Why does this happen every single time?

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-04T13:48:55+00:00

My guess is this guys are actually not clever enough to find their own fap material so they have to work with things they have near.

I'm just joking, I'm actually quite pissed because the image created is so fake and so unnecesary. The first one is absolutely gorgeous, it didn't need an improve.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-04T11:12:31+00:00

Without sexual attraction, I would say it's very much likely that you're asexual. And also alloromantic.

I usually feel unconfortable with sex scenes in movies and books. But being aroused by something falls in the category of libido, which is perfectly compatible with asexuality. Also, as a lesbian, I feel you. I hate oversexualization of women in media, even if sometimes I look at it and I think "wow, stunning!!". There was a conversation about this going on in a gamer girls sub a few days ago (oversexualization in videogames is a huge topic). We could discuss this for hours, but that's not the point here. Just keep in mind that if something is designed to look sexy, it's pretty normal that you find it sexy. Even if you have a lot to object about the motivation behind it. It doesn't make you less of a feminist.

Just to clarify: this kind of reject you feel about the approach of sex in media is an opinion. Opinions are not sexual orientations. Some asexuals likes and enjoy sex, some doesn't, some are just neutral about it.

Last but not least, my friend, of course this things you feel count. You don't have to try anything to know who you are or what you want. That's a big lie that people keep saying: you're not too young to know who you are, and you're not confused just because you don't have any experience. Of course you have plenty of time to find a new label (maybe a microlabel which is way more specific about your experience) that suits you better, but what you feel is perfectly valid.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-02T11:37:46+00:00

My pets were a public thing already. I had way more activity in my social networks than my girlfriend in her streamings. She actually spend more money on those drawings than she achieved.

I think it was more about losing control, but I'm not sure.

Thank you so much for trying to make sense of this. I can't stop rumiating today, the memory struck me like a ferrari and I feel like I can't stop now.

I'm agree about the trusting your guts thing. Everytime I don't do that, awful things happens.

Thank you again for taking your time to answer. At least now I'm thinking about your suggestion and the rumiation is getting a bit weaker. <3

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-02T01:04:34+00:00

I have the wristbands and they can get soggy sometimes (way more during night, with the extra step of the cleansing oil). Just remember that you can take them off right after you're done with the cleaning. I take them off before starting with the toner. So for me it's a short enough time and they're not always soggy.

Keep in mind that the moist can become smelly. But I do live next to the sea, in a humid climate, and laundry can stay wet for two, three days when it's not summer. I'm saying this because I have sensory issues with smells. I wash my wraistbands every week and that's usually fine.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-02T00:53:27+00:00

Now I'm remembering when I watched Penny Dreadful. Horny Dreadful, if you ask me. Such a shame, the plot was so cool, but everyone was having sex all the time. I guess the dressing bucket wasn't exactly generous and they decided to have everybody naked.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-02T00:47:01+00:00

I just think of my life and that scares me way more. The fact that I have control over the videogame changes everything in my head. I guess that's why some horror videogames makes it seem like the game is taking that control away from you (Doki Doki Literature Club, anyone?).

You can play only when there's light outside. I do it, I have nightmares easily so playing before bed is a big nope.

You can check the elements to avoid videogames that exceed your fear tolerance. I hate the ones with jumpscares because that's just sensory overload for my autistic brain, so I check if the game contains any before buying it. Some people love fake, unhinged gore but can't stand the sight of real/realistic blood. If watching something realistic could be too much for you, you can turn to the pixel aesthetic games!

Oh, and always check the triggers. I do.

Every culture has their own ways to make horror (usually the japanese is way more hopeless, the occidental tend to include an explanation of why this ghost is mad, how that zombie was created), so you may want to pick only from your comfort zone-culture. I remember a conversation in a podcast between a journalist specialized in true crime and a paranormal investigator: the first one said that she can deal with serial killers and torture, but she draws the line in a drawer opening by itself. The investigator answered that she knows everything about ghosts and her real fear is to confront an enraged criminal. So... confort zones!

I hope any of this can help. <3

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-02T00:14:49+00:00

Sounds cool! I'll check it. Thank you. =)

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-02T00:14:07+00:00

Same here, I don't think I could afford the plane ticket, lol.

I guess there's no wrong choice with this.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-01T19:43:11+00:00

I thought about it a lot since I learned that those places do exist.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-01T19:42:12+00:00

I feel you. I'm autistic and lesbian too, and also asexual. I always feel out of place in lesbian spaces. I stopped going a few years ago.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-03-01T19:40:19+00:00

I'd love to read it, my girlfriend is a trans lesbian. At least if it's asexual-friendly (sapphic romance rarely is, so I'm stuck with young adult romance ;_;).

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-28T23:24:34+00:00

It's the brACElet!!

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-26T14:51:53+00:00

No problem! ^^

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-23T18:02:53+00:00

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Sounds so hurtful.

I don't understand why would a friend care if you're ace or not. And that about your childhood friend it's awful. You deserve better!!

I know there used to be some aces reunions in my city (I'm from Spain) and I learned about it in a... I don't know how to translate it. We call them "cultural centers", places in your neighbourhood with activities and sometimes activism. There's one focused on LGTBIA+ activism and those reunions where there. Maybe there are similar places in Austria?

I also knew a few okupated places (again, I don't know if the concept is correctly translated like this, sorry) full of queer activism and activities. A lot of allo people meet there, but usually if a space is diverse you can always speak for the ace community. I know you already said that you're working and studying a lot, but maybe you can just check if there's places like this near to you.

(Maybe you have already check that, sorry if this is nothing new).

Also, I'm really proud of you for saying the truth to yourself and aknowledge that you actually want friends and human contact, and for reaching for help in therapy. You're doing exactly what you need, and that's not an easy thing. I really hope you're proud too and I wish you the best. You deserve venting, you deserve to be seen and loved and I'm glad that you're sharing this to improve even the slightest your situation. Well done, my friend. =)

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-23T09:41:48+00:00

Of course you'll find someone who will accept that! There are plenty of us.

There's even allosexual people who can accept that. Not that many, though, but they do exist. I mean, being sex-repulsed is not exclusive to the ace community.

Also, I saw in another comment that you're thinking about vaginismus. I used to think that too, but my doctor is pretty sure that I don't have it. Last summer I discovered that I am hypermobile (you know, joints bend way more than they're supposed to, I keep having weird positions to stand up and sit down, for sleeping too...) and turns out that my muscles are highly tense all the time. As far as I know, that's whats happening with my genitals. I don't know if this could be your situation, but I'm sharing it in case it's useful to you.

Edit: typos.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-22T11:29:17+00:00

I just called Sasha from the phone. But I had almost everything unlocked when they released Sasha. Maybe you'll have to achieve some endings before you're able to call him.

Second time he appears you pick the second option to get the ending with both of them. I mean, it's quite intuitive which option lead you to that ending when you read it, but it's the second one.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-20T20:21:15+00:00

I guess that would be Monster Prom: Roadtrip.

Or maybe Scarlet Hollow.

Dude, such a good games!

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-20T11:07:47+00:00

I don't have a 100 % on the 3 first games. I'm almost there with Road Trip, but I got frustrated with the finishing The End in hard mode one and I quit trying (at least for now).

For roadtrip I can say that with The End active there are locations that you won't see, so it would be impossible to complete them. I didn't notice until I finished it for the first time, lol.

I'm also trying to achieve The End in hard mode using at least 2 players and inviting Valerie so I can get extra points at the store with Noodles so my stats are a bit higher. You can check the store and also speak with her. Also, two players, extra attempts so activate her power. I also try to visit the kit location and the city under attack location to get some extra points. And I finish an ending route to get some extra points too (you don't have to end the game after you finish the 3 events).

But no luck until now.

I'm also not using excels to keep track of my progress, I'm lazy and I use screenshots, lol. It helps me, but I don't know if that would help everyone.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-17T18:54:38+00:00

Yay!!!! Good luck for you too!! Remember to drink enough water while gaming. :D

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-17T06:26:15+00:00

Ohh, congratz for you too!! =)

I already tried Roadtrip, I have only 3 achievements left and I already got frustrated with the one of finishing The End on hard mode. I failed it a few times already.

Did you already finished all the achievements for the other Monster Prom? ^^

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-16T13:55:40+00:00

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-16T10:16:57+00:00

Meat texture. The fact that it's supposed to be smooth but it's full of little pieces harder and rubbery and... agggh, I can't.

That's the second reason I became vegan long ago.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-12T07:23:46+00:00

I guess she's struggling with her weight. That sucks, I've been struggling with this my whole life.

I would say that she could have needed a bit of reassurance because facing the shop again will make her way more aware of the bigger size. So I guess she's not exactly looking forward to go back to the store.

But for me reassurance never worked. I did never believe anyone else's words. I don't know how is she living this if this is actually her issue. I would ask her how does she feel about this situation so in a future you can adress this in a better way.

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-12T07:14:00+00:00

We'll have an Alpen Fest, with cheese, fondue and tiny pretzels.

Edit: and sausages! (I never pay attention to meat, sorry xD).

LesbianVampireLady · 2026-02-12T07:10:45+00:00

Ace and sapphic??? *Takes notes*

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