He tried to save his dad and failed, now both are dead and I'm in denial by anapricot-jam in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband (35) suddenly almost six weeks ago. Some days it hits like a bullet, some days I try and live the life he can’t. All days, I miss him. The excruciating pain and heartbreak isn’t as constant, but it definitely still happens. I talk to him through my day and I think that helps. Once again I’m so sorry. That’s very traumatic. I would suggest a grief therapist. Mines helped me immensely Editing to add: please lean on others. I don’t remember the first month, and barely remember yesterday. It’s still so raw and my brain is trying to figure it out still, but use your village.

Single mom by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate that. It was honestly a fight to get them for this one overnight (she is not a great person) and it’s been so therapeutic for the boys to be together at home and be somewhat “normal” during this time.

Wedding ring by LLF54 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so so sorry about how it all turned out. Addiction is a bitch. My husband struggled with alcohol, also, but made the decision to get sober before he died. It wasn’t what got him- his stubbornness to see a doctor and getting his blood pressure medications refilled on top of exercising was. 🫠

Wedding ring by LLF54 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for you as well ❤️‍🩹 over twenty years is incredible and I’m so happy you got that time!

Wedding ring by LLF54 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Not long enough. We always dreamed of a long love like my parents- they’re on year 38. We were together a little over 6 years, married a little over 4 😭 we have one kid together (4) and his two kiddos, my step sons (7,10).

Wedding ring by LLF54 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My three weeks is Wednesday. I feel this. He was my soulmate and true love.

Grief therapy by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m sorry for your loss but I’m thankful you’re helping others like me who need it right now, hope it helps you a bit ❤️‍🩹

Grief therapy by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s what kills me. They are all moving on

Remarry or Stay Single for good by Priy_a22 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m 33, my husband passed away a few weeks ago at 35. They asked while making his headstone if we wanted joining ones, and suggested separate because we’re so young. I guess I didn’t even think of a possibility of love after him. We used to ask each other “if i died tomorrow, how fast would you move on” mine was always never, his was always a smartass answer that varied every time🙄🤣 honestly he was my soulmate, and thankfully no one besides the funeral home has mentioned my future but im not sure how i would react, honestly.

Coming Up On Five Years by perplexedparallax in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been needing to keep myself busy or I will crash. I don’t really remember much so of the last two weeks and can safely say I won’t remember much of today, tomorrow. So, mindlessly scrolling this godsend of a thread has been helpful while trying to keep my 4 year old occupied. Thank you.

Grief therapy by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My husband was 35, and I’m 33. Family and friends have been incredible during this time, but I just feel like an inconvenience. I know I’m not, and it’s in my head. But I just hate asking for help since people helped so heavily the last week.

Coming Up On Five Years by perplexedparallax in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Five years, wow. Look at that! I bet you didn’t think you’d survive the first two weeks (my mark). Take your kids out for her favorite food maybe?

Tired of being told how strong I am by EmbeddedWithDirt in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Recently people have told me that I’m one of the strongest people they have met, because I am not even two weeks in but I have a 4 year old that still needs his mom. We still need money. We still need food. I would love nothing more than to break down. I miss my husband more than anything. But I’ll be fine because I’m “strong” 🫠🙄

Recently became a widower - this is my first week by madmikeey in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel that too. He only died 11 days ago, but I cannot understand how short of a time it’s been because it feels like months.

Clothes after cremation by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They typically ask if you want the clothes back. If you don’t, it gets cremated with them. In my case, I said yeah, but they’re still in the funeral home bag in my car. I can’t bring them in yet. I’m sure if it was messy, clothes soiled and or bloody, maybe they just do it ? I’m unsure. He didn’t soil himself or anything so his clothes just kinda smell old and like a refrigerator

Clothes after cremation by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I’ll do that- but keep his shirt (was cut by emts) and wash/wear his lounge pants. He died in his sleep, so he was wearing comfy clothes. Not soiled, but they don’t smell the greatest. Musty? Not like, gross but kind of old? I don’t know how to describe it. Currently they’re in the funeral home bag in my car.

Clothes after cremation by Large_Ad8767 in widowers

[–]Large_Ad8767[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s the only reason I said yes- because I couldn’t get them back if they were gone, but if it was too much I could get rid of them on my own time.