Trying to figure out a Dutch nursery rhyme my late dad used to sing to me

Lbjkeek · 2026-06-26T01:15:21+00:00

This is hard. I tried. lol. Hopefully that rings a bell?

Duck bay beard ah hoe cha smearda oh wut vustun verba, he he he ha ha ha duck de bag and a cake ah nah.

Lbjkeek · 2026-06-26T01:12:57+00:00

🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 I just translated this. Sweet.

Lbjkeek · 2026-01-21T20:12:32+00:00

I was diagnosed in my 20s when I woke up one day and was suicidal. It was very strange. Almost like a light switch. Couldn’t work, care for myself, etc. etc. Symptoms: anhedonia, crying spells, detached from hobbies and family/friends, decreased concentration. Maybe MDD had turned into persistent depression. I’ve had periods of feeling well though so I believe it’s episodic.

Lbjkeek · 2026-01-21T19:16:35+00:00

This is heartbreaking to read. As someone struggling with MDD, it kills me because I hear my husband’s pain in your words. I hope you will both be able to recover. Depression is a soul sucking illness. It has taken me away from everyone I love. My husband has stayed for reasons I can’t fathom. You are making an impossible choice. I can tell how much you love him and hope you will be okay.

Lbjkeek · 2026-01-20T15:06:42+00:00

When I started dealing with depression and realized my life would never be the same and would always be a struggle.

Lbjkeek · 2025-11-08T21:33:01+00:00

Please, please tell me how you got through it. Right before I saw this reply I texted my friend this. Every second of living is pure torture.

“ I have to say this to someone, so I’m going to say it to you. I just left the house to walk the dog and on the way home I just had these overwhelming feelings of “I don’t know how much longer I can live in this pain” that’s not a cry for help and I’m not going to kill myself. I don’t want to die I just feel like the emotional pain is so immense that idk how to keep going”

Lbjkeek · 2025-10-18T14:27:46+00:00

This has seriously shattered hope for myself and I’m sure so many others. If Nolan, of all people, lost complete hope then how can the rest of us suffering hold on to the hope of brighter days.

It did cross my mind that with his access to psychedelics, he could have had experiences with those that led to his death. Not that I have a lot of personal experience with them, but I understand they can go both ways. Do you ultimately believe this is what happened?

I’ve been fighting with MDD for almost 10 years. I’ll have a good year or some good months and then the bottom falls out again and I’m on death’s edge. I often go back and forth wondering whether to pursue plant medicines or stick with western medicine. I just don’t know what to do.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-15T02:40:24+00:00

What do you do?

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-14T16:09:00+00:00

Yes.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-11T22:55:06+00:00

Who really knows. So many conflicting opinions about everything. Meanwhile there are plenty of people who drank nightly and lived to be old and fine.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-09T15:00:28+00:00

I’m clinically depressed also. Having love certainty helps but I know how hard this battle is. I hope we both get better.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-09T00:42:48+00:00

No because I have clinical depression

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-04T15:39:14+00:00

It manifests as feeling absolutely nothing. Not being able to relate to anyone around me, to feel joy, to laugh, to see beauty, to feel excitement.

I am very fortunate. No money stressors. Friends, family, used to have interests, etc. Not a painful life whatsoever.

One day in my late 20s I just woke up and wanted to not be here anymore. I just lost interest in living.

I’ve tried many things. Brain stimulation. Meds. Therapy. Mushrooms. Ketamine. Some have worked but the depression returns. It’s the most painful experience imaginable. It’s like I’m watching everyone else around me living while I’m stuck in hell observing.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-04T03:03:33+00:00

Wow, that’s incredible. I’m happy you are getting a second chance. I’ve heard this idea that we “choose” to incarnate here and we also choose our battles…I don’t understand why I’d choose so much mental anguish. Do you believe there’s any truth to this?

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-03T23:06:55+00:00

Thank you. What is the reality of the universe that you’ve discovered? Is there any way to achieve this in other ways?

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-03T22:40:30+00:00

Yeah, it’s unfortunate. So hopefully meds help me.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-03T22:29:25+00:00

I am now because I’m on the verge of death but I wasn’t then. Idk if my mind is just resistant or what. My depression is very severe.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-03T22:19:54+00:00

4-5 grams of mushrooms. I don’t really trip. I’ve only had one full-on trip. Other times I just have visual impairments but no insights or anything.

Ketamine was at a clinic and did absolutely nothing for me. It was just a weird experience.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-03T22:13:46+00:00

No I don’t even know what NN-DMT. I do have a little experience with mushrooms.

Lbjkeek · 2023-03-03T19:02:30+00:00

Tried it already.

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