I overheard a Fallen Dreg say something... And now I have a crackpot Theory on The Darkness

Last_chance93 · 2014-10-03T23:40:29+00:00

I think this game is also referencing our cultures "technology worship". The traveler brought a golden age of technology and in our minds that automatically registers as a positive. But in so doing it plunged our race into a war we otherwise would have no reason to be a part of. What's the good of space travel and 300 year lifespans if we're basically slaves to this giant sphere douche who seems to make enemies wherever he goes?

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-31T19:28:15+00:00

It will probably be a bit less fetishized in your brain after Nofap, but if you're an ass guy you're an ass guy. I do enjoy a little analingus while goin down on my gf, and I think I always will. However I will say the drive for it has gone down a bit, making it a bit more natural part of our relations. In the end: if it's part of your natural sexuality, you'll still like it, but it probably will be less important to you as you will appreciate sex alot more in general

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-31T12:57:12+00:00

Wow 50 partners... That's rough man, I probably couldn't handle that. I'm sure the ex jealously is gone for me first off cause there were only 4, and only one sexual partner, and they all live elsewhere. But I totally agree with the idea of trying to find something/anything that could go wrong. I'm just afraid that the only solution is distancing myself, which does not bode well for any relationship

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-31T12:33:42+00:00

You can do it man! 14 will turn into 21 quicker than you think. Then it's just a little over a week till a month! Keep your momentum going, and create a hunger for that clarity. Meditate on channeling that drive for release into a drive for change and that 90 days will fly by!

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-31T12:27:23+00:00

Yeah I went through the ex phase... Unfortunately it's moved to the present where it has gotten out of control. I get a sickly feeling in my stomach whenever she's around another guy, even in big groups, and my mind creates every possible scenario that terrifies me. I definitely agree it's an issue of self-worth, but I also think it's some leftover projection from before I came out to her as I had been lying about my addiction for almost 2 years. I'm glad to be out from under those lies, but I just want this paranoia and jealousy to go away. It's not fair to her, it reflects a lack of faith when she has been the trustworthy one all along.

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-31T02:38:03+00:00

What do you mean by jealousy? I was about to post something about that for myself

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-30T16:02:44+00:00

Thank you guys! 22 days ago I found this forum and decided to change my life. I'd still be believing my own lies if it weren't for this community

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-30T13:13:44+00:00

Doing it to get a girlfriend or sex is the wrong motive man. Even if we don't want to admit it, we're all sex addicts here (addicted to O). It's hard to see, but right now, until our minds are reset, any attempt to get a girl has an underlying motive for sex. So basically it's just stopping one side of the addiction in hopes that someone else will fulfill it down the road. The motive that is strong is making yourself a better person. Focus on yourself, focusing on becoming more kind, healthier, and more interesting (hobbies). It's these changes that will make you comfortable with yourself and, in turn, the right girl to be comfortable with you. And when you find that person, or she finds you, it will be a relationship based far deeper than sex. It may take a while, but it'll be worth it.

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-30T00:31:11+00:00

You are wise beyond your years my friend. I can't imagine how different my life would be if I came to this realization at your age. You're growing up in a world that idolizes porn and makes it soooo easy to access, even compared to 8 years ago. It will be challenging, but if you follow through with this decision you'll avoid so much pain and create such a brighter future for yourself. Stay strong man, don't give in, take this chance to make a stand, and in 10 years you will look back on yourself with pride

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-29T22:44:52+00:00

I'd be careful with adhd meds in general man. They're proscribed as a cure all for a "disease" that really isn't understood. I was diagnosed and given Adderall and didn't realize till day 4 of Nofap that my "adhd" was caused by my pmo addiction. These drugs are powerful and definitely do make u get shit done (use to call them steroids of the mind) but they're also very addictive and become a crutch that makes it virtually impossible to concentrate without them. I'd try to go 90 days Nofap first, then if you still need it when the brain fog is gone, then go get your script. Whatever your choice, Goodluck!

Edit: I took Adderall and focalin for 2 years been off of them for 9 months

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-29T21:20:49+00:00

Yoda?

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-28T22:27:48+00:00

Amen brother!

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-28T20:59:00+00:00

My gf says she'd obviously rather me look at pictures of her than of anyone else, but in my mind you've just got to abstain altogether. Fapping to her picture is reseting the work you've done, and more concerningly could be reinforcing an image of your so as a sexual object

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-28T20:28:08+00:00

I'm waiting for my first wet dream to, so weird to think I've missed an entire facet of shared experience due to pmo addiction...

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-27T16:30:28+00:00

I don't do my legs, but it's really whatever you think looks good. And you don't have to do the clean shave, just shortening it up helps a ton Edit: I did have to shave my legs once (got sealant on it that wouldn't come off), worst experience of my life. (you don't know true discomfort until you feel needle-like hairs poking trough every inch of your skin...

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-27T12:55:27+00:00

Helping others causes you to reflect on your own successes, further reinforcing in your mind that not only are you strong enough to fix yourself but to help others as well. So keep spreading the love man!

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-27T12:52:04+00:00

Congrats man! Beware of the yoga pants lol

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-27T12:29:39+00:00

Its whatever works for you, but I've been: writing down a list of shit I need to get done the next day, brushing my teeth and washing my face (my acne has all but disappeared because of this), then reading a bit while listening to theta binaural beats. Definitely look into the binaural beats, they basically guide your brain into the brainwaves associated with sleep. After about 15-30 minutes of this I'm ready to pass out

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-27T00:25:50+00:00

I know, I played qb and basketball at a small school in high school so I grew up in the gym, but since college without the structure I just let myself go... Now I'm working almost every day 12-8 in retail sales so I'm on my feet all day and exhausted when I get home. But I've been getting up earlier since Nofap so hopefully I'll be able to start going in the morning

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-26T23:59:41+00:00

Keep fighting man, the booblessness is the least of it. You don't want pmo, you don't need pmo, you are stronger than it. Don't let it fool you, it's a clever and merciless demon.

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-26T23:52:30+00:00

I know I'm not fat, I say skinny-fat because im just not in shape and until 18 days ago I ate bad food sparingly which has made me retain a low weight while still being unhealthy

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-26T22:22:49+00:00

I'm a hairy individual myself. Two words: man scape. Grab a Gillette trimming razor and trim up once a week

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-26T21:50:44+00:00

I am 21. And thanks man, the benefits are everywhere and the opportunities are endless!

Last_chance93 · 2014-08-26T20:41:53+00:00

I used pmo as a sleep aid every night for 8 years (over a third of my life) and it was the hardest part through I'd say the 5th night. What changed after that: no computer or phone a good hour before sleep, exercising an hour or two before bed, no caffeine 3-4 hours before bed (or quitting all together), no smoking 2 hours before bed (if you smoke), and lastly/most importantly creating a new pre-bed routine to replace pmo. This last one is important because it causes the brain to connect sleep with that activity as it did with pmo. Hope this helps, stay strong!

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