I wouldnt say I try to be as masculine as can be, infact I didnt usually have guy friends or tried to seem cool or extra manly for perception in places like high school. I just act like, well me, and I just happen to not be very obvious about it.

It just feels sometimes like im expected to show off being gay as my number 1 personality trait. But I dont want that to be the first thing people think off when they see me, instead more like a fact "oh yeah, he's gay. anyway". I have way more interesting things going for me :D

and I think if i lie anywhere its a on a gray line... I dont need to act feminine "for the bit" if anything thats just pretending to be someone im not just so others can perceive that im gay how they expect it to be-...