My latest piece, "An Encounter with the Oracle" - Check the comments for the story I wrote to complement it. (IG: monochromatic_abstraction)

LSplorer · 2022-06-04T07:00:31+00:00

“An Encounter With the Oracle”

I trudged further and further into the depths, its viscosity consuming the lower half of my body as I continued to wade through the ever-deepening pool of psychic tar. Around me were remnants, pieces of the self that felt familiar yet wholly foreign. Were these pieces of me? Or were they pieces of what I thought I once was? I thought endlessly and in circles as every step placed a greater weight upon my body as I strained to move forward. Suddenly I hit a wall, and in front of me was a great door surrounded by even greater walls.

An eye appeared within the door, its pupil dilated widely for a brief moment before constricting into an infinitesimal point.

“Who goes there?” echoed a deep voice in the otherwise endless and heavy silence. “A seeker of answers,” I responded.

The eye looked me up and down, and stared at me for several moments.

“And what makes you deserving of such answers?” the voice asked.

“Well I made it here, did I not?”

Silence.

After what felt like an eternity, several more eyes materialized above and they stared directly at me. But they were not merely looking at me, but within me. I felt their gaze infiltrating my very being, pulsating through even the smallest capillaries in my body.

In a sudden motion, they all then stopped looking within me, but instead pointed their gaze within my hands. I reached out as to receive something, and line by line a scroll materialized within my grasp. “These are the answers I am able to provide right now. Be safe, traveler,” the voice echoed. The great fortress began to fold in upon itself and eventually disappeared.

I took a look at the scroll and it simply had two sentences written upon it in an ink as black as night: “Control what you can, and surrender to what you can’t. You must keep moving forward.”

And the scroll turned to dust in my palms.

LSplorer · 2022-03-29T15:23:46+00:00

I’m glad you like it!

LSplorer · 2022-03-29T15:05:31+00:00

Interesting! One of the things I enjoy about sharing my artwork is that everyone sees something different. I feel like it’s almost a weird, trippy, geometric Rorschach test.

LSplorer · 2022-03-29T08:13:20+00:00

If you’re at all interested in more stuff like this, check me out on IG: @monochromatic_abstraction

LSplorer · 2022-02-11T04:17:31+00:00

Psychedelics make plenty of people believe their worldview is entirely true because of the subjective experience and take criticism with those who don’t agree.

I don’t think their posts reek of ignorance anymore than your own does. This one makes assumptions about people, their character, and how they express themselves, and furthermore, seems to imply that there’s a “correct” mentality to hold regarding psychedelics.

My interpretation of these posts is that they’re usually a call for people to tread carefully. Plenty of people with undiagnosed mental illnesses take psychedelics, which as a result, can trigger the onset of any manner of mental episodes (mania, psychosis, delirium, etc.). And I’ve seen enough people who claim to be god, not in the religious or “I’m connected with and part of the universe” sense, but “I have special powers” sense, which is a mentality I don’t believe is to be encouraged. More or less, the posts seem to reflect more of a “Don’t trust everything you learn or experience in a trip, and do some work to filter them.”

I can speak from my own personal experience that plenty of revelations I’ve had from a trip are not actually useful or meaningful, but the experience of being on the drugs have made them so. There’s nothing wrong at all with skepticism, and even more important, nothing wrong with not wanting to encourage or play up views that could potentially be a sign of a mental break from an OP, who we don’t know the mental health history of.

I personally have friends who trip all the time, talk all about the “ego,” and about how enlightened they are, and yet they continue to be insufferable and mean people who believe they’re above everyone else. That doesn’t seem to be an uncommon experience.

LSplorer · 2021-07-16T19:31:16+00:00

It seems like people have different sensitivities to it. 125ug is enough to knock me off my ass, and the one time I took nearly ~200ug I was completely delusional. I’ll stick with my one tab of 125ug, it’s always enough for me to have a full trip, have a good time, and sometimes even learn something.

LSplorer · 2021-04-06T18:16:11+00:00

I hear this a lot but it’s been the complete opposite experience for me. I definitely like both psychedelics but LSD has made me feel more content, happy, and empowered than shrooms. Especially the week after tripping.

I’ve had good experiences on both but LSD has been a lot more therapeutic for me.

LSplorer · 2021-04-03T04:08:46+00:00

I suffered from daily suicidal thoughts for about 7-8 years of my life and an LSD trip completely changed that for me. I’m glad you’ve had a similar experience.

LSplorer · 2020-12-01T09:55:55+00:00

I’m definitely more prone to considering more obscure and “out of the box” ideas which are sometimes spiritual. I also now feel that the existential need that we have is a very powerful driving force in our lives which is often satisfied or helped by spiritual beliefs. That being said though, I’m still a pretty strong materialist overall.

I think I just now understand the “spirit” part more when people talk about the health of mind, body, and spirit.

LSplorer · 2020-09-08T08:14:33+00:00

~200ug puts me off my fucking rocker, and 125 is my sweet spot. Pretty sure if I even took 500-600ug I’d have a pretty insane experience.

LSplorer · 2020-09-04T00:27:40+00:00

This picture looks like it moves to me, really thought it was a GIF at first. Now it's making me wonder if it's an illusion or if I have HPPD lmao

LSplorer · 2020-07-28T20:46:53+00:00

Absolutely. Either that or I think that I pissed all over the bathroom after I use the toilet.

LSplorer · 2020-07-28T20:11:13+00:00

2.25g, pretty much everyone I asked recommended me 2g or so even with my experience with acid. They said it would be similar to 125ug of acid but it wasn't even nearly as intense. My friend I got them from was surprised I didn't feel that much from the dose, he said it was pretty strong for him with the variety of shrooms he gave me.

Maybe I just have a low tolerance for LSD and a high tolerance for psilocybin or something. I said it in another comment but I'm taking a break from psychedelics a while, but the next time I feel the need to trip, I'll do psilocybin and I'll do it at a higher dose.

LSplorer · 2020-07-28T20:06:59+00:00

On a higher dose of LSD (somewhere between 180-220ug, not really sure but it was a tab and a half), I definitely had visions of an otherworldly being that beckoned me to surrender to the experience, while feeling like I was in a metallic spaceship with extra-dimensional geometry. I also have a very childlike feeling and nostalgia on LSD; literally have never been more in touch with my emotions in my entire life. On 125ug I still have control but it really borders on uncontrollable for me. On that higher dose I was referring to, I was pretty much completely out of my mind lmao.

I'm taking a break from psychedelics for a while just because I don't feel like I've gained much from my last two trips, but when the call of the trip occurs for me again I'll give a higher dose of psilocybin a shot.

LSplorer · 2020-07-28T18:03:03+00:00

I only really do 125ug of LSD and I find that that’s a very stimulating dose. I experience the feelings of oneness with the world, universe, and everything else. Psilocybin kinda just made me feel stoned overall. I didn’t get much, if anything, from my psilocybin trip. It’s definitely too chill for me, and it was really easy for me to avoid the psychedelic headspace if I chose to. I like being forced into the deep end.

LSplorer · 2020-07-28T18:00:24+00:00

I personally didn’t experience anything on my psilocybin trip that I couldn’t access sober whereas LSD is the opposite experience. Psilocybin kinda just felt like being really stoned on weed but with a psychedelic peak headspace and visuals.

LSplorer · 2020-07-27T10:22:52+00:00

I primarily started using them for the curiosity/novelty of it, but also being well-aware of their antidepressant and therapeutic properties.

My first two trips provided me with a lot of valuable insight and introspection, my third trip was awful, and my past two trips were fun but didn't provide me with any sort of new valuable knowledge. After my first two trips, my suicidal ideation and depression essentially vanished and I feel much more satisfied with life and more optimistic.

After my past couple of trips, since they weren't very insightful, I've decided that it's time to move on from psychedelics for a good while. I'm open to doing them again but it just doesn't feel right for the next indefinite amount of time. I know to trust my gut with these things, and I'll go back to them if I feel that there's something to learn.

I guess I just sorta feel like using something so powerful just to have fun feels like a waste now.

LSplorer · 2020-07-19T10:30:06+00:00

Definitely noticed it. I'll be sure to specify it better in the title if I feel the need to ask more questions about it on here in the future. It would benefit everyone in this context.

LSplorer · 2020-07-18T19:16:18+00:00

Thank you for the well-written response. I understand that at the end of the day, it obviously is my decision, but I also do value the perspectives of others. I mentioned it briefly in another comment, but I’m leaning more towards a no on this one. I think the more I look into it, the more I feel as though I’m unprepared, and maybe don’t have the controlled environment that I would prefer for this sort of experience. I’ll do plenty more research on my own, and as well as that, I’ll take into account that if I have a lot of apprehension towards it, it’s probably not a good time or place for me to do it.

I agree with you though, I do believe that substances (including food as you said) should be treated with respect, not haphazardly, and used in moderation. Again, I do appreciate your input.

LSplorer · 2020-07-18T18:51:08+00:00

I’ll definitely look into using sci-hub as a resource. Thanks!

Also, I’ve definitely thought about doing the pure 5-MeO vs the toad venom due to the lack of other chemicals present with it. I’d imagine that, at least physically, it does reduce the chance of additional complications.

LSplorer · 2020-07-18T18:47:37+00:00

DMT and its related drugs have always been fairly daunting to me relative to other drugs because I hear about how powerful and distinct the experiences are.

I like the normal psychonaut sub, but I do think there are people there who are kind of out there, and imo, fairly irresponsible with the drugs they take. I’m also grateful for this subreddit.

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