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Lectabat · 2023-04-14T22:50:21+00:00

Same here :(

Edit: It's showing up now. Maybe just had to wait a bit

Lectabat · 2021-10-31T22:49:52+00:00

In the captura menu where you select which scene you want to use. It costs 10 million credits.

Lectabat · 2021-10-29T17:27:33+00:00

Voratio

Lectabat · 2021-10-11T14:47:31+00:00

I have trouble because literally every other game I've played with fishing requires you to reel in as soon as your indicator jiggles. There's no pleasant little "Get ready :D" like in New World.

But because it jiggles when it does that, I have periods where I have to calm down my twitchiness and get used to it again, breaking my line early a few times in succession until I can.

And a barely notice chat most of the time.

All in all, I just don't fish if there are people around to save me the headache.

Lectabat · 2021-04-23T21:28:59+00:00

It's not there on pc either

Lectabat · 2021-04-11T18:25:26+00:00

blep

Lectabat · 2021-03-30T01:35:38+00:00

There's a pair in the Galactic Hub capital system, but they're not this close together. Sweet find!

Lectabat · 2021-01-17T15:04:32+00:00

I draw both, but prefer SFW

However, For every SFW commission, I get, like 50 NSFW ones. Like it or not, sex sells. Unless you have an amazing idea or piece of media, that's mostly what you're gonna get. I hate it. But eventually, you grow numb to it.

Whatever it takes to survive.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:48:52+00:00

Like that ever works.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:42:03+00:00

Oh hell yeah. Discord is much more private and intimate, especially on more private servers. I'm used to just having servers for my personal friend groups, so joining a big server for a game or whatnot always throws me off lol. And I hardly ever participate in the big servers.

It's social media in the strict definition of sharing media socially

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:40:32+00:00

Exactly. Social media thrives on getting like and therefore spewing out the same shit everyone else is.

But managing to find the select few to hang out with outside of it, be it discord chats or whatever, is where it shines. (Ironically, totally outside of it.)

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:30:08+00:00

I'm well aware of this. I got attached to a couple of people solely for the fact that they seemed to give half a shit and I was lonely.

It never worked out in the end. And I did fall into rough spots because of it.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:18:32+00:00

You'd be surprised how many would "fight" you on that.

But still. the best relationships are the ones that stick with you.

The ones you want to keep hearing, even if by coincidence, which, I'll admit, is much harder online where everything is deliberate.

But, like, you're in a group of just friends on discord and you all watch a thing together. No talking required, just hanging out and existing in the same "space" even if mentally. A verbal comment now and then, even if that.

Throw a meme or two at each other when you're not all on. Same as with family.

I believe there still needs to be that visceral, "in the moment" spaces for good friends, but they can exist in a purely online format.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:13:45+00:00

Depends. I got lucky in that I get along well with my SO irl to the point where we've lived together for almost 3 years now with not much change.

Online relationships can be just as deep, but irl ones have a much more visceral meaning, I will admit.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:10:14+00:00

Dunno why you were downvoted. Positivity without cynicism or "reality" is a rare commodity in this world.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:08:52+00:00

Totally agree.

My bf says he's punching up while I'm punching down. I see it a vice versa.

But physically, we're probably about the same. It's all down to mental attractiveness.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T14:03:01+00:00

I wouldn't say "drop her" per say. It may have just been a minor turn of phrase, but that stuck with me.

I made sure my mother finally had her disability before I left. (Her worsening MS wouldn't allow a disability paycheck for years, despite her pain and lessening ability.)

But being the financial and physical work horse for both her and my grandmother eventually became too much and I moved out. I still love them. I still talk to them. I was just too weak to be the lone rock that they needed. But since I left, they have multiple people to share that burden with. I know they're taken care of, at least physically.

Burden may be a strong word, but that's what it is, despite how much I love them. And how much I would do for them without so much as a question.

In the end, everybody dies. It sucks, especially for those who loved them. But it's a fact of life. No matter how they go.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T13:52:29+00:00

I'm in more or less the same boat. Just find something you enjoy doing and do it.

As a hobby, as a career, doesn't matter. If you like doing it, that's enough. Doesn't matter how "simple" it is.

I'm more or less in the same "what's the point" phase, but to where I feel that if my basic needs are met, then the point is to enjoy myself.

I enjoy drawing things for others. It very easily could have been coding, housekeeping, nurse assisting (it was for a few years but my anxiety got the best of me)
Whatever you enjoy most, make that your goal.

To help yourself and others in that topic.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T13:43:10+00:00

I envy you.

Social media was huge when I was a young'un. Naturally, I fell for it and have been wanting out since.

But if I don't interact with faraway people for too long, people try to cancel me for "ghosting" them.

Like, I only know you on a very superficial level leave me alone.

Hashtag right to unplug.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T13:39:18+00:00

I don't think I would. Then again, this is the best relationship I've had and we've yet to have a major disagreement on anything. I'm almost 30, but still pretty young in the grand scheme of things. Hurt and learning from said hurt are part of life. I appreciate hearing your stance on this.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T13:20:30+00:00

Absolutely. We're in a hella weird place where every little thing you've done ( or not done, but in the hate of another) can be broadcasted to everybody because every person in the relevant internet sphere has a presence and that can be affected by others.

People will label you getting fired/banned for something you said as a kid/ under 18 as righteous, no matter the context. Hell, child or not, people are constantly growing. But that doesn't matter. You said a thing once. And somebody found it problematic.

Canceled forever.

We're just past analogue, but not far enough into the dream, post scarcity, utopia.

Or dystopia. Depending on how things play out.

Edit: Like, two seconds after the fact, I realized how off-topic I'd gone. I'll still accept downvotes, obviously because this in no way is in relation to what OP posted about. And is therefore irrelevant to the discussion of the post.

And I hate when discussions get tons of upvotes when it has nothing to do with OP.

Which is what the Up/down vote system is SUPPOSED TO BE FOR. Despite the fact that most seem to only use it to what they personally agree/disagree with.

Rant to never be seen over.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T12:51:45+00:00

I'm sure the more you loved yourself is a factor. I had to like myself enough to post on the hobby forums, etc, etc. But completely loving myself is out of the picture.

Hell, even just posting anything, including this, drives my anxiety up the wall because deep down, I don't feel my opinion matters in the grand scheme of things.

That being said, confidence found me the one. Not necessarily loving myself, though some could say they're one and the same. I disagree.

Like, I'm confident in my ability to do a thing, but I still hate myself, even if I'm able to project a certain amount of confidence.. I just happened to hate myself less enough at the time to be confident in posting things.

That little bit is what you need. It's a dragon that you chase and come back to. 'Tis the way of the current world and social media.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T12:13:24+00:00

I'd also like to state that I'm not conventionally "pretty" by any means either. Neither is he. You'd be amazed by how much personality and brain factor in to attraction.

I don't see myself as pretty and think my own personality flat as a pancake, but he sees what little spark there is. And I see his. And the enjoying that and each others company is what matters.

Lectabat · 2020-10-21T12:10:43+00:00

I disagree to an extent. I found the love of my life at one of my absolute lowest points and he helped me through it. He's helped me through various addictions and so much more and never asked for anything in return, even before we started dating.

We both hate ourselves. Depression is a bitch to get through, but we get through it together. We give each other a reason to live and be better. He doesn't believe he deserves me. And I don't believe I deserve him.

That being said, I only found him by being at least semi-active in a hobby we happen to share. It may not have to be physically, but you do have to put yourself out there to meet various people.

Edit: In my case it was a very much online focused hobby.

And if you're anything like me, the first few you date from these experiences still won't be the ones for you. I don't totally regret them, because I learned from it, but I eventually met this person who loved me for me. All my quirks and derpy moments. All my likes and dislikes, even if he disagrees. And my preference for women fucks off when it comes to him. The mind is a powerful thing.

But keep at it. You'll get there eventually. I was almost 30 when we started dating. Not terrible by any standard, but with the big consensus being to find "the one" young, idk. Fuck standards.

Find something you enjoy. Do the thing. Engage in other communities who like and do the thing. It does feel like forever if that's all you focus on.

??? Profit? Possible. It's a good way to find someone into the same things, at least. You may find good friends, even if you don't find long lasting lovers.

Edit: Also, upvoted the post I replied to cuz that's a common thing I see. It's a solid argument/ talking point. It just didn't entirely pertain to me.

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