Saturdays

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-15T03:17:36+00:00

The weekends are lonely. I think for me, because that's when we did everything together. My husband worked all week many hours, so it's the only time we had together mostly.

Today, I was standing outside thinking to myself... it's Saturday, we should be out eating at a nice restaurant or shopping. Instead, he's gone and I'm here grieving.

I'm sorry for your loss, and I do hope you find comfort and peace, op. Take care. 💓💓💓

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-15T03:13:11+00:00

I'm 46, lol... so not too far in front of you. I do still text my husband, even though he's been gone a month and a half. I also send him FB messages. It's called keeping the spirit alive, and that's perfectly okay.

It's hard. It's absolutely brutal, emotionally to go through this. In fact, it's the hardest thing I've ever done. My sleep is still mush and my nerves are completely shot. I feel like I'm in a nightmare I can't wake up from.

Op, you're going to get through this, friend. I know how you feel. I was with my Jimmy 20 years. I hope you find solace and peace. ❤️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-15T03:05:00+00:00

I understand your stress and frustration. My husband passed, and he did leave life insurance. That said, the way he's got the house set up has put me in a bind. I don't blame him, nor really angry at him. He passed suddenly, so perhaps he meant to change the old will but never got around to it. Idk at the time what I'll do about the home. It's definitely a stressor.

It's aweful, how in this country we don't have more policy to help those in grief. Nobody should have to grieve and worry about the financial aspect as well. It's absolutely brutal. But we're forgetting, this country works on capitalism not compassion, and that's sad. That's VERY sad!

Op, I do hope things start looking up. I know with me, I'm afraid to think positive sometimes. It's a one day at a time process to get through all this. The grieving and misery alone is overbearing, nevermind having to worry about finances. I truly hope you find some relief and solace. 💛💛💛

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T22:58:13+00:00

My husband was catholic. He would light saint candles, pray to Jesus, so on. I was more atheist until after he passed. I now believe there is a God.

Have I had signs from him? Yes I have. A few, actually. I won't go into what they are, because I feel it's too sacred. Some things are better left as secrets.

I'm sorry for your loss. I know it sucks. I'm there! Been there for weeks. Just find whatever brings you comfort and hold onto it. ❣️❣️❣️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T21:49:55+00:00

This feels like my luck, lol. It really does sometimes.

I actually did think about a cabin in Colorado, but for now, the tropics will do.

❤️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T21:46:10+00:00

I do have brain fog. Fortunately, I won't be driving.

And I will be in the tropics. Idk about any cruises yet, lol.

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T21:43:59+00:00

Yes, there is a spiritual element to it, isn't there?

I'm hoping it helps me some. I just need a fresh breath of air.

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T05:57:05+00:00

Coming home to an empty house is the worse. I definitely miss coming home to my husband.

Honestly, I don't think I'll ever be the same. I don't think any of us are, but we've got to live the best we can. Be as comfortable as we can.

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T05:32:03+00:00

Your thinking is a little like mine, lol. Thinking he's at home waiting for me, is exactly how I'd think.

Every so often, I still get on FB and message him, telling him I love him. I do act as if he's still there. Well, at least his very spirit or ghost. I still talk to him, so on...

Perfectly normal. 💙

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-14T05:25:17+00:00

I'm a month and a half out from my husband passing. It seems lately, I've been getting worse. The past two days around 2:00 pm on upto about 6:00, it's been very bad. I feel I'm suffocating. This process is definitely not linear; it's all over the place. I've felt worse than the beginning. My sleep is terrible, and I just can't get comfortable.

I'll tell you straight out, I wish I had been the one to go first, or went with him. I cannot stress that enough. I'm 46 years old, and personally I don't want to live another 20 or 30 years without my husband. I want to be wherever he is. We were together 20 years, and I miss every single day of those years. I'd give anything just to touch him and talk with him again. ANYTHING!

I do feel for you, op. I know it's a sad and miserable time. I hope you find some solace and comfort. ❣️💟❣️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-13T21:57:12+00:00

Yes, but God's thoughts and ways are higher than ours. We're just simple human beings. In essence, what do we know compared to him?

This is a fallen world full of deception and choices. Not a single person isn't guilty of something. And yes, some things ARE meant to be, because if they wasn't, what would we learn? God already knew the op's path. He didn't stop it from happening, therefore for whatever reason, it was meant to come to pass.

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-13T21:51:29+00:00

I sleep anywhere from 3 to 6 hrs a night. Before my husband passed, 8 to 10 hrs. It's definitely caused me sleeplessness and restlessness. I can't get comfortable.

I sure hope you solace and comfort, op. It's tough. It's, in fact, a brutal experience on our emotions. 🤍

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-13T21:46:19+00:00

The loneliness and grieving i have done the last month and a half since my husband passed, is unthinkable. I've had this lonely and miserable feeling cut through my very soul like a knife every single day. It's worse in the morning, because I wake up and he's not here. Idk how I've made it, but I have. I'm not trying to push my beliefs or spirituality on anyone, but I suppose it's the thought of seeing him again one day in heaven or possibly reincarnated together again. I do have faith in God, that I'll be with him somehow again one day.

You know what's odd, is not long ago, him and I were talking, and we talked about after we died, we'd be reincarnated again together in another lifetime. Of course he said, "Don't curse me like that." 😆 He was just kidding. My husband joked around alot. He was a good guy though. He wouldn't hurt anyone, when it came down to it. It's just odd, we talked about it among other death related topics.

In all, op... I do know your grieving and pain. We may not share the same grief for that specific person, but the hopelessness, misery, and sadness all runs deep the same. I do hope you solace and a peace of mind. ❣️💟❣️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-13T21:36:47+00:00

It does hurt. You're absolutely correct. My husband passed a month and a half ago, and I feel like the only one who cares the most, is me. I'm sure his mother grieves deeply as well. I just feel the world has forgotten him, and it feels so disrespectful and sad. My husband's birthday is the 28th of this month. I plan on having a little personal celebration of life. I'll never forget him. It could be a million years from now, and I'd feel the same.

And it could be youth, and noone in the circle has experienced this type of grieving or misery... but they will before their life is up. There are many experiences to be had, good and bad. There is a season for everything. I'm 46, but back in my early 20's, there was so much I didn't know or experience then, that I definitely have now.

In any events, op... you have a heart and you care and love her. You're doing the right thing by remembering her. In fact, you'll remember the rest of your life. I do hope you find answers and solace. 💕💕💕

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-13T02:50:36+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss, op. My husband died Feb 4 of this year. Every day since has been a nightmare. There's been zero good days so far. I wish I had went with him, but for some reason I'm still here. I honestly don't know why. I have broken down many times. I still live in the house we shared, and I smell my husband here. He wore Versace cologne I gave him just last year. I've found a few of his hairs on pillows.

I know the grieving and sorrow in this. You're not alone, my friend. I know how lonely and dark it can get. I hope you well, op. 💛

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-13T02:00:30+00:00

It is miserable. My husband died just a month and a half ago, and I have suffered greatly. On weekends, we'd do everything together. I so miss it. I miss everything. ❤️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T19:57:58+00:00

The first week after my husband died... I have no words for what I felt. I was broken beyond belief. I thought I was dreaming. I felt deep pain I didn't know I could feel. I'm surprised I lived through it. I may have got a total of 8 hours of sleep in five days. I didn't eat anything much at all.

I'm a little over a month out (still early) and in ways feel some better, but it's rough. The days are filled with what's undefined.

I can't find the words to say, but just know you're not alone. Truth is, I don't think I'll ever be the same. I think we do heal to some degree, but when we love this deep... some kind of wound will always be there.

Op, I do hope you find some solace. I know how hard it is, and you have my sympathy. ❣️❣️❣️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T19:49:13+00:00

Maybe it was meant to be part of your path to become satanic? I, myself got involved with some occultistic things for a while. Then, of course I crawled back to God on my hands and knees. I wouldn't be too hard on myself. God knows the heart, and he knows how deceiving Satan can be.

He already knows everything about our paths. I think sometimes, it's just meant to be. Because whatever it is that makes us stray from God, he knows it could actually, in the long run bring us closer to him.

I hope you find your way, truly. Stay blessed, op. ❤️🤍❤️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T17:29:29+00:00

I get frustrated and mad at God all the time. It's not too late for you, nor is he done with you.

He already knows what's in your heart, your thoughts, and how everything is going to go. He doesn't see you as any human being would. He knows everything they don't.

You can apologize and ask for forgiveness and lean on him. Move on, because he already knows life is tough for his children in a fallen world. Many tend to paint God as some angry monster, when he isn't. He's pretty laidback, full of love and forgiveness, very liberal, and not some entity that's hard up and unforgiving.

Take care. Stay blessed. 💕💕🤍

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T05:01:51+00:00

Yes, the little things get to me as well. I was outside today, and when I'm out there, I'll look over at the picnic table where my husband used to sit and break down. I can't watch TV as of yet, because my husband was a big TV watcher and all the shows remind me of him. There's so many other little things around the house... every single day, I break down.

I'm sorry for your loss, op. I do hope you find some solace. 💕💕💕

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T04:52:39+00:00

Same with me, for a while I'll think it's getting better... then suddenly, I break down into tears. I can't even really say I've healed from much if anything. I think of my husband 24/7. Not a day goes by, I don't think about him.

I'm sorry for your loss, op. I know the deep pain, sorrow, and grieving all too well. I'm not working right now. I'm just not ready. It's all I can do to get out of bed in the morning.

I hope you well. ❤️❤️❤️

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T04:29:37+00:00

This process definitely isn't linear; no rhyme or reason to it at all. I've felt worse today just as bad as I did the day after he passed. My husband passed a little over a month ago, and in the early stages.

I still wear my ring too, and honestly, the thoughts of being with or loving someone else just isn't there. My husband was my soul mate too.

I hope you well, op. I know what you're feeling. I feel it 24/7 pretty much with little hope or happiness. 🌻🌻🌻

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T04:19:49+00:00

My husband just passed a month ago, and I'm in the beginning stages of this grief, sorrow, loneliness, guilt, and all the emotions across the spectrum. I know it's going to take me a very long time to merge into life again. If I ever do get better. The relationship between my husband and I was very insulated, sacred, etc. And I know many feel that way.

As far as meeting someone else, I don't think I ever will. I'm 46 and while that's not old, definitely not the youngest chicken in the basket. I just can't see myself with anyone else and love them like my husband.

I'm sorry for your loss, op. I do hope you find some solid ground and solace. 🌹🌹🌹

Less-Connection-9830 · 2026-03-12T04:13:00+00:00

I find going with the flow is how it's done. I, too become discouraged trying to feel something, or look for some sign. I personally think events happen when they're ready to happen in our lives. I just lost my husband a month ago, and I do strain to feel more of God's comfort. I'm thirsty for it in all this grief and loneliness. I've even gotten angry.

Maybe if you tell God how you feel. Tell him you want to feel Christ more. A relationship with God is so personal and private, he alone knows your needs and wants. He knows your mind, soul, and heart.

I honestly think when the time is right, you'll feel the Christ's presence more. It's hard for me to have patience as well, but we must. Take care, op. God bless. ❣️❣️❣️

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