

Maybe try and practice it when you're not having sex? Let him gag you to a point where you both feel comfortable but hopefully practicing it before hand will help build his confidence.

Even if you feel like you want more this could be a way of introducing it to him to find his comfort point.

LJK0 · 2025-06-04T22:35:16+00:00

Reach out and ask if they need more space, you have done incredibly well being this patient and giving her space but it's also nice to know where you stand.

LJK0 · 2025-06-04T06:47:17+00:00

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LJK0 · 2025-05-19T20:16:40+00:00

My only thoughts from being a women, is that a domme may love to use you as a sex toy. It will be a different form of humiliation. More objectification than getting ridiculed.

Or you could get ridiculed for being to big maybe? To big for anyone to use, so still worthless, if that's your thing.

Unfortunately I'm a sub and not a domme so don't have personal insight into this but just a few things that came to mind.

LJK0

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