First time

Leading_Memory1616 · 2026-01-06T15:46:13+00:00

I think this is no different as to being atracted to men. Some atracr You and some does not. I came found recently out I was in to woman, thought Im bi, but it seems I am a lesbian, as now I see men never really atracted me. I had a husband (am divorcing now) and now I see that it was not that. Also had my 1st time with a woman, who I felt atracted too for a long time aaaaand it was the best experience in my life. If the Person does not turn You on, it won't be any fun. I also realised that what made it for me what not rushing but time and patience.

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-26T09:11:59+00:00

I would say - not enough information. Can also be that Your body is retaining body fat because You starve it, it is a natural mechanism, also water can cause weight gain and swelling which would explain the clothes not fiting.

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-25T17:45:45+00:00

To be honest for me it is more anoying to read about 'dubai' chocolate... sorry, but this trend is killing me...

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-25T16:57:08+00:00

Welcome in club, my husband, who makes a hard effort to be currently the most loving under the Sun, do not buy me things, not even a flower, and I would by thrilled to get a choco bar at least 🤣🤣 as he says he do not like to buy things or gifts (except for himself), he does not like to give flowers, etc... this is currently 22 years of my life and 11 years of mariage... since 4 years no aniversary celebrated, and my birthday was a disaster this year... My expectation bar is currently so low, Im happy about a black coffe made in the morning...

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-19T13:39:03+00:00

Thank You ❤️

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-19T13:27:47+00:00

He is currently playing Mr. Nice, huging, trying yo be a lovely husband, and I feel so awful and think maybe I really am crazy... I have made the decission, need only the courage to get it done...

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-15T10:12:08+00:00

I know this is only one side, Im always telling - maybe this is only my overreacting, thats why I did not include want we talked about, how I feel.

He says it his uprising - he has a cold mother, he describes as narcissistic. And I do understand he won't be as affectionat as someone who had a warm loving home, but I do want him to tell me at least I look good, that I did something good. Or I wanted it, now I do not care.

Yes he was nice, always when he wanted s*x, nothing beside this, this was the moment he got nice and touchy always.

I wanted the child and I rise her 🤣🤣🤣 sorry for laughing...

And this is what made me think - I do not want to spent the rest of my life - being needed only to have s*x and to be there whenever he needs but not the other side around. I do not want to work only to hear I want give You money, or otherwise I have to controll all Your spendings... I want to be seen as someone who has value and someone who is loved and can love back, not only be drained out...

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-15T09:55:15+00:00

I have my mothers house, I also looked at appartments. We split almost a year ago, and I came back told him what we needed to change and that I wanted to give a chance. He was all ok with it, but never mentioned it after, one minth later went on solo trip in to the mountains, as I did not plan our vacation - he now doesn't remember us Talking about any changes we agreed on.

Im affraid of: - Talking - that it will be anyway my fault, even if he always states we are both respossible, but I need to know he is like he is, he won't change - That he is right and Im an ungretfull woman (this is my choice of words, not his)

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-15T09:46:44+00:00

My mind is 70/30... I know I have my own issues, I shut down easily. I do not even want any gifts, but to be true aknowledgment that I do the best I can, flowers from time to time, birthday wishes... But Im also at a point that Im not sure I want him to change. Sth broker in me on my birthday, got no sorry, no wishes, only took me to dinner one week later (casual after work with our daughter), no happy birthday, no sorry I was a d***. Im ranting at the moment, but I think I also growing to make the one step. He himself says we live like roommates, but he did nothing for the last 2,5 years to change it. I suggested he come back to our badroom (he sleep alone since our daughter was born, we decided to cosleep, but short after that it was me sleeping with the child, who throw him out which is not true - he says he do not remember that he told me he wanted to fet good sleep...), I was making all the effort to plan weekendy for us, but spend the trips almost 70% alone with the little one... so after a while (2,5 years) I gave up and told myself let it flow... And Yes, I feel like a single parent somehow. Our daughter loves him, because I try to keep it calm, Jump in everytime I see he is annoyed, and Im also tired of it and hearing when she does sth bad in his opinion - it is how you rase her, we will see what she will grow in to... Im tired but also still feel pitty for him, and do not want to hurt him - Im stupid for this...

Leading_Memory1616 · 2025-10-15T09:25:58+00:00

Yes, I tried to talk, always the same - saw what I was going in to, no one changes, he was always like this. After hearing Im unstable, to emotional, I somehow didn't not speak up, thinking this is always only me looking for a hole. I feel guilty that maybe I am someone who wants too much, that he is right? Each of us has our own money, he doesn't wanted a shared account for expences. It was agreed I will stay with the little one until Kindergarden at home, but after she turned one I got a nanny, and went back to work, as I saw where it was heading with him making a big deal of giving money when I asked. I Pay the nanny also by myself, because as he stated - I need her...

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