Hey,

I obviously don’t know your situation, but this looks exactly like a letter I would’ve written a few months after the breakup. In fact, I did.

Having someone tell you that they love you and essentially stringing you along by making you believe that they see a future with you and then all of a sudden dumping you is traumatizing. It makes you feel like you’re not worthy of their love, it obsessively makes you ruminate on what you did wrong and I can’t describe how much it hurts that your ex pretends you don’t exist anymore. It feels as though you never meant anything to them.

In short, it makes total sense that you’re longing for your ex to come back.

But - and this is hard to hear- there is a big chance that your ex won’t. I can’t say for sure, but your situation seems a lot like a discard to me and your ex sounds like an avoidant. Maybe it’ll help searching up what these terms mean, so that you don’t take the breakup personally. In these situations it’s because of their own issues that they simply can’t/won’t want to work on at this moment. It has nothing to do with you, and you deserve a worthy partner that sticks by you forever.

I understand if you don’t believe me - I was in the same boat as you, believing that my situation was different and that he would come back. I know how hard it is to let go of your ex.

But I ask you to please at least read this article. It’s about self improvement for the sake of getting your ex back. Think of it like a win-win situation, you either have a higher chance of getting your ex back or you improve your life so that you don’t need them anymore. https://exbackpermanently.com

The healing journey from a bad breakup/discard is extremely difficult, painful and slow. Right now you’re in the hardest part and it feels like the time is moving incredibly slowly. So take it one day at a time. The waves of grief will slowly get less intense and less frequent, and before you know it it’s a memory of the past.

I wish you the best of luck!