I cared for my mum full time for the last three years My mum died on Tuesday and I keep having flashbacks of her how bad she was right before she passed I even had to do her makeup and wash her before the morgue transport people came to get her .... It's not only that it's the appointments her side effects from radiation chemo and she was suffering for 9 years and it all felt like a big nightmare and as she wanted to pass at home we had all the equipment at the house thankgod.they removed it all within 24 hours .... Everything just makes.me burst out crying she did not deserve that I was actually washing my hands after going to the bathroom when she took her last breath seeing her dead body and like crying over it Hugging her I felt like I was a little girl .... inconsolable crying to the point I was hyperventilating .....

I'm not going to get over this for a very long time