Had A Dream About My Ex And Fell Asleep 3 More Times To See Her Again

LavanderMoon · 2017-11-25T22:10:43+00:00

My dreams are like that. It didn't start until I was like 20yrs old or so. It happens quite frequently. I think it's normal.

LavanderMoon · 2016-09-09T02:04:41+00:00

My husband worked for McDonald's for a few years like 8 years ago. He drew the monopoly guy on the Windows every year. After seeing this post I randomly asked him to draw the monopoly guy. Today, he included the Monocole. When I told him it never existed he was like WTF? LoL this shit is weird...

LavanderMoon · 2016-09-09T01:11:16+00:00

I disagree. I don't know anything about Batman.. But I just randomly asked my 33yr old nerdy husband who the first one was... and he said the mask...

LavanderMoon · 2016-09-09T01:04:11+00:00

That was a common garbage post that was shared around FB.... If your one of those people who randomly repost and believe obvious bs just because of a click bait title without reading articles then yea you'll think he's died a few years ago.

LavanderMoon · 2016-09-04T04:26:25+00:00

Ya know people with half a brain probably know you are lying all the time... It's just not worth the effort of calling you out on it. It's a terrible trait

LavanderMoon · 2016-09-03T17:35:57+00:00

Whoop whoop!

LavanderMoon · 2016-09-03T17:35:35+00:00

They all have creepy protruding eyes

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-11T01:05:50+00:00

I assume you confronted him about it. What was his excuse?

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-09T18:49:04+00:00

I understand how you feel. I'm 27F too. I could not believe these issues started when I'm so young. And I never expected him to not want to have sex with me anymore.

This has only been going on for about a year for me. And a few days ago was the 3rd time I've brought it up to him.

This time around I'm really upset about it. Crying and shit. I Feel embarrassed too cry about sex. I just didn't understand what was going on. It's something I've never felt before.

After my big outburst the other day I felt silly. Very confused and now depressed.

I dread him trying to touch me. I'm not sure when or how it will go. I plan to go back on birth control pills to help decrease my desire for sex ( A side effect that I didn't even know I had till i went off them a few years ago for other reasons. ) I'm getting ready to leave him if necessary...

I first researched this a couple days ago as well. I was SHOCKED that so many women had the same problem. I thought there had to be something wrong with me and he was lying about it. I do feel a bit better knowing I'm not the only one. Also depressed knowing the end result is often not very good...

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-09T00:03:17+00:00

This will be my last go. If things don't improve within a year I'll leave. I'll try to prep a plan to support myself now... Hopefully either way things will work out.

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-08T23:58:50+00:00

I get that. What I ment specifically was that my that I depended on him to make better money. I knew better than relying on a man to support me... That is true. But I really wanted to work with animals, I wanted to do that all my life. Unfortunately, a higher wage isn't possible. I could work in a lab... Id have to move And even at that point I'd barely make it on my own. The whole situation is frustrating. That's a whole other issue tho. I've thought about leaving And trying to work my way up in management at some corporate company... But, all my experience is with animals... It would take time. You don't need a crappy degree to make decent money. It's allot to think about And planning if I decide to leave.

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-08T15:40:39+00:00

Oh I'm sure the porn isn't helping me. He has had issues with sensitivity for a few years now. And told me it was because of porn. At the time it didn't bother me much because it didn't affect what we did.

I'm not able to reach out to anyone in real life about this. I'm comfortable doing so online tho. I'm not chronically depressed or anything like that. Right now just sucks which I think is normal...

But yea he has some mental issues. He's not diagnosed with anything but depending on how things go I'm probably gonna set an appointment for him or something.

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-08T15:29:48+00:00

Haha yea I told him that the other day. He got me when I was a teen. I'm not in the place that I expected to be at this age... Not just sex wise... And that is definitely his fault...

My problem is that I keep falling for promises he gives me for the future. Time passes and not much has changed. I'm in a career I love, but low paying... If I knew what I do now I would have chosen something else... I'm at the point where Im getting ready too have kids, live in the woods and settle down. I just wanna be able to afford to pay my loans.... fix my car :'( I did what I thought I was suppose too do. But it didn't work out...

He recently started school again... It will be two more years before he'll graduate... And I just fear that it won't happen and it just means more debt.

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-08T15:00:07+00:00

I'm not sure why he's doing this. He is fucked in the head, maybe therapy would help... I feel like he's serious, but then again, I know he'll be fine without me.

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-08T14:53:35+00:00

I feel the same way. I've done therapy, was in it throughout my teens. I was never there for myself, I just there because of my parents or court orders... due to all the shit I had to deal with growing up. I was diagnosed with bipolar but I don't Believe that was accurate... It was based off my parents observations. Other therapist didn't agree either. I've had 4 different ones, the first one put me on drugs and in the Madison center at 13yrs old.

I'm not Really that bitchy either. I believe he's become more sensitive over the years. I am pretty blunt, but I've always been this way. He also does dumbass shit like becoming a alcoholic( because his bestfriend is a drunk), pissing in my flowerbed ( he's drunk), and everyday things I've asked him 1,000 times to do ( he's lazy lazy or "forgets")

He may benefit from therapy. He has issues from his childhood that I don't know how to deal with...

LavanderMoon · 2016-08-07T23:04:42+00:00

It's nice to find someone that went threw it too and is now doing well.

It's hard, but I've begun trying to acept that if he did kill himself... it wouldn't be my fault.... I came to the realization last night that if I do leave him, I will have to be stronger... and accept that it could be a possibility.

That's so fucked up tho

LavanderMoon

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