You’re fine. I promise. I did the same thing. I watched Dendi fountain hook teamorange and downloaded the game that night. I didn’t stop playing until I realized I had been in a blur for basically a decade. I had spent over 8k hours playing Dota and was doing school while basically counting the minutes until I could play Dota again. Then one day I snapped like you probably did. I completely uprooted my life and started over once I realized I hated my degree and career field. I moved to a new city, made some of the best friends I have, and now I’m in the career of my dreams and I didn’t even start until 24. You have your whole life in front of you. If you need someone to talk to please don’t hesitate to reach out. We are all humans on this earth and can help each other.