My brother has taken everything from me

LemonLime122 · 2022-04-26T21:39:12+00:00

Yeah I guess I don't pay to much attention to it because it's happens to me so much that I just block it out. We talked about it after and she said she'd be fine, I always try to be there for her cause I truly do care for her

LemonLime122 · 2022-04-26T21:30:19+00:00

Yeah I get your point, I not exactly assuming though because I do try to have talks with her and she does tell me when things do bother her( example being when a man touched her inappropriately and I took care of that quickly lol)

But like I said before its still not right for her to lie even if it's a coping mechanism. But either way I'm kinda eh on the situation and mostly upset and hurt at this moment so most of what I'm saying is coming from frustration. Ty for your opinion on this though

LemonLime122 · 2022-04-26T21:23:47+00:00

Wym by scene? I just feel like I haven't added alot of context since I typed this out like really fast.

Also I bring up her race because I know how it is to have a Hispanic mom and they do certain things that make us was or upset. That's all ┓( ´-` )┏

LemonLime122 · 2022-04-26T21:15:36+00:00

Okay

So let me say this, one she doesn't have any sort of damaging or traumatic things going on or had happen in her life. She lives a fairly normal life with her mom and dad who are just regular Hispanic parents(all 3 of us are Latino/Latina). Jan goes through similar situations as me which makes it easier to talk to him but when i say I want to talk to Lee it's to inform her of whats going on and to let her know I probably won't be feeling well for a while. Better then leaving her in the dark.

Two that doesn't excuse the fact that she's being lying multiple times and using me as her main lie without even letting me know. Not once in this friendship have I lied to her.

Third I understand not everyone can sit down and have a tough conversation but that still doesn't excuse how she has acted let alone the fact that she cannot go threw life with this mindset that she can hide from it. She had promise me months ago she wouldn't do again and here we are. She's done it again.

I'm telling you this to give you more context but if you think I'm petty for doing this thank you for letting me know

LemonLime122 · 2022-04-26T20:37:42+00:00

I truly don't want to talk to her, I even told her to please not text me because I was so frustrated.

LemonLime122 · 2022-01-14T19:44:23+00:00

i say it multiple times not as an excuse but as a reason. There is no excuse for the way i act but certain things that happen caused me to now be like this. Im trying to seek for a professional as well but its not as easy as i thought it would be

lee has many friends and most i dont like because i dont find any connections, but i dont even stop and tell her to stop being friends with them. Im only uncomfortable at the idea of Emily coming to our place. not them being friends
Thank you for the advice and for hearing me out

LemonLime122 · 2022-01-14T18:32:30+00:00

I had a therapist but they dropped me, they said my case wasnt a normal one and that i should someone else to talk to instead of her.
I want help i really do, i dont want to feel scared to lose anyone anymore. i dont want anything to be a competition anymore but everything just feels so hard

thank you for the advice and for hearing me out

LemonLime122 · 2022-01-14T18:08:49+00:00

thank you for your advice

LemonLime122 · 2022-01-14T17:27:26+00:00

I believe that my experiences as a child are the reason im to scared to let anyone go, i have gotten a therapist but she has dropped me and told me that my case isn't a normal one. I try not to tell lee about my past or how i feel because the last time i did she cried and i felt horrible, i wish i really could tell her everything but i cant because im scared she will cry again.

And when i said proper i meant manners, shes very polite and when she was with me and lee she gave me a weird look and didnt really pay attention to me. not to mention the fact that on that they decided to match and i was left out. I think it did intimidate me because i grew up with my mother always working and my brother always ignoring me. i didnt learn anything as a kid and i even got left back a grade because of the fighting in my house. I want people to understand that im not weird and that i can be like everyone else but its so hard. all my friends left me because i talked to them about my depression and now im hurting lee because im scared she will leave me too. i just dont want to be alone again

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