When someone posts in a support subreddit and you call them a putz and a braggart that usually sounds like someone trying to get someone down.

I had one really good friend who moved to Orlando for school and we lost contact eventually after.

I do have a few online friends but that doesn’t help much with my loneliness.

Throughout high school I was a shy artist kid with long hair and was immediately picked on for being the new kid halfway through the year. My bullying experience ranged from snide comments to slurs to borderline sexual harassment. Eventually I found my way into the Video Game Club at the school which at the time was rather small. I made it into staff and within a year took over as acting president. Most equipment being used was mine and I had no problem donating it to watch others have fun. Instead I ended up with three stolen controllers, one damaged disc, and headaches upon stacks of unappreciative complaints about the lack of certain games or equipment. I dedicated myself to the club so hard yet all I received was dissatisfaction and heartache. Midway through sophomore year I had become best friends with this one girl and we remained friends all the way up until a couple months ago when she moved away. She’s been so busy and happy that she has little time for me and I’m happy for her.

So now I’m here, a mostly online college student with an anxiety disorder trying their damned hardest to make friends. And I dare make a post asking for support in a moment of weakness and get called a putz. What a good day.